Friday, 30 December 2016

Meaningful Esoterics.


This blog's author experienced esoteric miracles in his life.

This blog's author heard from Lama Ole Nydahl that supernatural powers are a fact during a Triangle Project Buddhist Lecture. This lecture was probably most important lecutre i've been on, because it was when i took the Refuge in Lama Ole Nydahl.

This blog's author tries to find common points between religions & world views, things that bring together instead of separating - despite obstacles.

Part of these obstacles is inherent to Buddhism, i think.

i'll try my best to remain friendly to non-Buddhists and make meaningful efforts to bring us together, despite obstacles & their reasons that i'll mention in this article.

A Quote.

'Buddha avoided what today is called esoteric.

Although it is touching how some people tried to keep the idealistic feeling of the 1960's alive without drugs through the chrome-plated egotism of the following decades, their purely emotive approach to understanding the world is not enough.

To clearly know mind, one has to perfect all aspects of oneself, including critical reasoning.

Mixing together pleasant sounding spritual fragments from various sources and marketing these as timeless truths bring only sweet confusion.

Even with the finest of new packaging, but without the confirmation of generations of real experience, such mixing does not move beyond the realm of concepts and words.

Real knowledge always moves beyond and has massive power.'

-- Quoted from 'The Way Things Are' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.


i think there are benefits of bringing the ways together, mostly political.

if we can understand each other at least a little, and if we care enough at least - friendships can be meaningful.

i think real politics is not only sweet words & demands, it's also working within own's ranks so both parties can give and take, instead of only annoying each other.


i wish all beings peace & calm.
i wish all beings happiness without suffering.
i wish all beings perfect understanding - of themselves, as well as of their friends.
i wish all beings to reach their goals, to realize their mind qualities fully.



Namaste, blessed be.

Saturday, 24 December 2016


A Quote.

'Karma (Skt., Tib. ley): Literally: action; the law of cause and effect, according to which one experiences the world in correspondence to the impressions stored in mind, created through one's actions of body, speech and mind.

This means that one decides one's own future with one's present actions.'

-- Quoted from 'Fearless Death' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.

Friday, 23 December 2016

Four Foundational Practices.

A Quote.

'Foundational Practices, Four (Tib. Chagchen Ngöndro) translates as 'the preparation for the Great Seal'; also named the Four Special Preliminaries.

With the Foundational Practices, one creates countless good impressions in the subconscious. They build the foundation for the Great Seal.

One completes 111,111 repetitions in each of the four meditations:
(1) Taking refuge and developing the enlightened attitude through prostrations,
(2) Purifying the impressions that bring suffering through the Diamond Mind meditation,
(3) Offering good impressions with Mandala Offerings,
(4) Meditation on the Lama (Guru Yoga).'

-- Quoted from 'Buddha & Love' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.

See also, if You wish: Ngöndro - Beyond the Comfort Zone.

Wednesday, 21 December 2016

Initiations, Preparation & Suprise.


This blog's author explains his experiences with the Refuge Initiation on the Diamond Way, as well as his understanding of nature & qualities of Buddhist Practices.

Diamond Way Buddhism uses very strong methods that work with Mind, practices that when applied unskilfully might pose a danger to sanity & development.

Please note that i am not very advanced Buddhism, i have only Refuge done.

i think it's wise to confirm my thoughts with more experienced, wiser Buddhist Teacher before jumping to conclusions.

i share this knowledge so more advanced friends might know how i think mostly, so i can be criticized & prepare better for future.

Beginners & uninitiated Buddhists should not assume it's everything, should not jump to conclusions too early, should not assume it's perfect understanding.

Perhaps other vehicles than the Diamond Way - Small Way & Great Way - use different methods as well.

Read or not on Your own responsibility.


At first one should understand what he or she is doing - should read introductory texts, think, ask questions.

i think that every Buddhist practice has a certain goal as well as methods, certain practices are prerequisites for more advanced practices.

First Initiation is called Refuge, it's with it that one becomes officially considered a Buddhist.

After we try & decide that we wish to make Buddhism our Way of Life, when we decide to reach Enlightenment or Liberation at least, we should start to prepare.

After initial questions are answered we speak a certain number of specific mantras - available in the Buddhist Centers. With this preparation, certain symbols are planted in Mind, initial perception & world view adjusts to suit the Buddhism Way more.

Not everything is understood as of yet, however.

Completion of the Initiation.

Then one goes to an Initiation Ceremony with the Qualified Teacher, who proceeds with the completion phase of the Initiation. Things are explained, synergy between thinking patterns are used, things are understood how they interrelate with each other.

It is very strong experience, it's great suprise, mind opens & changes.

i heard & experienced myself very strong positive & weird feelings, thoughts arose & 'clicked together', i saw a vision of the 'White Light' as well as other visions during the Initiation Course. i did hear that many other people have similar miraclous experiences & remain sane after that, nevertheless.

After the course i felt changed, i received blessing, felt great, got a certificate with my Secret Buddhist Name that i won't reveal.

i became officially a Buddhist.

Blog author's thoughts.

