... for now, at least - i think that Consciousness / pl: Przytomność / is Awareness / pl: Świadomość, mniej więcej / without confusion and distractions.
... is there more to know?
... what about sleep state?
... quality lessons will be appreciated, honestly and fairly, fairly as fair play.
... i wish for that.
Wednesday, 23 March 2022
Wish for Phowa.
... i wish to learn Phowa, just in case.
... for now in my mind thoughts appeared, saying that i can prepare by speaking mantras from Meditation on the Buddha of Limitless Light.
... at least 100 000 mantras.
Later i'll need Diamond Mind mantras, and full Meditation on the Buddha of Limitless Light.
... for now in my mind thoughts appeared, saying that i can prepare by speaking mantras from Meditation on the Buddha of Limitless Light.
... at least 100 000 mantras.
Later i'll need Diamond Mind mantras, and full Meditation on the Buddha of Limitless Light.
Sunday, 19 September 2021
Small Way (Hinayana Buddhism).
Small Way (Tibetan: Thek chung, Sanskrit: Hinayana).
The way of the Arhats, or listeners (Tibetan: Nyenthoe, Sanskrit: Shravakas) and individual buddhas or solitary realizers (Tibetan: Rang sangye, Sanskrit: Pratyekabuddhas).
Here the focus is on one's own liberation.
-- Quoted from 'The Way Things Are' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.
Links.
- Great Way (Mahayana),
- Diamond Way (Vajrayana).
The way of the Arhats, or listeners (Tibetan: Nyenthoe, Sanskrit: Shravakas) and individual buddhas or solitary realizers (Tibetan: Rang sangye, Sanskrit: Pratyekabuddhas).
Here the focus is on one's own liberation.
-- Quoted from 'The Way Things Are' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.
Links.
- Great Way (Mahayana),
- Diamond Way (Vajrayana).
Thursday, 17 December 2020
Wishes for better rebirth.
-=- Lama Ole Nydahl's book: 'Fearless Death'. -=--=- ... all things related with Reincarnation. -=-
... i wish to reincarnate in a human realm, as a bodhisattva in a buddhist family.
... preferably in next life and in following lives ... but if this is not possible, then as soon as possible and in following lives as well.
... i've also made wishes regarding love partners in future lives, and about friends.
-=- Loving Eyes Mantra, Compassion Mantra. -=-
... i wish that loving eyes mantra guides me to better rebirth / hook of compassion?* /, and for as long as i have my silver signet ring with loving eyes mantra engraved - that this ring will also contribute to my wish of better rebirth.
-=- My silver signet ring, with Loving Eyes Mantra engraved. -=-
... i also wish to not lose this silver signet for as long as possible
--
* The Hook of Compassion refers to Lama Ole Nydahl's book: 'Fearless Death', chapter: 'Conscious Dying', 'Phowa for Others' part.
Monday, 16 March 2020
Whom do i love?
How it hurts? Who's alone?'
Questions about Love appeared in my Mind, about whom i chose, about whom i Love more:
- ... is it Nerialka on DeviantART?,
- ... or it's a young buddhist woman i've meditated with - as we touched each other with our knees?
Other questions appeared as well:
- Whom would i choose if i met both in same place, at the same time - without knowing either of them before?
- Does the fact that Nerialka is from France would matter?
...
i do not think that asking too many questions would lead me anywhere ... considering too much is insanity and it leads to even worse insanity.
All that matters is that i Love a young buddhist woman, and that i wish to be Nerialka's friend without endangering her relation with her husband, without endangering other relations - both within Sangha, and elsewhere.
Sunday, 4 August 2019
Mind State Continuity, Reincarnation.
... it's written that one reincarnates in a new body.
Human body is not granted for sure.
Many fear that new body changes so much, that 'mere' mindstream transference is not enough. Is it comparable to reading books of ancestors?
... a while ago i had experience that made me cease to worry about that.
... i think its worthwhile to go through this, but on a condition that one is prepared & ready.
... after preparation one should add extra effort/time for extra safety/certainty, i think & strongly advise.
... after that one should wait for a holiday, i won't advise what one - this depends on one's spirituality, view, karma, wisdom, etc.
... neglecting proper, serious precautions can result in serious brain damage, or death - i think ... and i suspect that such death results in related, very bad karma for many lifetimes as well.
... about my experience:
... in my sleep, in one of bardo states, i felt strangely lucid, aware - i saw myself in hell, in a demon/devil body, other hell denizens abused and fought me.
... but i think that due preparations of me & buddhist woman i love, whole experience was dimmed, faded, distant, downplayed - just a small nuisance ... but still so real, so 'bright' as during awake mind state, also bardo state ... don't have proper wording to describe it well enough.
... most important observation/experience was that i kept exactly mine mind state, mindset, memory, and thinking patterns, feelings and reactions as well.
... i was myself, different body didn't matter so much.
... i do not fear reincarnating in different body anymore.
... i do not know if i deserve reincarnating on 'sane terms', perhaps reincarnating will be still pain & shock - whether in human world, animal world, hell world, etc.
