Many people need a little escape from reality, after their hard-working days and/or nights.
... in my case, i need more return to reality.
A form of escapism is playing computer games.
... under church i've been suffering a lot - so i hid myself in my parent's apartment, and started to play computer games - seeking love lessons on mind level.
... i was too fat, smelly, stupid and ugly for this to happen in real life, and i needed badly even a semblance of woman's love.
... it was five worst years in my life.
... i've gone insane, desperate, suffered pain and depression.
... then someone - a young woman from france - helped me, and after in-game romance between our characters ended - i tried to suicide.
... then thought awakened in my mind, to try Buddhism as a last resort.
... i live still, and play computer games too much.
... in a buddhist center had insight that i should play computer games for buddhism, so i did.
... it's insult and disgrace for a computer programmer to play computer games, we prefer to do more meaningful, better things - creating software.
... we, computer programmers, have egoistic thought: 'i do not play computer games, i produce them'.
... too often thoughts arise in my mind, saying that i am insane, that i am worse because i just play instead of producing software.
... i feel raped by these thoughts - even if people do not tell me this in real life directly, they behave that way.
... playing computer games is great pain to me.
... i need real love, in real life - i do not want cyber-love nor cyber-sex - without human touch it's incomplete experience, loneliness in the internet.
Showing posts with label Reality. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Reality. Show all posts
Tuesday, 21 May 2019
Friday, 20 July 2018
Creative Visualization, Reality Changing Tool.
Introduction.
We are Minds separated by illusions of ego.
When ego is defeated, we are not separated anymore, we are One Mind, we are almost or fully the Buddha - connected even with those unenlightened, even if they perceive barriers still.
Universe is filled with Energies, subtler than physical, spiritual energies.
Subtler energies affect physical energies and matter.
Universe wishes to fulfill our wishes, some call it God-Force.
Universe acts through us.
Tools.
Imagination, Visualization, the Inner Vibration in Mind, is a way of interacting with Reality, what we think we become.
By changing ourselves, we change Reality - if only by our efforts to do it.
Creative Imagination is Magickal tool, may it be idea, feeling or visualized image in Mind.
Once created, it might be empowered - for example with power of positive affirmations.
That way we change, Reality changes as well.
How to Imagine?
1. Think of something simple, as if it already happened.
Either idea or event, for example: 'My apartment is clean and nice, fragrant, pure energetically and renovated'.
If it's event, relax and let imagine yourself being part of it.
To create image, it's nice to paint it or draw it first, or wish so it appears in mind.
2. Relax Your body and mind.
3. Count from 10 to 1, thinking, letting imagine. Each breath and counted number relaxes you, think of what you wish to visualize after each breath.
4. Return to the imagination often, focus on it often.
5. Empower with positive affirmations, or send positive energy different way.
Affirm without room for disbelief, and make sure it's pleasant outcome.
For example: 'Thanks to clean and fragrant apartment, i can look nice and smell fragrant - bad smells no longer stick to my clothing. Thanks to this i can succeed in Love and in Career'.
Outcome.
That way, you can believe a change is possible, dispel doubts - no matter if they are caused by black magick trauma of brainwashing or by other causes, you can change Yourself, you can change Reality.
Universe will conform to Your Will, You will Manifest / Realize / what you wish to achieve.
We are Minds separated by illusions of ego.
When ego is defeated, we are not separated anymore, we are One Mind, we are almost or fully the Buddha - connected even with those unenlightened, even if they perceive barriers still.
Universe is filled with Energies, subtler than physical, spiritual energies.
Subtler energies affect physical energies and matter.
Universe wishes to fulfill our wishes, some call it God-Force.
Universe acts through us.
Tools.
Imagination, Visualization, the Inner Vibration in Mind, is a way of interacting with Reality, what we think we become.
By changing ourselves, we change Reality - if only by our efforts to do it.
Creative Imagination is Magickal tool, may it be idea, feeling or visualized image in Mind.
Once created, it might be empowered - for example with power of positive affirmations.
That way we change, Reality changes as well.
How to Imagine?
1. Think of something simple, as if it already happened.
Either idea or event, for example: 'My apartment is clean and nice, fragrant, pure energetically and renovated'.
If it's event, relax and let imagine yourself being part of it.
To create image, it's nice to paint it or draw it first, or wish so it appears in mind.