After a certain time, with proper literature & insights, i think that on the Diamond Way after every Initiation follows a practice, a build-up phase.

This might require Empowerment, Initiatory course that opens Ways.

We learn Theoretical Wisdom, we practice, we plant the seeds for another step with proper mantras and/or meditations and/or other practices such as prostrations.

When we are ready, after a certain number of preparation steps done well enough we can undergo the Completion Phase of the Initiation.

i think it's when certain 'key words' - that are deeply entrenched in mind - are explained and together have much deeper, more complete meaning - it's quite suprising how much is revealed with a fairly short course.

After the Completion Phase of Initiation our Mind's qualities are complete, we are ready for more.

i think that if we go to a Completion Course we are not prepared for, it might be detrimential to development at least, and even more dangerous than it seems.

The 'Suprise Element' might be 'spoiled', our mind might criticize too much without having enough of wisdom & experience to grasp everything in totality. Even if we have initial theoretical wisdom but did not practice enough of mantras, meditation & other steps well enough - these 'key words' are not deep enough in our mind - then after the course our understanding won't be complete, thinking will change but not the way it should. This might endanger our progress & sanity as well.

Let's not go to too advanced courses for us.

Let's be dilligent, careful & attentive with our holy practices.

Let's not go to courses we are unprepared for.

Musings about Reality & Meaning of Life.


This blog's author is interrested in Buddhism as well as with Computing, Philosophy, Physics - including Quantum Physics - as well as in the other Sciences & Arts.

This article is just musings about the Nature of Reality & Meaning of Life, that takes into account Buddhism, Philosophy and Physics.

i'll consider a few of questions in this an article:
1. What is Real, what's Important?
2. Is Reality Subjective or Objective?
3. Are there 'Many Worlds', 'Many Minds'?

Conscructive critic is welcome, i am not pretending that my understanding is complete.

What is Real, what's Important?

Unenlightened beings do not know everything about Reality. Not everything is said in TV or in the Internet, it's hard to follow current advancements of science or other important facts.

Reality changes with time - as soon as we read about something, many important things happen in the meantime.

We try to understand, we make plans ... but when something previously unknown appear we have to adjust.

Occasionally we lose hope in our capacity to survive or to succeed in what's important for us, we lose meaning of our lives.

i think we should focus on our priorities, i think we should try to follow our ideals & goals - even if these seem hard or impossible to do. Without approaching life that way we won't succeed anyway, and even if we fail - we at least did try.

Most important thing for this blog author is Enlightened Love as a way for Enlightenment, everything else is optional and often a waste of time.

Is Reality Subjective or Objective?

Objective Reality is a world view in which Reality is independent of an observer, in which 'a twig that falls in a forest when no one is nearby does still make a sound'.

Subjective Reality is a world view in which an act of observation affects both observer and observed object, in which observation, observer & observed are parts of a larger whole. In this view 'twig' might not even exist when no one is looking, in which Reality is not determined until act of observation is made. In physics an act of observation causes 'entanglement' - 'entangled objects' affect each other even at a long distance.

This blog's author sides with Buddhism & these parts of Physics that think the Reality to be Subjective.

     - Fallen Beauty by ktBgraceful on deviantART. -

Are there 'Many Worlds', 'Many Minds'?

In Physics, 'Many Worlds' idea is explored scientificially - there are theories that explain Reality as consisting of an infinite number of worlds - both in past, in present, as well as in future. i read that our previous & present thoughts, words and actions determine into which world we'll travel to. Scientific observations therefore can tell in which world we are - where we moved to, instead of telling us how we changed the Reality with our thoughts, words and actions.

In Physics, there's an idea of 'Many Minds' - in this interpretation we do not change worlds we live in by our thoughts, feelings and actions, we change our minds instead. In Buddhism, worlds we perceive as real are plays of our minds, when something fatal occurs we perceive it as death, then go through bardo and reincarnation into following lives - our mind and world we perceive changes. i think that while we are part of one Mind, it's our ego that makes us think we are separate - therefore idea of many minds. i think that by our thoughts, words and actions we change mind therefore travel from a world to world - which world is depending on our karma and by how we experience it. i think that acts of compassion and wishes may bring minds together, of a couple meeting in worlds close enough to meet and experience it as finding someone in a real world. This thinking gives me a faint spark of hope, makes me regain meaning of life at least a little.

Constructive critic & wise lessons are very welcome.

Monday, 19 December 2016

Beneficial Ways.


This blog's author knows that while it can be beneficial to help others even while unemployed,
Lama Ole Nydahl still enourages actively working as well as practicing Buddhism in our daily lives.

i wish to find proper employment, will start to look for work since January 2017.

i wish to find work in Software Security, as a 'Pentester' preferably. i wish to work for 3 years in that field mostly to gain professional experience in Software Security as a preparation for my future projects. i wish to share my income with Buddhism & not only.

i could use support of others, to prepare for that work, to find that work & to keep it as well.


Art-Dharma Lessons & Protecting our Ways.

One of my wishes i did in past was to protect Lama Ole Nydahl's Transmission as an Ethical Hacker & IT Security Expert.

