Sensory Deprivation Tank, and working with Subconsciousness, working with one's Shadow.

I am working with my mind and subconsciousness since about 15-20 years.

The more I progress with this, the more hardcore experiences follow.

But there's also more space and joy in my mind, that make me go through these hardcore experiences easier.

What would happen if I went to Sensory Deprivation Tank?

No sensory stimuli from outside, empty mind, so subconsciousness would 'float up' to my consciousness.

I think I would have to stand face-to-face with all of these repressed, shadow traits (research Jungian Shadow idea, if You want or need), with nowhere to run from these... could be very scary, seriously maddening experience. With other subconsciousness parts being worked with regularly in my daily practices, what would be left? Shadow, repressed parts of my self. And I would have to face it.

I think that buddhists and those who work with mind and subconsciousness for years on daily basis, would face more challenge in sensory deprivation tank than those who do not work with mind and subconsciousness. Because easy things are handled already in daily practices, and tough topics are what's left.

So, I think that I should not go to Sensory Deprivation Tank without serious preparations, if at all.

I think I would have to prepare by meditating for a week or so, before I went to Tank, and would have to prepare before I could meditate too... To avoid sudden, drastic changes in my mind, which could lead me to state of madness.

As for shadow... I wish to defeat it, to defeat traits like laziness (with regard to keeping daily hygiene, and other forms of laziness), overeating, spendthrift, some fears etc... then to accept and integrate with rest of what's left of my Shadow, with small things that do not matter much.

Could use help of other buddhists in my fight against my Shadow, please meditate for me if You can.

Peace between Good and Evil.

Since many years, I have thoughts appearing in my mind.

Some of these thoughts say that I should help in peacekeeping efforts, so that Thelema won't wage bloody wars against Christianity, and so that Christianity won't wage bloody wars against Thelema.

Thelema is Religion of Will, Religion of Magick, and was created by Aleister Crowley; if i get things correctly it's related with Luciferianism and Satanism. Some say it's Sex-Cult too.

Buddhism does not moralize, we (usually) just want peace, decent life, freedoms, liberation and enlightenment for benefit of all. Or so I think, at least.

I have accepted some people both from 'light side' and 'dark side' into my mind... and I am dealing with both. It's in my mind for now.... but perhaps later it will be internet involvement, or maaaaaayyyyyyyyybe even in person.... for sure, i do not want to go too far into this, especially considering the sex-cult part, and considering what's written in their Book of Law ('Liber AL vel Legis').

Goal is peace, and my main bargain offer for Thelema is helping them to keep calm mind. Calm mind and focus are advantages in spiritual/magical duels afterall.

Keeping calm mind is buddhist practice, that Lama Ole Nydahl gave me by saying: 'whatever you do, do it with calm mind'.

I am not sure (yet) of what I could offer to Christian Church.

When both parties (Thelema and Christianity) benefit from my involvement more than from their conflicts - smaller or larger - there's chance that both will agree for peace... at least for some time.

Spiritual/magical duels are practiced by using speech, not only verbal... body language, dress-code, speech of the art, etc.

Some people say that when i talk with them, they relax and (re)gain calmness/composure. Some say that they feel calmness, and sometimes even friendship/love, radiating from me to them.

In buddhism, love is defined as a wish so that beings have happiness and cause(s) of happiness. I wish happiness for every living being..... but sometimes it's a wish for happiness far away from me. 😉