2. Relax Your body and mind.
3. Count from 10 to 1, thinking, letting imagine. Each breath and counted number relaxes you, think of what you wish to visualize after each breath.
4. Return to the imagination often, focus on it often.
5. Empower with positive affirmations, or send positive energy different way.
Affirm without room for disbelief, and make sure it's pleasant outcome.
For example: 'Thanks to clean and fragrant apartment, i can look nice and smell fragrant - bad smells no longer stick to my clothing. Thanks to this i can succeed in Love and in Career'.
Outcome.
That way, you can believe a change is possible, dispel doubts - no matter if they are caused by black magick trauma of brainwashing or by other causes, you can change Yourself, you can change Reality.
Universe will conform to Your Will, You will Manifest / Realize / what you wish to achieve.
Sunday, 17 September 2017
Reality is Illusion, Worldly Knowledge is Delusions.
A poem.
'Reality is Illusion,
Worldly Knowledge is Delusions.
Wise men do separate,
What's a light from what's a raft.
It is written in old lore,
Wisdom gone other shore.
Bits of knowledge carry there,
Where light is everywhere.
Worldly wisdom is Delusions,
Dharma lore - other shore.
Wise men do use rafts,
To help people, earn Dharma.
Using rafts we do can reach,
Place where light abundant.
Even if Delusions only,
For a while rafts do last.'
Commentary.
Above poem is a commentary to the 'Heart Sutra', that mentions 'wisdom going to the other shore', on one's Way to Enlightenment.
In above poem reality is illusion as it's play of light & shadow, that it's not set in stone - changes constantly, what is firm & real at first becomes obsolete in next moment.
Conditions change constantly, start to hold, hold, cease to hold, or don't hold - as the time flows.
Worldly Knowledge is full of delusions, can last for a while then be replaced with another wisdoms or sciences later. Scientific theorems are proven or disproven as time progress, what seems next big thing might turn to be nothing, just a delusion by a single scientific proof. Even if wisdom or science (also worldly wisdom) turns obsolete, it might reappear and prove useful in another times when conditions change.
Worldly Knowledge might be useful still in it's time frame, however. More importantly, it can serve to protect the causes of Enlightenment for All.
Worldly Knowledge can be a tool using which one can 'pay' for Dharma Lessons that lead to Liberation & Enlightenment.
In other words, this blog's author thinks that worldly knownledge can be a 'raft', that can be used to reach 'other shore' on the Way to Liberation & Enlightenment. After reaching 'other shore' rafts are no longer needed, there are other wisdoms & other useful methods there.
And finally, quoting a Buddhist Teacher (I won't tell his name here) from Warsaw Buddhist Meditation Center (In Warsaw, Poland, in Europe): 'One can use Form to go beyond the Form', which means that samsaric methods can be used to go beyond samsara, to reach Liberation & Enlightenment.
See also, if You wish: Perfecting Wisdom.
Wishes.
May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,
May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,
May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,
May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.
Mantras.
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA
OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG
SHAMARPA CHENNO
KARMAPA CHENNO
Namaste, blessed be.
Links:
- Delusion & Illusion in Zen Buddhism.
'Reality is Illusion,
Worldly Knowledge is Delusions.
Wise men do separate,
What's a light from what's a raft.
It is written in old lore,
Wisdom gone other shore.
Bits of knowledge carry there,
Where light is everywhere.
Worldly wisdom is Delusions,
Dharma lore - other shore.
Wise men do use rafts,
To help people, earn Dharma.
Using rafts we do can reach,
Place where light abundant.
Even if Delusions only,
For a while rafts do last.'
Commentary.
Above poem is a commentary to the 'Heart Sutra', that mentions 'wisdom going to the other shore', on one's Way to Enlightenment.
In above poem reality is illusion as it's play of light & shadow, that it's not set in stone - changes constantly, what is firm & real at first becomes obsolete in next moment.
Conditions change constantly, start to hold, hold, cease to hold, or don't hold - as the time flows.
Worldly Knowledge is full of delusions, can last for a while then be replaced with another wisdoms or sciences later. Scientific theorems are proven or disproven as time progress, what seems next big thing might turn to be nothing, just a delusion by a single scientific proof. Even if wisdom or science (also worldly wisdom) turns obsolete, it might reappear and prove useful in another times when conditions change.
Worldly Knowledge might be useful still in it's time frame, however. More importantly, it can serve to protect the causes of Enlightenment for All.