There are many ways to accomplish this, one of them is to build a Secure Art-Application such as: 'Art & Dharma Teachings' Project of mine.

Why this route?

Because the Art speaks Clearly & Beautifully - lessons conveyed with Arts are easier to understand & absorb.

This project also has to be technologically secure, as well as able to serve lessons to many customers at the same time.

With a proper Buddha Dharma & Arts understanding, the Art-Dharma lessons can be analyzed & categorized as well - so proper lessons are given to proper people, taking into account factors as initiations acquired, current meditation practices, as well as other considerations as neccessary.

i understand that succesfully completing this project requires following:
- understanding Dharma well enough - preferably with finding proper advisors that are well-versed in Buddha Dharma,
- understanding Art well enough, understanding the way Art speaks, understanding messages it conveys - preferably with assistance of Buddhist Art-Advisors,
- understanding Technology well enough - including software construction, web-cloud projects related concerns, as well as software security issues, 3d graphics & modelling, audio-video films streaming, virtual reality (i think that in-browser virtual reality will happen in this life), probably much more,
- understanding Processes of Learning & Teaching, including the nature of Cognition - in relation with Buddhism, Psychology, Arts, NLP, Mindfulness, Philosophy & perhaps other Sciences,
- proper initial investments - i am willing to invest my own money for this a project, possibly with mortgage bank credit & other financial solutions,
- patience & dedication.

Knowledge needed to make software that is needed beside computer sciences is called in programmer's jargon a 'domain knowledge'; Usually in an order to write an application properly, customer with domain knowledge is approached by an analyst - then talks ensue. Analyst's reports are sent to a software designer, then software's design & analyst's documentation papers are passed to programmers/developers who fill in whole code details. Then application is tested and after a proper procedures passed to the customer for reports, modification & correction orders if needed. Often software changes with time, as reality changes and customer adjusts his or her needs as well. We programmers say that programming is iterative (repeating in circles) process.

When a programmer knows domain knowledge, however - whole process is simplified, faster, better. Customer needs need to be addressed as well however, so talks are still neccessary.

This blog's author aims to understand as much of the needed Art & Dharma Teachings' domain knowledge, as well. Who is customer in my case? i think it's Artists, Buddhist Teachers & Sangha - even if it's me who will be paying them for their advices & time, at first at least.


i wish for all beings to find best work for their ways, work they love, work well worth their efforts, work that won't waste their precious time.

i wish for all beings to develop & realize their Mind's potential fully.

i wish to encourage all beings to reach Liberation & Enlightenment, without hurrying, demanding or pressuring them to do so.



Namaste, blessed be.

Friday, 16 December 2016

Causes & Conditions.

A definition.

What's the difference between cause and condition in Buddhism?

A cause is a discrete event which occurs before a result.

A condition is not discrete, it is continuous, and must remain true in order for things to arise in dependence upon it.

An example.

If I drop an apple, there are a mixture of causes and conditions relating to the apple falling.

Causes include me picking up the apple, me letting go of the apple, and so forth.

Conditions include the existence of gravity, the lack of any physical obstruction underneath the apple, the apple having mass.

Some of those conditions are very slow to change, and some are not. When the apple hits the ground, the condition of there being no obstruction underneath it will cease, and so the freefall of the apple will cease due to a dependent condition ceasing.

Source: An article in Quora.

Space - Play.


'Nirvana (Tib. Nyang ngen le depa): in general it is liberation from suffering in samsara. In the Great Way, it is the state of perfect buddhahood. Great Nirvana (non-clinging), is the state beyond samsara and nirvana, to rest in that which is.

In this state, if nothing happens, it's the space of mind.

If something happens, it is the free play of mind.

If nothing appears it's mind's space essence.

If something appears it is mind's free play.

And the fact that all experiences can appear is mind's unlimited expression.'

-- Quoted from 'Buddha & Love' by Lama Ole Nydahl.

A Vision.

Years ago, when i meditated in a Buddhist Center, i was introduced to the ideas of 'mind's free play' & 'mind's space'.

i imagined it as richness of expression, as capacity of karma to appear in great variety of forms.

Considered neither as good nor as bad, 'free play of mind & space' can be a poetic & beautiful way of expressing varietes in our lives, both rich in 'good' as well as in 'bad' events.


After meditation, i started to help myself & others, started to develop a technology, related with Computer Sciences, as well as with many other sciences including Nanotechnology.

Among many related activities, i've started to play with idea of a computer game that would simulate that technology, perhaps to be transformed later into interface to such the-tech.

i made a demonstration of that game's initial ideas (well, quite a failed attempt because of the hurry - still can be done properly in future, i think).

i named that a demonstration 'Space-Play', and hope that it reminds us of impermanence of things, both helpful as well as detrimential.

i hope that this demonstration will show both beauty as well as ugliness of war which can be also perceived as a 'dance of particles' for if we care enough to see bad things with Loving Eyes.

'Nanite War' Computer Game.

