... i do not wish to be rude, but there are thoughts in my mind.
Thoughts in my mind tell me to 'bother' other buddhists, who do not talk to me - with talk & links, and earlier by coming to a Warsaw Buddhist Center after i was sent away.
i do not wish to molest people with my presence, but there are voices in my head telling me to keep them informed, even if they do not care nor read what i am writing.
... do they really wish me to bother them?
... would they wish to show-off their well-developed fascination activity, as well as skillful means of holding bothersome people at a distance - as tiger trainers do with tigers in a circus?
... is it a good style to Protect Sangha from insane person by showing him or her doors?
... is it comfortable for them to call me botherer and not care?
... some of these people are causes of beneficial thoughts & feelings in my mind - for example Rafał Olech - while others - i'll omit names this time - are causes of both beneficial and hurtful thoughts in my mind.
... dear Mind of mine, it is my wish to stay away from those who do not wish to admit contact with me.
... dear thoughts and feelings of mine - do not make me bother others with my presence, voice or writing.
My Karmic Way: Noble Eightfold Path with Four Immeasurables Practice and Antisectarian Mahakala Practice,
... as well as with other Artful & Scientific Ways - including Esoteric, Worldly & Martial Ways.
Tuesday, 31 July 2018
Of why i left the Catholic Church for Buddhism.
i was raised in a catholic family.
i have the experience of the church's members expecting me to be better than them - they demanded me to behave good, but they didn't behave that way.
Most of them were moralizing, telling me what to do - but they were not examples, they didn't inspire only demand. With a few of rare exceptions, of deeply religious people.
As i grew up, i tried to suicide, my inner pain, my feeling of guilt was so big.
... i told myself - that if i was so bad, the world without me will be better. And i knew deep in my heart that it would be others who would regret that suicide more than me. i felt a sarcastic satisfaction with that feeling and thought.
My suicide attempt failed, then i meditated, recovered for a while.
Now i have voices in my head telling me what to do, how to spend money, what to eat, how to behave during holidays / tomorrow is Lughnasadh, so i had many insisting voices today /, etc. - the voices tell me that it's church's wish to behave that way, so i can suffer, and then go to heaven.
i think church tries to convert others out their desire for material and other gains - they want more of their 'lower ranks', so they can bask in pride of their superiority, and benefit from the work of 'lessers'.
i think this is rude and stupid to demand me to suffer under them until end of life, so i can go to heaven that way.
Why they won't develop tolerance and suffer under Buddhism, working for other views and faiths, suffering so they can go to heaven that way?
/ i advise checking Buddhists You choose to serve, if You decide to do so - some are too abusive and sectarian. i do not wish to create martyrs and law court trials - in my opinion it's better to cease to serve abusers than to quietly abide, than to create unneccessary drama. yes, some buddhists are jerks. ;) /
i certainly do not wish to return to Catholic Church, i think such conversion would make me wish to suicide again.
i think Catholic Church, in order to convert people should inspire by living as examples, not demanding what they do not represent by themselves.
... but why Buddhism?
... since childhood i was impressed with martial arts and buddhist ideas, without knowing roots.
... then as i understood i turned to buddhism, but also to other views and faiths - as Wicca or the Golden Dawn - which i liked at youth.
-=- Truth is what brings together, instead of separating - but honesty is still important. -=-
-=- i should read this book, when i can. -=-
... see also, if you wish, or need, ... : Faith vs. Experience.
i have the experience of the church's members expecting me to be better than them - they demanded me to behave good, but they didn't behave that way.
Most of them were moralizing, telling me what to do - but they were not examples, they didn't inspire only demand. With a few of rare exceptions, of deeply religious people.
As i grew up, i tried to suicide, my inner pain, my feeling of guilt was so big.
... i told myself - that if i was so bad, the world without me will be better. And i knew deep in my heart that it would be others who would regret that suicide more than me. i felt a sarcastic satisfaction with that feeling and thought.
My suicide attempt failed, then i meditated, recovered for a while.
Now i have voices in my head telling me what to do, how to spend money, what to eat, how to behave during holidays / tomorrow is Lughnasadh, so i had many insisting voices today /, etc. - the voices tell me that it's church's wish to behave that way, so i can suffer, and then go to heaven.
i think church tries to convert others out their desire for material and other gains - they want more of their 'lower ranks', so they can bask in pride of their superiority, and benefit from the work of 'lessers'.
i think this is rude and stupid to demand me to suffer under them until end of life, so i can go to heaven that way.
Why they won't develop tolerance and suffer under Buddhism, working for other views and faiths, suffering so they can go to heaven that way?
/ i advise checking Buddhists You choose to serve, if You decide to do so - some are too abusive and sectarian. i do not wish to create martyrs and law court trials - in my opinion it's better to cease to serve abusers than to quietly abide, than to create unneccessary drama. yes, some buddhists are jerks. ;) /
i certainly do not wish to return to Catholic Church, i think such conversion would make me wish to suicide again.
i think Catholic Church, in order to convert people should inspire by living as examples, not demanding what they do not represent by themselves.
... but why Buddhism?
... since childhood i was impressed with martial arts and buddhist ideas, without knowing roots.
... then as i understood i turned to buddhism, but also to other views and faiths - as Wicca or the Golden Dawn - which i liked at youth.
-=- Truth is what brings together, instead of separating - but honesty is still important. -=-
-=- i should read this book, when i can. -=-
... see also, if you wish, or need, ... : Faith vs. Experience.
Saturday, 28 July 2018
Turning Anger against Self.
Consequences.
Too much of anger is a trap.
As one releases anger, one often loses control and does harmful things to oneself and to others, seeding bad karma in one's own store consciousness.
Eventually that karma will emerge from store consciousness and one will face unpleasant results.