... but some day i'll earn reincarnation on sane terms in human world - and then it won't matter it's different body. i'll be with her, with buddhist woman i love, will keep mind, merit & experiences ... we'll be together someday.
... i don't care so much about death anymore, even that i am not fully fearless.
... i suspect that there are beings who keep memories and mind state from previous lives - even at young age.
... buddha from our sangha said at youth: 'i am karmapa'. it takes time before kid develops speech organs, and such feats shock society - so i think such great beings play carefully childhood, and use youth as mind practice & observation.
... i call experience i went through: 'consciousness teleportation to hell on sane terms' ... it looked as instant film-frame change, without portals, morphing animations, etc ... a while in hell, then teleportation back.
... this sleep i still remember, still fairly clearly.
... it happened twice during one holiday night, two visits in hell, two returns.
... believe or not, perhaps its only my insanity.
Human body is not granted for sure.
Many fear that new body changes so much, that 'mere' mindstream transference is not enough. Is it comparable to reading books of ancestors?
... a while ago i had experience that made me cease to worry about that.
... i think its worthwhile to go through this, but on a condition that one is prepared & ready.
... after preparation one should add extra effort/time for extra safety/certainty, i think & strongly advise.
... after that one should wait for a holiday, i won't advise what one - this depends on one's spirituality, view, karma, wisdom, etc.
... neglecting proper, serious precautions can result in serious brain damage, or death - i think ... and i suspect that such death results in related, very bad karma for many lifetimes as well.
... about my experience:
... in my sleep, in one of bardo states, i felt strangely lucid, aware - i saw myself in hell, in a demon/devil body, other hell denizens abused and fought me.
... but i think that due preparations of me & buddhist woman i love, whole experience was dimmed, faded, distant, downplayed - just a small nuisance ... but still so real, so 'bright' as during awake mind state, also bardo state ... don't have proper wording to describe it well enough.
... most important observation/experience was that i kept exactly mine mind state, mindset, memory, and thinking patterns, feelings and reactions as well.
... i was myself, different body didn't matter so much.
... i do not fear reincarnating in different body anymore.
... i do not know if i deserve reincarnating on 'sane terms', perhaps reincarnating will be still pain & shock - whether in human world, animal world, hell world, etc.
... but some day i'll earn reincarnation on sane terms in human world - and then it won't matter it's different body. i'll be with her, with buddhist woman i love, will keep mind, merit & experiences ... we'll be together someday.
... i don't care so much about death anymore, even that i am not fully fearless.
... i suspect that there are beings who keep memories and mind state from previous lives - even at young age.
... buddha from our sangha said at youth: 'i am karmapa'. it takes time before kid develops speech organs, and such feats shock society - so i think such great beings play carefully childhood, and use youth as mind practice & observation.
... i call experience i went through: 'consciousness teleportation to hell on sane terms' ... it looked as instant film-frame change, without portals, morphing animations, etc ... a while in hell, then teleportation back.
... this sleep i still remember, still fairly clearly.
... it happened twice during one holiday night, two visits in hell, two returns.
... believe or not, perhaps its only my insanity.
Wednesday, 31 July 2019
Calm Mind instead of Commotion.
... i am on mind-calming way since years, i try to calm mind all the time.
... i feel that as others meditate to 'invoke power', a lot of commotion, disturbing thoughts, disturbing feelings and a lot of actions are created.
... i have a proposal: instead of 'Invoking Power' so often, let's practice Calm Mind.
... i've read that Calmness is Bodhisattva Way, and that Causing Commotion is not Bodhisattva Way.
... i feel that as others meditate to 'invoke power', a lot of commotion, disturbing thoughts, disturbing feelings and a lot of actions are created.
... i have a proposal: instead of 'Invoking Power' so often, let's practice Calm Mind.
... i've read that Calmness is Bodhisattva Way, and that Causing Commotion is not Bodhisattva Way.
Sunday, 28 July 2019
Who is Traitor, Who is Not? Who and/or what are worst Enemies?
... i think & feel that inner enemies, traitors are more dangerous than any external foe.
... i think & feel that dishonesty, especially self-dishonesty leads to treason.
... there are people who 'produce traitors', saying 'he/she will betray us anyway', then attack him/her, control, steal - until he/she breaks and leaves school/sangha/lineage anyway.
... what's next?
... 'he/she has that karma of traitor', and abusers still keep attacking, new 'arguments' appear and appear ...
... and so on until they 'prove' that they were wise enough to 'protect buddha' by abusing someone, by making him/her leave.
... who is vulnerable to be made 'traitor'?
... i think that truly compassionate people are the most vulnerable - for abusers do not want them to 'rise above', to 'win' against 'truly wise'.
... truly compassionate people are often so weak, look ugly/fat etc - as consequence of being abused by society.
... there are exceptions of course, i think & feel.
... i think that producing treason is worst form of betrayal.
... i think & feel that dishonesty, especially self-dishonesty leads to treason.