Current State.

i wish to continue with 'Nanite War' Computer Game code, but not at all cost.

i think that i still have a lot of time for continuing with game, for there are preconditions for that tech:
- faster computers with more memory,
- Stitie Space 1.2 implementation,
- 'Ola AH' Programming Language.

i think it's no sooner than 2030 before these preconditions will be mature enough to be used in this project.

Ego, Delusions, Stiff Ideas & Mind's Veils.


Every Buddhist has to defeat ego, on his or her way to Liberation & Enlightenment.

It's said by many wise that defeating oneself is far greater victory than defeating countless enemies.

Enlightened Mind can perceive it's own pure nature, without delusions, without mind's veils, without stiff ideas and without feeling of separation introduced by ego.


Without personal ego beings are Liberated, there's no personality that can be hurt, there's no mental barrier of separation between one and rest of beings.

Liberation is a state of mind in which all suffering and the causes of suffering are completely overcome.

Liberation happens through dissolving the false idea of presumed 'I'.

Once Liberated, mind's disturbing emotions fall away.

When the last stiff concepts are let go as well, then one becomes Enlightened.

Mind's veils.

Ignorance, confusion and delusions, as well as stiff ideas, as well as disturbing feelings & thoughts, are mind's veils to be purified before mind can perceive itself perfectly, before mind can be enlightened.

Unenlightened mind often thinks it's body itself and that's all that's real.

Unenlightened mind perceives world through it's bodily senses and through brain, it feels separate from others because of personal ego. Unenlightened mind's perceptions are impure, world's perceptions are distorted by various mind's veils - are delusional.

Enlightened One knows that he or she is Mind, and has impermanent body. This Mind lacks ego so it's both that it's nature as well as that it's perceptions are pure as well as perfect, there's no suffering or other hindrances in the Enlightened One.

Thursday, 15 December 2016


A quote.

'Yidam (Tib., Skt. deva: One of the Three Roots; source of enlightened qualities.'

-- Quoted from 'Fearless Death' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.

Blog author's comments.

Yidam is also a form of energy & light.

Certain people prefer to visualize Yidams, instead of Buddhas during meditation, because they won't trust meditating on Buddha in a human body as a perfect being - fearing addiction to a living person, of mental enslavement as well.

A meditation on Yidam answers their needs, because to them visualizing abstract forms of energy and light, awakening enlightened qualities in oneself through the Yidam practice is not the same as a meditation on Buddha in a human conditioned body.

i heard from a Buddhist Teacher that meditation on Buddha Karmapa, or on Yidam is the same; at first i preferred to meditate on Yidam, now i prefer to meditate on Buddha Karmapa - but can use either method as is skillful.

i think that Yidam practice is more suited for critical people - Buddhism welcomes strict, critical minds gladly, i think.

i think meditation on Buddha is more suited for grateful and trusting students.

i think that the danger of addiction to the teacher, of losing independence is easily averted by 'paying the karmic debt' - as one helps and does meritorous, good deeds for the Teacher, one regains freedoms and can continue with practices - more lessons can occur, more blessings can flow.

i read & think that Buddhism leads to Liberation & Enlightenment, to True Freedom - even if during parts of the way we are dependent on teachers, even when we have to work to pay the karmic debts.


A quote.

'Meditation (Skt. bhavana or sadhana, Tib. gom): The Tibetan word gom means 'become familiar with' and expresses a process in which mind tries to let go of it's veils. For this, one uses methods that bring what is understood intellectually into one's own experience.

On the highest level, meditation means to effortlessly remain in that which is.

On the various levels of Buddha's teachings, different methods are taught, but they can be summarized essentially as calm-abiding and insight.

In the Diamond Way, the most important methods are identification with enlightenment, awakening the enlightened power-field using mantras, gratitude, and holding the pure view.

Just as it was earlier in Tibet, in the caves of accomplishers, so today in the West, guided meditation (Tib. gomlung) enables a large number of people to gain access to the countless methods of the Diamond Way.'

-- Quoted from the 'Fearless Death' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.

Blog author's comments.

Meditation can take many forms.

It can be sitting and counting breaths, or perhaps just being aware of breath, with visualizations, following guidelines and speaking mantras as well.

Calm Mind & Awareness are important parts of Meditation, as well as a proper sitting position is.

i read that even Martial Arts such as Karate can be a 'Meditation while moving', perhaps there are other ways as well.

i heard that there are those who practice Milam, or Tibetan Dream Yoga, to not waste time, to meditate even during sleep. Probably they do not sit as they are asleep, however.

Perhaps there are people who meditate during their whole lives, no matter what they do, no matter awake or asleep.

Tuesday, 13 December 2016

Buddhism, Politics, Alliances & Friendships.

-=- A Black Lotus & Lights. -=-


This blog's author follows his own Karmic Way for Enlightenment - it's called Karmic, because it's involved with Karma & Samsara more than with truly Transcendental Methods as a certain Meditations or Prostrations.

It's called Karmic & Samsaric Way, because i work with external world, with related cause & effect more than those elites, privileged few that are in the Centers of Buddhism, closer to the best of our Teachers.

Working Alliances.