More than that, as one loses control one struggles in a blind, painful fight ... and results are miserable. That way one is punished by one's own anger.
How to handle anger?
'Here Buddha's advice is to develop compassion for others and to understand that maybe those who make mistakes cannot help it.'
-- Quoted from 'The Way Things Are' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.
'One's handling of disturbing emotions on the thrid and ultimate level is often explained metaphorically: one lets the thief enter an empty house. This means not giving one's enemies any nourishment and strength. One simply and tenaciously continues doing what lies in front of one's nose and behaves like an elephant pricked by thorns. Though thorns are there, one stays "cool and calm" and is aware of of the strength of their skin. They don't give the disturbing emotions any power. Seeing one's disturbing emotions like a silly film on TV that one doesn't need to watch also gives mind its wished-for space. After repeated appearances in varying costumes, but with decreasing success, the disturbing emotions gradually stay away. Their power dwindles and, when they lose their influence, one may even give them useful, but uncomfortable jobs: in the case of waning anger - wash the car; in the case of jealousy - clean the toilet; in the case of confusion - answer some mail; and so forth. Chores like these, habitually enforced, encourage mental trips to quickly flee'.
-- Quoted from 'Buddha & Love' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.
Aside from these methods, i've experienced that it might be useful to calmly & wisely release a small amounts of anger at one's own self's parts. Like in martial arts, when one strikes, one breathes out and releases a little of anger, sometimes as part of Kiai, battle shout. One can shout HUNG mantra as a battle shout as well.
But how this relates with one's self?
When a cause of anger-arousing troubles originates in one's mind / more precisely: in one's self /, one can perceive it quickly if one observes mind.
One should never accept bad mental trips, one should develop distance & criticism to what appears in one's mind.
One can develop intent of attacking these causes of troubles, breathe out a small & controlled amount of anger while thinking or speaking the HUNG mantra.
Invoking Mahakala, with mantra OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA might help as well.
Mantras.
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
HUNG
KARMAPA CHENNO
Sunday, 22 July 2018
Samurai - Zen Monk's advice for Beginners.
Suzuki Shōsan & advice.
In a book about Suzuki Shōsan, about a samurai who became Zen monk there are advices for beginners with bad karma, as well as other teachings.
Suzuki Shōsan learned from a tantric Zen master, cultivated vital energy (as Ki is called in this book) symbolized by two guardian deities - Niō - who stand on either side of the temple gate. Each carries a thunderbolt-like weapon (kongōsho) that, according to esoteric Buddhism, symbolizes the diamond-hard wisdom mind.
The advices for beginners, especially for those with bad karma are as follows:
'Become a Vengeful Spirit of the Buddha Dharma.
(...)
To practice Buddha Dharma, you should model yourself after Buddhist images. But beginners should not focus on the image of the Tathagata, for they are not yet able to do Tathagata Zazen. They should focus on the Niō and Fudo* and do Niō zazen.
(...)
If you try for quick results, you'll only regress.'
* Fudo Myō-ō, a wrathful figure, a form of Dainichi Nyorai / Sanskrit: Mahavairocana-tathagatha, the Buddha who expounded Esoteric Buddhism (...) Like the Niō, he possesses the vital energy neccessary to fight deluded thoughts.
-=- click images to enlarge, if You wish. -=-
Blog author's comment.
After reading more about Suzuki Shōsan's life and teachings, i did some of Mahakala's - also Buddhist Protector Deity - practices.
... i found that my mind-state shares a lot with view of Suzuki Shōsan. Perhaps i was his student in previous lives.
... i've started a war against my ego, releasing anger at my ego's parts.
This felt the painful and hopeless struggle to fight so stupidly, had insights that this is glimpse on my karma from a lot of my past lives, when i was warrior without much of informations, who fought blindly, was used by others and suffered greatly because of that.
... i've read Lama Ole Nydahl's words about Ego, he wrote that ego is quite strong, but dumb as ox.
... i decided that i should fight against ego wisely, and calmly - unleashing anger only a little when i need it's power to overcome inner foes.
... i think it's too timid and dumb to neglect anger release completely, as is stupid and dangerous to release too much of anger as well.
... when i'll feel abused, i'll get a little angry since now - unlike of what i did so far, as i was too good and tolerant for abuses - for my own good.
... i decided that i won't expect quick results, initially prepared for a very long war against ego - on the Mahakala Way, on the Way of Mahakala Buddha, that i identify with.
It seems wise to follow Suzuki Shōsan's advice to identify with a wrathful protector, when one is beginner with a lot of bad karma.
One should not tolerate abuses against oneself and others, no matter if they come from one's own ego or from real people.
Spells & Mantras.
It is Arful Eye!
Empower!
MA DAG MA
HUM
In a book about Suzuki Shōsan, about a samurai who became Zen monk there are advices for beginners with bad karma, as well as other teachings.
Suzuki Shōsan learned from a tantric Zen master, cultivated vital energy (as Ki is called in this book) symbolized by two guardian deities - Niō - who stand on either side of the temple gate. Each carries a thunderbolt-like weapon (kongōsho) that, according to esoteric Buddhism, symbolizes the diamond-hard wisdom mind.
The advices for beginners, especially for those with bad karma are as follows:
'Become a Vengeful Spirit of the Buddha Dharma.
(...)
To practice Buddha Dharma, you should model yourself after Buddhist images. But beginners should not focus on the image of the Tathagata, for they are not yet able to do Tathagata Zazen. They should focus on the Niō and Fudo* and do Niō zazen.
(...)
If you try for quick results, you'll only regress.'
* Fudo Myō-ō, a wrathful figure, a form of Dainichi Nyorai / Sanskrit: Mahavairocana-tathagatha, the Buddha who expounded Esoteric Buddhism (...) Like the Niō, he possesses the vital energy neccessary to fight deluded thoughts.
