Building Potential.

Voices in my mind control me, insult, blackmail, make me do things that harm me.

... they can be very persuasive in telling that if i won't obey i won't experience Enlightened Love; they use other dirty tricks as well.

i play computer games, i buy things i do not use.

... insights told me that it's for building potential of others - so they can shine.

... but it destroys me, ruins my life.

... voices in my mind told me that i was 'potentialist' when i suffered playing too much of computer games, and now i am 'potentionalist' - someone higher in 'potential pyramid' ranks but still i feel abused.

... i feel abused also in other ways, inisghts told me that i am in many of 'potential building pyramids'.

... i think this is a result of meditation done improperly, of sectarian practices and abuses.

... why i have to give so much for others, and others do not care?

... i have so much of potential, but my mind denies me realization.

... if this won't change soon enough, i will suicide.

Building Power.

Introduction.

i heard in a Buddhist Center i meditated in, that they are increasing their Power via meditation, as well as seeking Liberation & Enlightenment on the Diamond Way.

i have only one wish, that is - Enlightened Love as a Way for Enlightenment - every other wish, including increasing my own power is optional, just ideas to consider.

Still, i think other wishes might be useful on that Way.


Wishes.

i wish to help Buddha, Lama, Sangha, Friends & Allies - by building their Power.

i wish that Buddha, Lama & Sangha, Friends & Allies also build my Power, if possible, but not at the cost of Enlightened Love.

i wish to share power with Buddha, Lama & Sangha - if possible & beneficial, again not at all cost.

i wish to lose gained Power if Buddha Karmapa Trinley Thaye Dorje, Lama Ole Nydahl or a Buddhist woman i Love decides so - for any amount of time they decide - i trust their Wisdom & Compassion that Way.


Mantras.

OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM TARE TUTARE TURE SO HA TREY PEY
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.