But Buddhism has many allies & friends already ... why i say so much about forming them if they exist?

i think that relationships need to be maitained, that a political work needs to be done for these to not fall apart.

As i work in exteriors, part of my way is caring for non-buddhist friends & allies, understanding them and representing both our (Buddhist) goals and needs to them (friends & allies), as well as their goals and needs to us, Buddhists. Times change, needs & goals remain but occasionally focus shifts - without political efforts our existing relations would detoriate.

Which groups i do consider?

i care mostly for Buddhism, then for the Golden Dawn, Wicca/Witchcraft & other esoteric groups; planning to look into Voodoo & Hoodoo later as well.

i have mixed feelings about Catholic Church - parts of them i almost love (Warsaw University & BKKK Martial Arts club mostly), parts i try to not despise too much (Modern Inquisition mostly - yes, it still exists). Catholic church as a whole is allied with Buddhism i think.

By 'esoteric groups' i mean any spiritually oriented groups that are not Buddhism - from other groups' perspectives however, Buddhism might be esoteric while their own ways are not.

Understanding the needs.

For a politician to be succesful, he or she must understand groups he or she is involved with.

i try to learn Buddhism, our Way - as well as Esoteric Ways. Without understanding, politics is stupid and next to meaningless.

A Postulate.

Buddhist friends, please consider Esoteric friends and their needs. Let's make best efforts to remain friendly as much as we can.

Buddhist Friends, please inform me of our expectations from esoteric groups so i can think & present our needs to them; please remain to be as respectful, considerate & realistic with that as well, as much as we can.


1. May all beings have happines and causes of happiness (Love & Loving Kindness),
2. May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering (Compassion),
3. May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering (Sympathetic joy),
4. May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion (Equanimity).



Namaste, blessed be.

Monday, 12 December 2016

Tools for Inner Development - Imagination and Visualization.


During a Buddhist practice - for example during meditation or study - one sees, imagines, visualizes Buddha forms.

Imagination & Self-Criticism.

It's easier to accomplish a goal - for example finding work - when one does not drag himself into depression with detrimential thoughts.

Instead of thinking of oneself as of a 'loser incapable of finding any work', one should regularly imagine oneself as capable person.

But it's not about positive thinking & unrealistic beliefs - these can result in psychological problems if carried too far.

In Diamond Way Buddhism we try to act as Lamas or Buddhas until we become one. We imagine ourselves as possessing Buddha Qualities, while at the same time being aware that it's just an opening, that realistically we are not so developed as of yet.


During meditation we visualize Buddha forms with their attributes.

Buddhist symbolics is rich, spiritual, and deeply wise on many levels.

Mahakala for example carries a knife that severs all what hinders, a skull-bowl with ego's blood and more.

Visualizing this helps us to keep in mind many Mahakala aspects at the same time, to coordinate our activities & thinking.

This reminds us how we should be, what is important for Mahakala activity, and with practice can be a skillful way of keeping attention & focus on being as Mahakala in all of his aspects.

-- Paraphrased & summarized parts of 'Introduction to Kalachakra' by Alexander Berzin.

Antisectarianism & the Initial Preparations for the Kalachakra Practice.

'Introduction to the Kalachakra Initiation' by Alexander Berzin.

About the Book, Schools, Lineages & Antisectarianism.

i read a little.

It's written with great care, education and experience.

Even if it's Gelug School's lesson - it's intended for all four of Tibetan Buddhism lineages.

i try to be Antisectarian and learn from other schools as well, nevertheless, afterall - without leaving Karma Kagyu School under Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje.

i hope these blessings & lessons, as well as my efforts, will bring different lineages & schools together instead of separating.

High Tantra.

Kalachakra meditation practice is a very high lesson; it's unwise to come unprepared or too early.

i do not reach for too much, it would be unwise.

This book prepares for full initiation, as well as for a casual observer's initiations. Casual observers, even non buddhists wishing for world's peace can benefit from this book as well.

i just want to learn Kalachakra Practice-related Sila (morality), code of conduct & vows to be better prepared for when the time is proper for participating in this empowerment - in future.

See also, if You wish: Tools for Inner Development - Imagination and Visualization, Kalachakra, Peace & Sharing, Karma & Astrology, Kalachakra, Deity Yoga, Imagination & Visualization, Qualifications of a Kalachakra Master.

(as i read i'll edit this an article, when/if i can).



Namaste, blessed be.


A Quote.

'Mantra (Skt., Tib. ngag): Natural vibration of a buddha aspect; activates the Buddha aspect's power-field. Many Diamond Way meditations have a phase where mantras are repeated.'

-- Quoted from 'Fearless Death' by Lama Ole Nydahl.

Blog author's comments.

Mantra is also protecting sound (sound is conveyed by air's vibration).

i think that there can be visual Mantras as well (conveyed by light - an electromagnetic oscillation of a certain frequencies).

Perhaps there's more.

On a certain experiencing level, all sounds are mantras, all thoughts are wisdom.

Sunday, 11 December 2016

Drukpa Kunley & Protection from Insanity.