Worldly Knowledge can be a tool using which one can 'pay' for Dharma Lessons that lead to Liberation & Enlightenment.
In other words, this blog's author thinks that worldly knownledge can be a 'raft', that can be used to reach 'other shore' on the Way to Liberation & Enlightenment. After reaching 'other shore' rafts are no longer needed, there are other wisdoms & other useful methods there.
And finally, quoting a Buddhist Teacher (I won't tell his name here) from Warsaw Buddhist Meditation Center (In Warsaw, Poland, in Europe): 'One can use Form to go beyond the Form', which means that samsaric methods can be used to go beyond samsara, to reach Liberation & Enlightenment.
See also, if You wish: Perfecting Wisdom.
Wishes.
May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,
May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,
May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,
May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.
Mantras.
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA
OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG
SHAMARPA CHENNO
KARMAPA CHENNO
Namaste, blessed be.
Links:
- Delusion & Illusion in Zen Buddhism.
Tuesday, 15 August 2017
Adjusting to Reality Changes.
HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje, with the Dorje in his hand.
Dorje is the symbol of industrictability & firmness of the buddha state.
Dorje symbolizes also unity between two contradiction.
In a buddhist ceremony dorje held in right hand symbolizes masculine qualities
(compassion expressed through skillful means).
In the same ceremony it's completed by a bell in left hand - feminine qualities
(wisdom & space).
Together these represent enlightened mind.
Introduction.
It is the Buddha's Teaching that nothing conditioned is permanent.
As conditions arise, hold or cease to hold, reality changes.
As reality changes, one should adjust his or her way to benefit as many beings as possible in the shortest time possible - it's the skillful way.
How to adjust?
i've looked at HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje's image, bowed my head, and spoke following mantras:
OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG - asking for lessons from the Lama.
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH - asking for wisdom,
OM MANI PEME HUNG - asking for a way that includes compassion,
MA DAG MA - asking for a way that includes Mahakala's Powerful Protection.
My intent was to adjust to a current situation, to help as many beings as possible - in the shortest time possible.
Mantras affect mind-state, what happens in mind then develops in Speech & Body (Actions).
i hope that this practice will help me to adjust, to be more skillful as needed.
i am quite flexible, i can adjust my ways - retaining only one wish for Enlightened Love (i know with who) - i can use old ways, or learn new ways as needed.
Insights (thoughts arising in my mind) told me that i'll adjust, that i should observe & learn during whole process.
Perhaps i should practice this way more often in future?
Wednesday, 21 December 2016
Musings about Reality & Meaning of Life.
Introduction.
This blog's author is interrested in Buddhism as well as with Computing, Philosophy, Physics - including Quantum Physics - as well as in the other Sciences & Arts.
This article is just musings about the Nature of Reality & Meaning of Life, that takes into account Buddhism, Philosophy and Physics.
i'll consider a few of questions in this an article:
1. What is Real, what's Important?
2. Is Reality Subjective or Objective?
3. Are there 'Many Worlds', 'Many Minds'?
Conscructive critic is welcome, i am not pretending that my understanding is complete.
What is Real, what's Important?
Unenlightened beings do not know everything about Reality. Not everything is said in TV or in the Internet, it's hard to follow current advancements of science or other important facts.
Reality changes with time - as soon as we read about something, many important things happen in the meantime.
We try to understand, we make plans ... but when something previously unknown appear we have to adjust.
Occasionally we lose hope in our capacity to survive or to succeed in what's important for us, we lose meaning of our lives.
i think we should focus on our priorities, i think we should try to follow our ideals & goals - even if these seem hard or impossible to do. Without approaching life that way we won't succeed anyway, and even if we fail - we at least did try.
Most important thing for this blog author is Enlightened Love as a way for Enlightenment, everything else is optional and often a waste of time.
Is Reality Subjective or Objective?
Objective Reality is a world view in which Reality is independent of an observer, in which 'a twig that falls in a forest when no one is nearby does still make a sound'.
Subjective Reality is a world view in which an act of observation affects both observer and observed object, in which observation, observer & observed are parts of a larger whole. In this view 'twig' might not even exist when no one is looking, in which Reality is not determined until act of observation is made. In physics an act of observation causes 'entanglement' - 'entangled objects' affect each other even at a long distance.
This blog's author sides with Buddhism & these parts of Physics that think the Reality to be Subjective.