-=- click images to enlarge, if You wish. -=-
Blog author's comment.
After reading more about Suzuki Shōsan's life and teachings, i did some of Mahakala's - also Buddhist Protector Deity - practices.
... i found that my mind-state shares a lot with view of Suzuki Shōsan. Perhaps i was his student in previous lives.
... i've started a war against my ego, releasing anger at my ego's parts.
This felt the painful and hopeless struggle to fight so stupidly, had insights that this is glimpse on my karma from a lot of my past lives, when i was warrior without much of informations, who fought blindly, was used by others and suffered greatly because of that.
... i've read Lama Ole Nydahl's words about Ego, he wrote that ego is quite strong, but dumb as ox.
... i decided that i should fight against ego wisely, and calmly - unleashing anger only a little when i need it's power to overcome inner foes.
... i think it's too timid and dumb to neglect anger release completely, as is stupid and dangerous to release too much of anger as well.
... when i'll feel abused, i'll get a little angry since now - unlike of what i did so far, as i was too good and tolerant for abuses - for my own good.
... i decided that i won't expect quick results, initially prepared for a very long war against ego - on the Mahakala Way, on the Way of Mahakala Buddha, that i identify with.
It seems wise to follow Suzuki Shōsan's advice to identify with a wrathful protector, when one is beginner with a lot of bad karma.
One should not tolerate abuses against oneself and others, no matter if they come from one's own ego or from real people.
Spells & Mantras.
It is Arful Eye!
Empower!
MA DAG MA
HUM
Saturday, 21 July 2018
Symbols of Truth, what they are?
Purpose.
... to interpret visions, insights and skrying attempts, i wish to use 'Symbols of Truth'.
See also, if You wish: Wish for Mental Skrying Tools, in Service for All Buddhas, Skrying in Service for All Buddhas.
What is truth?
... i like to say that 'truth is what brings together instead of separating, but honesty is also important'.
There are many truths, as many as there are beings.
Symbols of Truth.
... i think Symbols of Truth are symbols that invoke view of certain beings into my view, that these symbols say what is beneficial and what is harmful, that these symbols say who is friend and who is foe.
... in buddhism worst foe is ignorance, the root cause of all detrimential mind states. Ego is foe in Buddhism as well.
What Symbols of Truth i should use?
... i wish to use the Symbols of Truth that:
* include view of All Buddhas,
* include view of All Sanghas,
* include view of a Buddhist woman i Love,
* include view of the Rosicrucian Golden Dawn,
* include views of other Esoteric Groups - including Wicca, Witchcraft, and Luciferianism,
* dispel distractions - awaken clear and calm mind, awaken clear awareness, awaken discriminating wisdom,
* bring beings together, instead of separating,
Yes, i know - my visions will be interpreted through biased lens - but i tell about my preferences openly, at least.
... i fight for people & ideas i support, that way - and prefer to not fight too blindly - 'Symbols of Truth' are just a tool for that.
... feel free to criticize, if You wish.
Spell - Mantras.
Wisdom, Awaken!
Mind of Truth, Awaken!
Artful Eye, Awaken!
Empower!
... to interpret visions, insights and skrying attempts, i wish to use 'Symbols of Truth'.
See also, if You wish: Wish for Mental Skrying Tools, in Service for All Buddhas, Skrying in Service for All Buddhas.
What is truth?
... i like to say that 'truth is what brings together instead of separating, but honesty is also important'.
There are many truths, as many as there are beings.
Symbols of Truth.
... i think Symbols of Truth are symbols that invoke view of certain beings into my view, that these symbols say what is beneficial and what is harmful, that these symbols say who is friend and who is foe.
... in buddhism worst foe is ignorance, the root cause of all detrimential mind states. Ego is foe in Buddhism as well.
What Symbols of Truth i should use?
... i wish to use the Symbols of Truth that:
* include view of All Buddhas,
* include view of All Sanghas,
* include view of a Buddhist woman i Love,
* include view of the Rosicrucian Golden Dawn,
* include views of other Esoteric Groups - including Wicca, Witchcraft, and Luciferianism,
* dispel distractions - awaken clear and calm mind, awaken clear awareness, awaken discriminating wisdom,
* bring beings together, instead of separating,
Yes, i know - my visions will be interpreted through biased lens - but i tell about my preferences openly, at least.
... i fight for people & ideas i support, that way - and prefer to not fight too blindly - 'Symbols of Truth' are just a tool for that.
... feel free to criticize, if You wish.
Spell - Mantras.
Wisdom, Awaken!
Mind of Truth, Awaken!
Artful Eye, Awaken!
Empower!
Friday, 20 July 2018
Wish for Mental Skrying Tools, in Service for All Buddhas.
Introduction.
A while ago i've offered to Serve All Buddhas with Skrying.
Methods.
i've a read in the Golden Dawn's Ritual Magick book about skrying.
... it's performed more or less as follows / i've transformed method to more Buddhist view /:
1. Ritually, Beings from other Worlds are invoked in Mind,
2. Using Visualization, Perceptions and Senses are Awakened,
3. Using Visualization, Gates to the Worlds are opened, through which one's Perceptions pass,
4. Visions are experienced and recorded in a journal,
5. Symbols of Truth are invoked and observed in a Vision. These Symbols dispel Lies and Distractions.
Wishes.
Therefore, i wish for following tools:
1. Insight into more interresting Worlds and their Natures, from the Buddhist perspective,
2. Methods for invoking knowledgeable and wise beings from these words,
3. Visualization tools for Awakening Perceptions and Senses,
4. Visualization tools for Opening Gates to the above mentioned Worlds,
5. Visualization methods, wisdoms and other and tools related with Symbols of Truth.
Spell & Mantras.
It is Artful Eye.