Drukpa Kunley, also called the Divine Madman of the Dragon Lineage is a holy person in Tibetan Buddhism's history.

Drukpa Kunley confronted people about their stiff ideas, opened minds, opened Buddhism Way to many using controversial methods.

Buddha Drukpa Kunley meditated despite his Madness, was able to reach Enlightenment despite obstacles.

i think Drukpa Kunley protected people from insanity, from delusions, from stiff ideas, probably more.

Delusions & Insanity.

i think that delusions are a form of insanity, but this does not mean that everyone except Buddhas has to go to mental hospitals.

Many people occasionally hear voices when there are none, have visions, think that they saw or heard something but then they understand it was just a trick of their mind.

When people can function normally despite delusions - or even better, if they have distance and criticism to their mind plays - no psychology or psychotherapy is needed.

Years ago i made a wish to protect people from insanity, i still wish for that - unless they attack me or whom/what i hold dear or important for my ways; when i feel attacked i cease to protect attackers for as long as neccessary.

i think it's an act of compassion to spare beings from suffering, insanity and visits to mental hospital or psychologists are a form of suffering.


i know that mental illness is my karma, i earned it with deeds in past lives and earler in this life as well.

i accept and take responsibility for my actions even during streaks of insanity, i try to not let this happen or at least to make this happen as little as possible, with least consequences as well; i am taking medicines, going to psychologists and psychatrists, going to therapy, etc.

i apologize myself and everyone for deeds i did when i acted insane.

Controversial methods.

i can see benefits of Drukpa Kunley Way as well.

By following Drukpa Kunley way i can do controversial things, say controversial and weird words, can do great lengths and do strange things to help people when everything considered 'sane' by society won't help.

i do not wish to use sex as a way to introduce people to Buddhism, even if Buddha Drukpa Kunley did this often; i prefer love to sex instead, and i do not believe in short/meaningless relationships and i do not believe in changing love partners too often.

i do not believe in sex without love, i am enemy of rape, i wish to give a Buddhist woman i Love everything she needs or wishes - even kids if that's her wish.

i do try to gently meditate when i can, on my responsibility, even if i am mad.

Insights, Prejudice.

Occasionally i have insights that people attack me.

Causes are appear as that they do not want to associate with a madman, fearing to be accused of believing his insane thoughts, fearing to be disrespected as madman's friend.

Insights tell me that they believe other authorities, but not me - even if i repeat words of those whom they believe; i think it's prejudice - i cease to protect them in this case.

i can understand that one can choose a teacher he or she wants for a given lesson - not only words written or spoken count, understanding, accents, experiences of a certain teachers also matter. it's wise to learn from more experienced teachers even if less realized teachers know the same lesson to a certain degree. if that's the reason of refusing to accept my lessons - i gently and respectfully bow out without ceasing to support or help those people.

i can understand criticism and checking first before trust.

i can understand taking precautions and learning about me before respect, friendship & trust.

i just do not like attacks, prejudice and violence toward me, that's all.

Fears i can understand, i advise calmness, courage and the HUNG mantra that transforms anger into fearlessness.



Namaste, blessed be.

Saturday, 10 December 2016

Mara, Delusions & Mindstream.

'Prince Siddhartha Gautama & Mara.

Before Historical Buddha reached Enlightenment, he was known as prince Siddhartha Gautama.

Recalling story of his life, he was tempted & attacked by Mara with his countless servants.

Who or what is Mara?

Mara in buddhist texts is a character that personifies evil coming from lack of Enlightenment.

In Buddhism satan (evil) is not really a person, but different uncontrolled mind states, that take away our peace & light. Mara is a symbol of unenlightened world, of all negative traits characteristic to unenlightened existence.

Doubts, fears, lacks in trust, lack of faith in Buddha's Teachings and oneself, uncontained desire for sex, fame, rulership, wealth - is a 'world' (world in mind) really sinister - cold, alien, lonely. If we let such disturbing feelings to arise and take roots in our heart, then we are under Mara's rule. Mara is all of listed above detrimential mind states, and not any man or woman with bad intentions toward our souls and all of humanity. No one special comes to buy our souls. If we go to hell, it's because we send ourselves that way on our own.

In buddhism no one is interrested in a devil waiting for us with his fork, and all of our attention is directed to our life, mindset, maturity and responsibility, our conduct and belief in Buddha's Teachings. Satan is a self-harmed by own delusions, hindered by fears personality, that has access to us only when we feel same thing as he. But then his face is only too familiar to us, because it's not any other face than our own.'

Source: an article found in the internet.

Getting Rid of Delusions.

When we see clearly enough how perfect is our mind, when we see 'ocean under waves', 'truth not distorted by a mirror', when our mind perceives itself without veils - we gain certainty that it's worth to pursue a way to Enlightenment despite of how difficult parts of the Way might be.

Mara is just a delusion, a phenomenon in our mind, a monster of our ego that makes us feel separated from others, a monster of our ego that makes us suffer disturbing feelings, veils that hinder our percepts of our innately perfect & enlightened Mind.

i think these delusions can be fought with patience, with mantras, with a wish to win - perhaps with other ways as well.