- Fallen Beauty by ktBgraceful on deviantART. -
Are there 'Many Worlds', 'Many Minds'?
In Physics, 'Many Worlds' idea is explored scientificially - there are theories that explain Reality as consisting of an infinite number of worlds - both in past, in present, as well as in future. i read that our previous & present thoughts, words and actions determine into which world we'll travel to. Scientific observations therefore can tell in which world we are - where we moved to, instead of telling us how we changed the Reality with our thoughts, words and actions.
In Physics, there's an idea of 'Many Minds' - in this interpretation we do not change worlds we live in by our thoughts, feelings and actions, we change our minds instead. In Buddhism, worlds we perceive as real are plays of our minds, when something fatal occurs we perceive it as death, then go through bardo and reincarnation into following lives - our mind and world we perceive changes. i think that while we are part of one Mind, it's our ego that makes us think we are separate - therefore idea of many minds. i think that by our thoughts, words and actions we change mind therefore travel from a world to world - which world is depending on our karma and by how we experience it. i think that acts of compassion and wishes may bring minds together, of a couple meeting in worlds close enough to meet and experience it as finding someone in a real world. This thinking gives me a faint spark of hope, makes me regain meaning of life at least a little.
Constructive critic & wise lessons are very welcome.
This blog's author is interrested in Buddhism as well as with Computing, Philosophy, Physics - including Quantum Physics - as well as in the other Sciences & Arts.
This article is just musings about the Nature of Reality & Meaning of Life, that takes into account Buddhism, Philosophy and Physics.
i'll consider a few of questions in this an article:
1. What is Real, what's Important?
2. Is Reality Subjective or Objective?
3. Are there 'Many Worlds', 'Many Minds'?
Conscructive critic is welcome, i am not pretending that my understanding is complete.
What is Real, what's Important?
Unenlightened beings do not know everything about Reality. Not everything is said in TV or in the Internet, it's hard to follow current advancements of science or other important facts.
Reality changes with time - as soon as we read about something, many important things happen in the meantime.
We try to understand, we make plans ... but when something previously unknown appear we have to adjust.
Occasionally we lose hope in our capacity to survive or to succeed in what's important for us, we lose meaning of our lives.
i think we should focus on our priorities, i think we should try to follow our ideals & goals - even if these seem hard or impossible to do. Without approaching life that way we won't succeed anyway, and even if we fail - we at least did try.
Most important thing for this blog author is Enlightened Love as a way for Enlightenment, everything else is optional and often a waste of time.
Is Reality Subjective or Objective?
Objective Reality is a world view in which Reality is independent of an observer, in which 'a twig that falls in a forest when no one is nearby does still make a sound'.
Subjective Reality is a world view in which an act of observation affects both observer and observed object, in which observation, observer & observed are parts of a larger whole. In this view 'twig' might not even exist when no one is looking, in which Reality is not determined until act of observation is made. In physics an act of observation causes 'entanglement' - 'entangled objects' affect each other even at a long distance.
This blog's author sides with Buddhism & these parts of Physics that think the Reality to be Subjective.
- Fallen Beauty by ktBgraceful on deviantART. -
Are there 'Many Worlds', 'Many Minds'?
In Physics, 'Many Worlds' idea is explored scientificially - there are theories that explain Reality as consisting of an infinite number of worlds - both in past, in present, as well as in future. i read that our previous & present thoughts, words and actions determine into which world we'll travel to. Scientific observations therefore can tell in which world we are - where we moved to, instead of telling us how we changed the Reality with our thoughts, words and actions.
In Physics, there's an idea of 'Many Minds' - in this interpretation we do not change worlds we live in by our thoughts, feelings and actions, we change our minds instead. In Buddhism, worlds we perceive as real are plays of our minds, when something fatal occurs we perceive it as death, then go through bardo and reincarnation into following lives - our mind and world we perceive changes. i think that while we are part of one Mind, it's our ego that makes us think we are separate - therefore idea of many minds. i think that by our thoughts, words and actions we change mind therefore travel from a world to world - which world is depending on our karma and by how we experience it. i think that acts of compassion and wishes may bring minds together, of a couple meeting in worlds close enough to meet and experience it as finding someone in a real world. This thinking gives me a faint spark of hope, makes me regain meaning of life at least a little.
Constructive critic & wise lessons are very welcome.
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