It is Light.
Karmapa Chenno.
A while ago i've offered to Serve All Buddhas with Skrying.
Methods.
i've a read in the Golden Dawn's Ritual Magick book about skrying.
... it's performed more or less as follows / i've transformed method to more Buddhist view /:
1. Ritually, Beings from other Worlds are invoked in Mind,
2. Using Visualization, Perceptions and Senses are Awakened,
3. Using Visualization, Gates to the Worlds are opened, through which one's Perceptions pass,
4. Visions are experienced and recorded in a journal,
5. Symbols of Truth are invoked and observed in a Vision. These Symbols dispel Lies and Distractions.
Wishes.
Therefore, i wish for following tools:
1. Insight into more interresting Worlds and their Natures, from the Buddhist perspective,
2. Methods for invoking knowledgeable and wise beings from these words,
3. Visualization tools for Awakening Perceptions and Senses,
4. Visualization tools for Opening Gates to the above mentioned Worlds,
5. Visualization methods, wisdoms and other and tools related with Symbols of Truth.
Spell & Mantras.
It is Artful Eye.
It is Light.
Karmapa Chenno.
Creative Visualization, Reality Changing Tool.
Introduction.
We are Minds separated by illusions of ego.
When ego is defeated, we are not separated anymore, we are One Mind, we are almost or fully the Buddha - connected even with those unenlightened, even if they perceive barriers still.
Universe is filled with Energies, subtler than physical, spiritual energies.
Subtler energies affect physical energies and matter.
Universe wishes to fulfill our wishes, some call it God-Force.
Universe acts through us.
Tools.
Imagination, Visualization, the Inner Vibration in Mind, is a way of interacting with Reality, what we think we become.
By changing ourselves, we change Reality - if only by our efforts to do it.
Creative Imagination is Magickal tool, may it be idea, feeling or visualized image in Mind.
Once created, it might be empowered - for example with power of positive affirmations.
That way we change, Reality changes as well.
How to Imagine?
1. Think of something simple, as if it already happened.
Either idea or event, for example: 'My apartment is clean and nice, fragrant, pure energetically and renovated'.
If it's event, relax and let imagine yourself being part of it.
To create image, it's nice to paint it or draw it first, or wish so it appears in mind.
2. Relax Your body and mind.
3. Count from 10 to 1, thinking, letting imagine. Each breath and counted number relaxes you, think of what you wish to visualize after each breath.
4. Return to the imagination often, focus on it often.
5. Empower with positive affirmations, or send positive energy different way.
Affirm without room for disbelief, and make sure it's pleasant outcome.
For example: 'Thanks to clean and fragrant apartment, i can look nice and smell fragrant - bad smells no longer stick to my clothing. Thanks to this i can succeed in Love and in Career'.
Outcome.
That way, you can believe a change is possible, dispel doubts - no matter if they are caused by black magick trauma of brainwashing or by other causes, you can change Yourself, you can change Reality.
Universe will conform to Your Will, You will Manifest / Realize / what you wish to achieve.
We are Minds separated by illusions of ego.
When ego is defeated, we are not separated anymore, we are One Mind, we are almost or fully the Buddha - connected even with those unenlightened, even if they perceive barriers still.
Universe is filled with Energies, subtler than physical, spiritual energies.
Subtler energies affect physical energies and matter.
Universe wishes to fulfill our wishes, some call it God-Force.
Universe acts through us.
Tools.
Imagination, Visualization, the Inner Vibration in Mind, is a way of interacting with Reality, what we think we become.
By changing ourselves, we change Reality - if only by our efforts to do it.
Creative Imagination is Magickal tool, may it be idea, feeling or visualized image in Mind.
Once created, it might be empowered - for example with power of positive affirmations.
That way we change, Reality changes as well.
How to Imagine?
1. Think of something simple, as if it already happened.
Either idea or event, for example: 'My apartment is clean and nice, fragrant, pure energetically and renovated'.
If it's event, relax and let imagine yourself being part of it.
To create image, it's nice to paint it or draw it first, or wish so it appears in mind.
2. Relax Your body and mind.
3. Count from 10 to 1, thinking, letting imagine. Each breath and counted number relaxes you, think of what you wish to visualize after each breath.
4. Return to the imagination often, focus on it often.
5. Empower with positive affirmations, or send positive energy different way.
Affirm without room for disbelief, and make sure it's pleasant outcome.
For example: 'Thanks to clean and fragrant apartment, i can look nice and smell fragrant - bad smells no longer stick to my clothing. Thanks to this i can succeed in Love and in Career'.
Outcome.
That way, you can believe a change is possible, dispel doubts - no matter if they are caused by black magick trauma of brainwashing or by other causes, you can change Yourself, you can change Reality.
Universe will conform to Your Will, You will Manifest / Realize / what you wish to achieve.
Thursday, 19 July 2018
Wishing for Meditation.
... i've meditated both in Zen Sangha - briefly, then for a long time in Karma Kagyu Sangha.
... had insight that i should try to meditate again with Zen Sangha, i do not know for how long.
... had insight that i should do it to bring schools together, as 'truth is what brings together instead of separating'.
... i wish to do this, but i need to prepare first.
... had insight that i should try to meditate again with Zen Sangha, i do not know for how long.
... had insight that i should do it to bring schools together, as 'truth is what brings together instead of separating'.
... i wish to do this, but i need to prepare first.
By Birth.
My birthdate: 13 Sep 1977.
... so i am Guardian of Spiritual Excellence by this chart.
... as expected from someone on the Mahakala Way.
... by other sources: i was on a programmer's day under the TAROT Magician sign, as well.
... so i am a Buddhist Esoteric Artist & Scientist, one who brings together Scientific Perfection & Art with Esoterics, one who Guards Buddhist & Other Spiritual Lessons.
