Self-Improvement and Mind States.

I think and feel that we - living beings (humans,animals,deities,etc...) - are Mind(s), and have bodies.

Self-improvement and self-transformation would be changing one's Mind State from 'State A' to 'State B'.

This can also be explained as that one's state can move from 'Point A' to 'Point B'. One's Mind state can 'move' between Points A & B like a pawn in the board game, possibly crossing through more points (Point C, Point D, Point E... etc) in process, before reaching the desired 'Point B'. One's current Mind's state would be determined by pawn's current position.

Transition between Mind states (moving from 'Point' A to 'Point B') can be triggered by (almost) anything one experiences. From hearing a buddhist lecture, to crossing the street, participating in karate lesson, speaking a Mantra, watching theatre play, drinking water, observing a holy paint (thangka), lighting a candle, etc... Sometimes, however, one's experience doesn't result in such transition, or it triggers transition from 'Point A' to 'Point A'. In either case nothing changes, practically speaking - except for having time to pass during such an 'empty transition'.

Not every transition is beneficial, resulting in self-improvement. Some transitions are either 'neutral' or 'detrimential', resulting in downfall instead of development.

One's Mind state determines many aspect of one's being and perceptions. Whether one is in Europe or Asia, whether one feels joy or sadness, whether one experiences world as Hell or Zoo or even the 'Pure Land' - it's all included in one's Mind State.

I feel that death itself, and rebirth, are also Mind State transformations. During the moment of death one's mind state changes and one perceives world 'around' differently, like one would 'teleport' to another world. Same with the moment of rebirth and other bardo state changes.

For more about bardo states, feel free to read: 'Fearless Death' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.


Many won't understand this sadly, but I think that Mind behaves in a similar way as 'Finite State Machine(s)' in the Computer Sciences - except for that Mind is Limitless, is Infinite like an Open Space.

I think and feel that many would use words: 'Complex Machine(s)' instead of 'Finite State Machine(s)' when explaining the Mind's behaviour.

Pyramid of Mental States.

Since years i have insane mental states.

When i am alone at my apartment, thoughts & feelings flood me often and for long, i experience a lot of 'insane rides'.

In this state i can't do anything useful, i can only lie on bed, and suffer.

When i have something important to do, when i leave my apartment - these states lessen or pass.

Even when i don't suffer this 'insanity flood', i can't resist some insane urges like not looking for cars when passing street, or having to buy something to eat that i don't need.

Had insights, thoughts occured in mind.

Had insights that i am in 'Mental States Pyramid', close to lowest base.

When 'better' buddhist or other beings experience something - be it parachute falling, sex, or hitting with head at wall - i lessen their burden or make their experiences more of a pure bliss by experiencing, integrating thoughts & feelings for them.

That way these beings can experience great bliss, as the worse parts of the experiences are passed down in a pyramid.

Had insights that as i progress, i'll advance in this pyramid, achieving better mind states - my mental illness will be defeated, even if diagnosis will remain.

Had insights that i help to purify feelings & thoughts, that i earn better karma & merit that way.

i reached my limit of pain, i suspect, so thoughts appeared in mind that someone 'better' wishes to increase her 'reserves of insane people' to serve under her.

i need my states to improve soon, or i won't be able to work & earn money, i won't sustain myself.