Source: Buddhist books, my own experience & my insights.

Mindstream: a personal 'film' played before our senses and Mind.

Mindstream, also called stream of consciousness is a 'film' played before our senses through which mind perceives world around. What is a cause of that film? It's just our karma from past lives & current life up to this point, when we thought, spoke and acted - we seeded the seeds of what happens in that 'film'.

Through body & senses we perceive the world around, our brain filters stream of consciousness, our senses convey the film through brain to the Mind. Thus our Mind is experiencer of results of past thoughts, words and actions.

Everyone has his or hers own 'film', perceives world differently, though often these worlds are similar enough for us to communicate, to find a common language.

This film, this world is not real, it's illusory and nonpermanent - what we perceive as real is just a distorted truth. Distorted by our disturbing thoughts & feelings, by veils of perception, by our egos, by our delusions and imperfect view (in this case by view i mean: knowledge about the world and knowledge about mind's nature). World changes constantly as well, by the time light of the sun comes to our eye, a time has passed - we see things from the past and think it's now. By the way we learn something in tv, world already has changed or changes at this moment. i do not know people who can follow the whole of current scientific progresses as these are now, for example - but perhaps Buddhas can, however.

Source: Buddhist books, Buddhist Lectures & my insights.

Worlds - 'inner' and 'outer'.

i read in Lama Ole Nydahl's book that what we experience as an external world is in fact illusion that appears before our Mind - it's internal experience instead.

i know that advanced physics science is in conflict about that; parts of scientists agree that world is subjective, that act of observation affects both observer as well as an observed object, that these three are in fact inseparable; another parts of scientists believe that world is objective, that 'moon exists even when no one is looking at it'.

i wish to Protect our Inner Values with my scientific efforts, to investigate the physical truths & add my efforts to works on theories that will benefit our ways, abolishing stupidity that delays Enlightenment for all beings; human beings often believe what science says, stupid & harmful theories only seed detrimential feelings & thoughts, increase public lack of wisdom & delusions, and delay the Enlightenment & truth recognition by public.

Buddhism, Arts & Sciences.

i live in europe, i wish to work (as an artist-scientist, including computer sciences) & share - with Buddhism & not only.


> [ His Holiness 17th Karmapa Trinlay Thaye Dorje welcomes you to the Wealth of Europe ].

am i a computer scientist?

i think i am an excellent internet applications programmer, using many cost-effective, practical, pragmatic & proven methods with a little of scientific approach in my work as well. it's often an overkill to use a proper scientific focus in a professional webapps programming, it's not as cost-effective as customers want.

yes, my scientific approach with programming is lacking, i envy & admire true scientists - i can admit that.

i think that 'envy' disturbing feeling is related with 'MA' mantra that transforms 'envy' into 'wisdom of experience'. i read it's a duty of the 'Sword Buddha Family' that i try to give tribute to, to transform 'envy' into 'wisdom of experience'. therefore i think i should transform my 'envy', increase and transform ... so i am more and more experienced scientist as well - in a service to Buddha Karmapa & others.

i wish very much to 'sharpen' my 'Ockham Razor of the Scientific Focus' in about 7 years, when i go to University again to study Mathematics this time. i wish to develop sharp, shrewd & strict scientific mind & mental scientific apparatus as well. i prefer to offer mostly technological advantage to Buddhism, friends & allies - not only just money.

i think that 'Ockham Razor of the Scientific Focus' is related with 'attachment' disturbing feeling, with 'NI' mantra that transforms 'attachment' into 'discriminating wisdom' that allows to see clearly 'how things are' both distinct in separation and as a part of larger whole - as in the Sciences that analyze a fine details & relations between objects & assumptions. i read it's a duty of the 'Lotus Buddha Family' that i try to give tribute to as well to transform 'attachment' into 'discriminating wisdom'. i think i should work with 'attachment' to increase my cold analysis and relaxed, stoic approach in regards with Sciences as well in a service to Buddha Karmapa & others.

it's not first day since i try to give tribute to 'Lotus & Sword Buddha Families' anyway, it's written in my deviantID (deviantART profile) as well - i wrote about that years ago if i remember well enough.

what Sciences beside Computer-Related i am interrested in?
it's Mathematics, Physics, Electronics, Chemistry, Biology & Nanotechnology (NEMS - Nanoelectromechanical Systems) mostly.

i wish to do research & scientific development until end of my life, with priority being Enlightened Love, then 70% of free time spent on the Sciences and 30% of free time spent on Arts.

i prefer to do practical technological advancements & advanced technological tools creation - but i am not too picky, if need arises i can do theories & scientific equations instead as well. i've offered Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje all i have, my death, my life as well, afterall.

i prefer to not neglect the Arts - Martial Arts, Digital Arts (Photography & Scene Lights, Photomanipulation with Adobe Photoshop software, Cosplay & Photo-Acting mostly - without getting undressed too much ;) ).

my favourite styles & symbolics are related with 'Martial Arts' & 'Art of Magick & Light'.

my most ambitious of projects is 'Art & Dharma Teachings' Internet Application, still in an early piloting stage:
> [ Art & Dharma Teachings ].

as far as sciences go (sciences are not everything), my most ambitious & important projects are:
- NEMS nanotechnology,
- 'Ola AH' Programming Language creation & documentation.

see also, if You wish or need, ... : My Career Plan, Dana.