Wednesday, 18 July 2018
Karmic Multiplier Days, how to behave?
About.
There are the four major Buddhist holidays, four great festivals, or anniversaries that are related to the life of Buddha Shakyamuni.
On these days, the effects of positive or negative actions are multiplied 10 million times.
They are:
Chotrul Düchen, the 'Festival of Miracles'
Saga Dawa Düchen, the 'Festival of Vaishakha'
Chökhor Düchen, the 'Festival of Turning the Wheel of Dharma'
Lha Bab Düchen, the 'Festival of the Descent from Heaven'
Source: Four major Buddhist holidays on Rigpa Shedra Wikipedia.
By a common reason it makes sense to behave exceptionally well and seed good karma on these days at least.
... is it abuse to behave well only on these days?
Well, i think that to behave exceptionally well on the holidays one should prepare earlier - using other lesser holidays and other days of the year to prepare for the four most important Buddhist holidays.
How to enter that way?
i did it by wishing: 'i wish to use all of the year to prepare for the four major Buddhist holidays - in this year and in following years.'.
How to generate good Karma?
Three Useful Actions for the Body.
1. Protecting Life - Not killing.
2. Being Generous - Not stealing or deceiving.
3. Generating Joy through Sexual Activity - Not creating sexual harm.
The Four Useful Actions of Speech.
4. Speaking Truthfully - Not harming through lies or building up false trust.
5. Creating Harmony - Not separating or slandering people.
6. Speaking Calmly and Inspiring Trust - Not speaking roughly.
7. Speaking Mwaningfully - Not speaking foolishly or coarsely.
The Three Useful Mental Attitudes.
8. Being Satisfied and Content - Not being envious.
9. Being Kind - Not hating.
10. Developing the Right Perspective - Not being confused.
-- Quoted parts of 'Buddha & Love' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.
Mantras.
MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUM
MA DAG MA
KARMAPA CHENNO
There are the four major Buddhist holidays, four great festivals, or anniversaries that are related to the life of Buddha Shakyamuni.
On these days, the effects of positive or negative actions are multiplied 10 million times.
They are:
Chotrul Düchen, the 'Festival of Miracles'
Saga Dawa Düchen, the 'Festival of Vaishakha'
Chökhor Düchen, the 'Festival of Turning the Wheel of Dharma'
Lha Bab Düchen, the 'Festival of the Descent from Heaven'
Source: Four major Buddhist holidays on Rigpa Shedra Wikipedia.
By a common reason it makes sense to behave exceptionally well and seed good karma on these days at least.
... is it abuse to behave well only on these days?
Well, i think that to behave exceptionally well on the holidays one should prepare earlier - using other lesser holidays and other days of the year to prepare for the four most important Buddhist holidays.
How to enter that way?
i did it by wishing: 'i wish to use all of the year to prepare for the four major Buddhist holidays - in this year and in following years.'.
How to generate good Karma?
Three Useful Actions for the Body.
1. Protecting Life - Not killing.
2. Being Generous - Not stealing or deceiving.
3. Generating Joy through Sexual Activity - Not creating sexual harm.
The Four Useful Actions of Speech.
4. Speaking Truthfully - Not harming through lies or building up false trust.
5. Creating Harmony - Not separating or slandering people.
6. Speaking Calmly and Inspiring Trust - Not speaking roughly.
7. Speaking Mwaningfully - Not speaking foolishly or coarsely.
The Three Useful Mental Attitudes.
8. Being Satisfied and Content - Not being envious.
9. Being Kind - Not hating.
10. Developing the Right Perspective - Not being confused.
-- Quoted parts of 'Buddha & Love' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.
Mantras.
MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUM
MA DAG MA
KARMAPA CHENNO
Monday, 16 July 2018
Lion's Roar.
Lions in Buddhism.
There's the Buddhist press called 'Lion's Roar'.
Lions are kings of the jungle, not easily tamed - they hunt for their own food, and are free.
Life of a Lion is not easy, unlike a life of a sheep.
Sheep depends on shepherd's food, protection and other luxuries, not having to fight for these on their own.
But fattest of sheep are Lion's meal.
Buddha Shakyamuni was known to rest in Lion's position, on side.
Clearly Lions are important symbols in Buddhism.
Computer Games Addiction & Buddhism.
... i play computer games too much for my own good.
Years ago i wanted to ditch that addiction for good, but in a Buddhist Center i got insights - thoughts appearing in mind - that i should play the games for others, creating Art.
Most important of results is: Chea's Journal, a blog.
Now, when i play these games, i speak mantras, observe and calm mind, play to develop and help others.
Still, these games destroy my mental health and life, as any of addictions does.
i wish to stop someday, or when i am forced to.
a Joke, a Gift.
Today i played a 'Pillars of Eternity' Computer Game and my character fought a few of Lions, and a Lioness.
Collected Lions' skins for my character.
Then insight appeared in mind that a Buddhist woman i Love wishes to have a skin of a Lioness.
... i gave her it in my mind, and got insight that Lioness' skin is highly prized gift and sign of realization in Buddhism.
... i am not sure how true or false this is however.
Had a hazy vision of her, of a Buddhist woman i Love, sitting, dressed in a black robe, wrapped in a Lioness' skin, teaching hundreds of kids Buddhism by a tea, in a circus tent.
Each of kids had a thermos full of hot tea, and a cup to drink. There was a large Russian Samovar in Tent's center - as i try to improve my relations with Russian people since a while.
Thoughts came in mind that she fights for me as Lioness, and that gift is pure - because no real animal died in truth.
Perhaps my animal-killing karma was purified as well, that way.
This occured today, on a holy day with a 10 million times karmic multiplier, as well.
This made me think.
i've offered all three of other Lion skins to Buddhist Teachers and friends, not as a mockery but as an innocent joke and gift.
