... it's written that one reincarnates in a new body.
Human body is not granted for sure.
Many fear that new body changes so much, that 'mere' mindstream transference is not enough. Is it comparable to reading books of ancestors?
... a while ago i had experience that made me cease to worry about that.
... i think its worthwhile to go through this, but on a condition that one is prepared & ready.
... after preparation one should add extra effort/time for extra safety/certainty, i think & strongly advise.
... after that one should wait for a holiday, i won't advise what one - this depends on one's spirituality, view, karma, wisdom, etc.
... neglecting proper, serious precautions can result in serious brain damage, or death - i think ... and i suspect that such death results in related, very bad karma for many lifetimes as well.
... about my experience:
... in my sleep, in one of bardo states, i felt strangely lucid, aware - i saw myself in hell, in a demon/devil body, other hell denizens abused and fought me.
... but i think that due preparations of me & buddhist woman i love, whole experience was dimmed, faded, distant, downplayed - just a small nuisance ... but still so real, so 'bright' as during awake mind state, also bardo state ... don't have proper wording to describe it well enough.
... most important observation/experience was that i kept exactly mine mind state, mindset, memory, and thinking patterns, feelings and reactions as well.
... i was myself, different body didn't matter so much.
... i do not fear reincarnating in different body anymore.
... i do not know if i deserve reincarnating on 'sane terms', perhaps reincarnating will be still pain & shock - whether in human world, animal world, hell world, etc.
... but some day i'll earn reincarnation on sane terms in human world - and then it won't matter it's different body. i'll be with her, with buddhist woman i love, will keep mind, merit & experiences ... we'll be together someday.
... i don't care so much about death anymore, even that i am not fully fearless.
... i suspect that there are beings who keep memories and mind state from previous lives - even at young age.
... buddha from our sangha said at youth: 'i am karmapa'. it takes time before kid develops speech organs, and such feats shock society - so i think such great beings play carefully childhood, and use youth as mind practice & observation.
... i call experience i went through: 'consciousness teleportation to hell on sane terms' ... it looked as instant film-frame change, without portals, morphing animations, etc ... a while in hell, then teleportation back.
... this sleep i still remember, still fairly clearly.
... it happened twice during one holiday night, two visits in hell, two returns.
... believe or not, perhaps its only my insanity.