... there are people who 'produce traitors', saying 'he/she will betray us anyway', then attack him/her, control, steal - until he/she breaks and leaves school/sangha/lineage anyway.
... what's next?
... 'he/she has that karma of traitor', and abusers still keep attacking, new 'arguments' appear and appear ...
... and so on until they 'prove' that they were wise enough to 'protect buddha' by abusing someone, by making him/her leave.
... who is vulnerable to be made 'traitor'?
... i think that truly compassionate people are the most vulnerable - for abusers do not want them to 'rise above', to 'win' against 'truly wise'.
... truly compassionate people are often so weak, look ugly/fat etc - as consequence of being abused by society.
... there are exceptions of course, i think & feel.
... i think that producing treason is worst form of betrayal.
Monday, 22 July 2019
... a few thoughts about Phowa quality.
Phowa is meditation & practice.
Phowa is 'Conscious Dying Meditation', leading to 'better reincarnation'.
Phowa can be performed for oneself, or for someone else.
... is it truly better reincarnation?
... from whose point of view it is better?
... is it better 'containment', 'enslavement'?
... is it a way to prevent one from 'shining', is it a way to 'close someone in a jail'?
... which Phowa group is best to choose from?
... can Ngöndro be a rescue from abusive phowa group(s)?
Phowa is 'Conscious Dying Meditation', leading to 'better reincarnation'.
Phowa can be performed for oneself, or for someone else.
... is it truly better reincarnation?
... from whose point of view it is better?
... is it better 'containment', 'enslavement'?
... is it a way to prevent one from 'shining', is it a way to 'close someone in a jail'?
... which Phowa group is best to choose from?
... can Ngöndro be a rescue from abusive phowa group(s)?
Friday, 12 July 2019
Funny Musings about Thrid Eye. ;)
... i had such a mind state when i was train's passenger.
'thrid eye' then speaker in train said 'Okopowa', it was notice of a train stop incoming.
'trzecie oko ... okopowa'. ;)
/ en: 'eye' = pl: 'oko' /.
/ en: 'thrid' = pl: 'trzy', 'trzecie', ... /
... it's related with 'power' and 'phowa'. ;)
... what is thrid eye?
... i have some clues.
- pineal gland,
- thrid eye chakra,
- oneself, mirror, and eye of an observer,
- cyclops,
- skrying, skrying mirror, TAROT, fortunetelling, telling future, mysticism, ...
... is sangha 'mirror' of a guest/friend/fellow meditator?
;)
... i think am not wisest that way, i know my place at least ... or it seems so, at least.
'thrid eye' then speaker in train said 'Okopowa', it was notice of a train stop incoming.
'trzecie oko ... okopowa'. ;)
/ en: 'eye' = pl: 'oko' /.
/ en: 'thrid' = pl: 'trzy', 'trzecie', ... /
... it's related with 'power' and 'phowa'. ;)
... what is thrid eye?
... i have some clues.
- pineal gland,
- thrid eye chakra,
- oneself, mirror, and eye of an observer,
- cyclops,
- skrying, skrying mirror, TAROT, fortunetelling, telling future, mysticism, ...
... is sangha 'mirror' of a guest/friend/fellow meditator?
;)
... i think am not wisest that way, i know my place at least ... or it seems so, at least.
Thursday, 11 July 2019
Yoga Tantra, form of Mantra?
... i have a plan, it's just an offer:
... perhaps esoterics, silly computer game, and buddhist yoga tantra can be combined.
... 'leyline of the void', energy line - not only magickal - of the void, which can be source of power,
i think.
... can it be reduced to two mantras?
1. 'Calm Abiding',
2. 'Void'.
...
> in short:
... experiencing suffering in Calm Abiding, karma analysis,
... void 'meditation', eliminating causes of suffering.
... some more of the details - also in comments to this article:
> [ http://fav.me/dd9iy7f ].
... perhaps esoterics, silly computer game, and buddhist yoga tantra can be combined.
... 'leyline of the void', energy line - not only magickal - of the void, which can be source of power,
i think.
... can it be reduced to two mantras?
1. 'Calm Abiding',
2. 'Void'.
...
> in short:
... experiencing suffering in Calm Abiding, karma analysis,
... void 'meditation', eliminating causes of suffering.
... some more of the details - also in comments to this article:
> [ http://fav.me/dd9iy7f ].
Monday, 8 July 2019
Whom do i Love? Do i have a chance in this life?
i love a buddhist woman - i don't know her name, but other buddhists know her - if they want, they can arrange meeting.
... so i serve buddhism to earn privilege.
... i serve many ways - also, but not only - with criticism.
... i think it's a great privilege to even meet her, not only in my case - i think this applies to others as well, not only buddhists.
... also on DeviantART.
... see also, if You wish: 'Sudden Tiger Attack'. ;)
... so i serve buddhism to earn privilege.
... i serve many ways - also, but not only - with criticism.
... i think it's a great privilege to even meet her, not only in my case - i think this applies to others as well, not only buddhists.
... also on DeviantART.
... see also, if You wish: 'Sudden Tiger Attack'. ;)
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