... a while ago i entered a way of criticizing superiors in a loving and funny way - because i think that the Teachers lack such attention, lack company of worthwhile partners and suffer from too many of boot-lickers and clappers who are too egoistic misinterpreters of Buddha's Lessons.
... i think i am too much of a worshipper as well, because of my ignorance - which is root cause of greed and hatred, and of all other detrimential mind states - since a while.
... i wish to improve, so i've entered the way of criticizing superiors, in a loving and funny way, enlightening way.
... i hope i won't fail too much.
... so there are gifts, Lion Skins.
OM MANI PEME HUNG
a Lioness & Lions. | Skins. |
The Day of The Buddha's First Teaching.
Today is Chökhor Düchen, holiday of the Day of The Buddha's First Teaching.
The Buddha turned the Wheel of Dharma for the first time, at Sarnath, India, by teaching the 'Four Noble Truths'.
Effects of all positive and negative actions are multiplied 10 MILLION times!
The Buddha turned the Wheel of Dharma for the first time, at Sarnath, India, by teaching the 'Four Noble Truths'.
Effects of all positive and negative actions are multiplied 10 MILLION times!
Saturday, 14 July 2018
Transforming Snobism.
... i've read that in Buddhism one should develop Four Immeasurables starting from closest relatives, then extending positive influences over more beings, even over one's enemies.
But for as long as one is too exclusive in supporting or helping only closest friends, others suffer.
Taking advantage, gaining benefits from others' work to increase one's life standards is not a way to inspire others for Buddhism.
Inspiration is far more than looking nice and appearing as a succesful person to attract others, i think.
... i think Lama Ole Nydahl's Diamond Way Sangha works with many of this type of people - who are succesful and merciless, who are snobbish cliques without restraint in abusing others for personal benefits.
... is it beneficial?
i can see benefits of helping such people transform their karma - these people are influential, rich, have great meaning - so turning such a snob into a compassionate and wise buddhist can benefit many.
So even that buddhism is not a cocktail party and snob-show, such parties still happen, such people are drawn to Sangha.
How to transform such karma, however?
... i think such people should see as they really are, see the need and benefits of changing for better - then should do so for benefit of all, fulfilling bodhisattva promise.
When this happens, when such people become bodhisattvas, others will be truly inspired.
i think many - if not everyone - in the Diamond Way Sanghas have egos that clings to wealth, to power, to beauty.
This is very difficult ego to handle, i think.
... this applies to me, as well, and i wish to improve - i need methods for that.
... when i played a roleplaying game, my character Attentus was attractive yet morally disgusting, intelligent and unwise, a perfect example of a snob. Thanks to a wise female partner he 'succeeded' for a while. My characters, both former and current are still part of my personality and ego.
... i think poor people also can be, and occasinally are too snobbish for everyone's well-being.
... i find my example a nice joke, and an example of how poor, how funny cartoon caricatures of men and women, snobs are in depth.
For now i have only following clues on how to handle my snobish ego:
- as one gains wealth, should 'build a longer table and not a higher fence',
- after building longer table, one should develop Compassionate Loving Eyes - which see others' good sides instead of faults, but are still critical and reasonable,
- one should be reasonable when sharing, neither too-protective over one's wealth nor too stupid to share too much when cannot afford.
... i wish to be a Succesful, Wise and Compassionate person as Lama Ole Nydahl is, to be able to handle Snobism, to have good reputation and style while being Altruist and a true Buddhist, Wise and Compassionate, able to reach Enlightenment.
Without such transformations, the Diamond Way Buddhism is merely the abusive Sect.
... see also, if You wish: Need for Equanimity.
But for as long as one is too exclusive in supporting or helping only closest friends, others suffer.
Taking advantage, gaining benefits from others' work to increase one's life standards is not a way to inspire others for Buddhism.
Inspiration is far more than looking nice and appearing as a succesful person to attract others, i think.
... i think Lama Ole Nydahl's Diamond Way Sangha works with many of this type of people - who are succesful and merciless, who are snobbish cliques without restraint in abusing others for personal benefits.
... is it beneficial?
i can see benefits of helping such people transform their karma - these people are influential, rich, have great meaning - so turning such a snob into a compassionate and wise buddhist can benefit many.
So even that buddhism is not a cocktail party and snob-show, such parties still happen, such people are drawn to Sangha.
How to transform such karma, however?
... i think such people should see as they really are, see the need and benefits of changing for better - then should do so for benefit of all, fulfilling bodhisattva promise.
When this happens, when such people become bodhisattvas, others will be truly inspired.
i think many - if not everyone - in the Diamond Way Sanghas have egos that clings to wealth, to power, to beauty.
This is very difficult ego to handle, i think.
... this applies to me, as well, and i wish to improve - i need methods for that.
... when i played a roleplaying game, my character Attentus was attractive yet morally disgusting, intelligent and unwise, a perfect example of a snob. Thanks to a wise female partner he 'succeeded' for a while. My characters, both former and current are still part of my personality and ego.
... i think poor people also can be, and occasinally are too snobbish for everyone's well-being.
... i find my example a nice joke, and an example of how poor, how funny cartoon caricatures of men and women, snobs are in depth.
For now i have only following clues on how to handle my snobish ego:
- as one gains wealth, should 'build a longer table and not a higher fence',
- after building longer table, one should develop Compassionate Loving Eyes - which see others' good sides instead of faults, but are still critical and reasonable,
- one should be reasonable when sharing, neither too-protective over one's wealth nor too stupid to share too much when cannot afford.
... i wish to be a Succesful, Wise and Compassionate person as Lama Ole Nydahl is, to be able to handle Snobism, to have good reputation and style while being Altruist and a true Buddhist, Wise and Compassionate, able to reach Enlightenment.
Without such transformations, the Diamond Way Buddhism is merely the abusive Sect.
... see also, if You wish: Need for Equanimity.
Friday, 13 July 2018
Interdependence within Sangha.
Beings and Phenomena are interdependent, depending on other Beings and Phenomena for origination and existence.
Within Sangha, this means that every life is precious, that we depend on each other for survival, for growth, for enlightenment.
We should not release anger on 'lessers', we should help everyone.
... is it better to release anger on 'lessers' while bribing superiors, while sucking up to superiors?
Buddhas Teach that they do not want worshippers, but the true partners - how it is related with compassion? is it about bribery and buttering up superiors with too sweet words while taking advantage of 'lessers'?
Buddhism should not be tyranny and enslavenment, every life is precious - as Buddhas Teach, i think.
Buddhas Teach of Wisdom and Compassions - so taking advantage of others is not 'skillful means' nor 'agile methods', i think.
is releasing anger on weaker, is enslavement or taking advantage of people with worse karma a way to help others purify bad karma?
... i think not.
Friends are those who help or support others in development, in growth - instead of hindering growth.
Sangha should be a community of friends, instead of a snobbish clique where 'more realized' take advantage of 'lessers'.
So ... my plea to those who have better karma - especially to those who have Mahamudra - is to follow True Lessons of our Teachers, to develop Compassion and Wisdom, to behave as Buddhas we identify with until You are Buddhas truly.
i think this lessons should apply both on outer and inner levels, as outer appearances are not everything - one should also be internally pure.
Within Sangha, this means that every life is precious, that we depend on each other for survival, for growth, for enlightenment.
We should not release anger on 'lessers', we should help everyone.
... is it better to release anger on 'lessers' while bribing superiors, while sucking up to superiors?
Buddhas Teach that they do not want worshippers, but the true partners - how it is related with compassion? is it about bribery and buttering up superiors with too sweet words while taking advantage of 'lessers'?
Buddhism should not be tyranny and enslavenment, every life is precious - as Buddhas Teach, i think.
Buddhas Teach of Wisdom and Compassions - so taking advantage of others is not 'skillful means' nor 'agile methods', i think.
is releasing anger on weaker, is enslavement or taking advantage of people with worse karma a way to help others purify bad karma?
... i think not.
Friends are those who help or support others in development, in growth - instead of hindering growth.
Sangha should be a community of friends, instead of a snobbish clique where 'more realized' take advantage of 'lessers'.
So ... my plea to those who have better karma - especially to those who have Mahamudra - is to follow True Lessons of our Teachers, to develop Compassion and Wisdom, to behave as Buddhas we identify with until You are Buddhas truly.
i think this lessons should apply both on outer and inner levels, as outer appearances are not everything - one should also be internally pure.
Thursday, 12 July 2018
Friday, 6 July 2018
Dangers of Meditation, Inner Hell.
After meditating and taking Refuge in Lama Ole Nydahl, my mind started to be more sensitive.
Then one day in a Warsaw Buddhist Center they told me they want to show me something.
... then i've heard Mira Boboli's voice - 'fry, don't wait' / pl: 'wysmażyć, nie czekać' /.
Then people started to talk about microwaves, ovens, fridges etc - and i felt heat and cold in turn, felt paralysis, panicked, turned more insane than i was until that moment.
Finally Sangha let me go and told me that they wish me to return.
Soon after i was in Psychiatric Hospital - fed with medicines that dumbed me down ... i could barely think, felt fear ... but voices went back into subconsciousness.
After many years i returned to Warsaw Buddhist Center, desperately seeking Enlightened Love - this need was cause of overcoming fear.
Now, after many years i can think better and faster, but there are voices still.
Some of these voices are beneficial - i call them insights, others are harmful, i call them mental ilness symptoms.
Mental Illness symptoms are insidious, sometimes i don't control myself because of these, sometimes they just blackmail me - telling that if i won't obey, my love-wish won't be realized.
i do many stupid things because of the symptoms.
Recently there are symptoms appearing as presence or voice of Michał Szwejkowski, wishing me to spend money and to do things that harm me.
i've removed my Silver Signet Ring with Loving Eyes Mantra engraved from my finger - and this caused symptoms to lessen.
Buddha disadvised meditation when someone has mental illness problems, i read.
Then one day in a Warsaw Buddhist Center they told me they want to show me something.
... then i've heard Mira Boboli's voice - 'fry, don't wait' / pl: 'wysmażyć, nie czekać' /.
Then people started to talk about microwaves, ovens, fridges etc - and i felt heat and cold in turn, felt paralysis, panicked, turned more insane than i was until that moment.
Finally Sangha let me go and told me that they wish me to return.
Soon after i was in Psychiatric Hospital - fed with medicines that dumbed me down ... i could barely think, felt fear ... but voices went back into subconsciousness.
After many years i returned to Warsaw Buddhist Center, desperately seeking Enlightened Love - this need was cause of overcoming fear.
Now, after many years i can think better and faster, but there are voices still.
Some of these voices are beneficial - i call them insights, others are harmful, i call them mental ilness symptoms.
Mental Illness symptoms are insidious, sometimes i don't control myself because of these, sometimes they just blackmail me - telling that if i won't obey, my love-wish won't be realized.
i do many stupid things because of the symptoms.
Recently there are symptoms appearing as presence or voice of Michał Szwejkowski, wishing me to spend money and to do things that harm me.
i've removed my Silver Signet Ring with Loving Eyes Mantra engraved from my finger - and this caused symptoms to lessen.
Buddha disadvised meditation when someone has mental illness problems, i read.
Wednesday, 4 July 2018
Skrying in Service for All Buddhas.
Introduction.
Is skrying possible, or it's just a time-waste?
... i've heard on a Buddhist Lecture, i've heard words from Lama Ole Nydahl that supernatural powers are a fact.
... but too much of 'soft-way' esoterics can be more trouble than it's worth, i think.
So far i've been using my Black Obsidian Skrying Mirror without great skill.
i've merely looked and insights appeared in mind, answering the question i had.
Had insights that a Black Obsidion Skrying Mirror can be used to look into store consciousness, also known as Akashic Scrolls in a search for knowledge. Black Obsidian's purifying properties are valuable here, as these can help to purify karma as it's perceived that way.
Offering.
Insights appeared in mind that i can offer my Skrying attempts for all Buddhas, and ask for transmission for Buddhist-Esoteric Skrying Methods.
i've agreed in mind.
Clues.
... i've found a paragraph in a book about Skrying. It refers to ball gazing, but perhaps it's also clue for the mirror - gazing:
'Miss Goodrich-Freer's experience may be of value to good visualisers. I, therefore, give her suggestions here :
Look carefully at some part of the room in front of you, avoiding anything likely to be reflected in the ball, Shut your eyes, and try to visualise it;
Then try if you can see it in the crystal.
If you have any gift of visualisation at all this ought to be acquired with ease after half-a-dozen experiments. When you can do this you may go on to visualise, with closed eyes, some scene that you have lately witnessed—and this, too, can be transferred to the crystal. It is well to begin with simple subjects, and increase their complexity pari passu with the growth of your powers.
Begin, say, with a chair - the only thing that I have ever been able to visualise at will, so far as my memory serves me ; then take more complex objects ; then try a simple scene, with one person and a background, and so on.'
-- Quoted from 'Crystal Gazing; Its History & Practice, With a Discussion of the Evidence for Telepathic Scrying' book by N W Thomas (1905).
When i read this paragraph, insights appeared that i should visualize a question, an art-image that asks desired question, then glance at mirror, focus and keep mind open for answer.
About mirror usage:
'The mirror is only to be handled by its owner, or the magnetisms will be mixed ; others may look at it in a box.
Clean it with soapsuds, rinse well, wash with alcohol or fluoric acid, and polish with velvet. It must be frequently magnetised—make passes with the right hand, five ' at a time.
This keeps it alive.
If you make them with the left hand it gives it sensitiveness.
Have your back to the light always.
The top must lean from the scryer.
When several look it must be suspended.'
-- Quoted from 'Crystal Gazing; Its History & Practice, With a Discussion of the Evidence for Telepathic Scrying' book by N W Thomas (1905).
Wishes:
i wish for mirror - gazing and other skrying methods, to be used in a service for all Buddhas, as well as for my own uses.
i wish for lessons on these in form of transmission resulting in insights and visions appearing in my mind.
i wish others who also wish to learn skrying in service for Buddhas and for their own uses, to get these methods as well.
Spell-Mantras.
It is Artful Eye,
It is Light.
Is skrying possible, or it's just a time-waste?
... i've heard on a Buddhist Lecture, i've heard words from Lama Ole Nydahl that supernatural powers are a fact.
... but too much of 'soft-way' esoterics can be more trouble than it's worth, i think.
So far i've been using my Black Obsidian Skrying Mirror without great skill.
i've merely looked and insights appeared in mind, answering the question i had.
Had insights that a Black Obsidion Skrying Mirror can be used to look into store consciousness, also known as Akashic Scrolls in a search for knowledge. Black Obsidian's purifying properties are valuable here, as these can help to purify karma as it's perceived that way.
Offering.
Insights appeared in mind that i can offer my Skrying attempts for all Buddhas, and ask for transmission for Buddhist-Esoteric Skrying Methods.
i've agreed in mind.
Clues.
... i've found a paragraph in a book about Skrying. It refers to ball gazing, but perhaps it's also clue for the mirror - gazing:
'Miss Goodrich-Freer's experience may be of value to good visualisers. I, therefore, give her suggestions here :
Look carefully at some part of the room in front of you, avoiding anything likely to be reflected in the ball, Shut your eyes, and try to visualise it;
Then try if you can see it in the crystal.
If you have any gift of visualisation at all this ought to be acquired with ease after half-a-dozen experiments. When you can do this you may go on to visualise, with closed eyes, some scene that you have lately witnessed—and this, too, can be transferred to the crystal. It is well to begin with simple subjects, and increase their complexity pari passu with the growth of your powers.
Begin, say, with a chair - the only thing that I have ever been able to visualise at will, so far as my memory serves me ; then take more complex objects ; then try a simple scene, with one person and a background, and so on.'
-- Quoted from 'Crystal Gazing; Its History & Practice, With a Discussion of the Evidence for Telepathic Scrying' book by N W Thomas (1905).
When i read this paragraph, insights appeared that i should visualize a question, an art-image that asks desired question, then glance at mirror, focus and keep mind open for answer.
About mirror usage:
'The mirror is only to be handled by its owner, or the magnetisms will be mixed ; others may look at it in a box.
Clean it with soapsuds, rinse well, wash with alcohol or fluoric acid, and polish with velvet. It must be frequently magnetised—make passes with the right hand, five ' at a time.
This keeps it alive.
If you make them with the left hand it gives it sensitiveness.
Have your back to the light always.
The top must lean from the scryer.
When several look it must be suspended.'
-- Quoted from 'Crystal Gazing; Its History & Practice, With a Discussion of the Evidence for Telepathic Scrying' book by N W Thomas (1905).
Wishes:
i wish for mirror - gazing and other skrying methods, to be used in a service for all Buddhas, as well as for my own uses.
i wish for lessons on these in form of transmission resulting in insights and visions appearing in my mind.
i wish others who also wish to learn skrying in service for Buddhas and for their own uses, to get these methods as well.
Spell-Mantras.
It is Artful Eye,
It is Light.
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