Namaste, blessed be.

Buddha Families and their responsibilities can be found elaborated in a book: 'Buddha & Love' by Lama Ole Nydahl.

... this article can also be found on deviantART.

Friday, 25 November 2016

A few thoughts about Mind.

Are we a mind or a body?

i read that we are mind, that we have bodies instead of bodies having mind.

Mind is not just a product of the brain, Mind has body & brain instead.

Mind is experiencer, can see through our eyes, hear through ears, feel what our skin touches, etc. But what is imagination?

Mind itself was never born, mind cannot die - but the conditioned body it has can die still.

i read that after body's death mind enters 'bardo' state, then after that joins with a new body - one is reborn.

Mind like Space.

i read that mind is like space, thoughts & feelings are it's free play.

When nothing appears, there's potential.

When something arises, it's a play.

Both can occur at once.

Space is not what separates, it's like a container that encompasses & connects beings.

Mind like Ocean.

Waves - both gentle waves, as well as storms might appear - but the ocean is stable still.

There can be warm & cold waves, they might play both gently & roughly, but all is passing - even the waters' stillness.

Mind like Mirror.

i read that Mind is like a Mirror - images, thoughts & feelings - might come & go, be reflected - but mind's nature doesn't change.

A thought about the Liberation.

What if mind-mirror becomes independent of thoughts & feelings that obscure it's innate perfection, happines, clarity, etc?

Is non-attachment, distance & observation a way to reach that state?

Meditation's Challenges.


This blog's author is speaking of personal experiences, therefore before assuming that this is a timeless, and universal truth one should think, check, perhaps ask the qualified Buddhist Teachers as well.

Challenges & Conclusions.

Recently i did meditate, for a while i felt bliss, space & joy in mind.

Then after a few days, i felt attacked - thoughts & feelings appeared, thoughts & feelings attacked me, i acted with anger against catholic church.

Now when anger passed i am able to think coherently again.

When i looked at Hannah Nydahl's & Lama Ole Nydahl's photo i had insight that it was mostly subconsciousness surfacing, that people who seemed to attack me are in fact far better than i thought.

i wish to meditate again, to purify subconscious - it's my way. But i should not let my errors reappear, i should keep in mind that it's mostly subconsciousness & ego that attacks in these moments. i should let go of resentment & other disturbing feelings & thoughts, i should practice four immeasurables, i should practice patience to win against anger as well.


May all beings have happines and causes of happiness (Love & Loving Kindness),
May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering (Compassion),
May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering (Sympathetic joy),
May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion (Equanimity).



Namaste, blessed be.


Conscious Dying.

'In Tibetan Buddhism there is Phowa or 'Conscious Dying' which one can apply in dying, for oneself as well as for others.

One uses the moment of death, when mind separates from body, either to come from a confused state of mind into a clear, liberated one, or to help others in doing so.

As a matter of fact, among the Diamond Way meditations that Buddha passed on to his closest students, this practice is unique in quickness, applicability, and power.

As is generally the case with Buddha's ultimate methods, the benefits from this practice manifest already during one's life, since harmful impressions dissolve for the student, the consciousness soldifies, and mind becomes clearer.

Many Buddhists therefore say that there is a life before Phowa and alife afterward, and the second part is much better!


Although the pure lands, to which one goes after death - and which are experienced more and more strongly during life - still don't signify enlightenment, under all circumstances, one is on the way to liberation, will not fall down from the achieved level of development, and can develop safely according to one's capacities and qualities.

With the word 'Phowa' Tibetans imagine a bird, which, trapped under a roof, finds a hatch and swings, freed into space.


All meditations in Diamond Way centers are used primarily for mastering life. In addition, by means of their contents, they are also a preparation for death. Phowa is learned specificially for the moment of death, and also applied at the crucial moment for oneself, or for friends, in the way that one has learned.'

-- Quoted from 'Fearless Death' by Lama Ole Nydahl.

Phowa Courses.

'Although everybody already possesses the ticket to learning Conscious Dying - one was born and thus one will also die someday - besides the intellectual maturity to understand this, certain preparations are neccessary for this invaluable practice.

For example, in Tibet, Phowa was only given to students who had completed the four Foundational Practices (Tib. ngöndro) or promised to do so. The importance of this practice also becomes apparent in the fact that in the traditional three-year retreats it is taught only after two years.

After more than eighty-five thousand Tibetans fled out of their country from Mao's troops in 1959, and many of them died of tuberculosis in the Indian refugee camps, today the access to these teachings is easier. Especially in the humaniatarian West, it gets increasingly difficult to find time to meditate between work and distractions. However, since a death follows every life, more than six hundred Diamond Way centers worldwide enable those who want to go to a Buddhist pure land and who agree with the view and goals of the Diamond Way to learn this practice.

New participants prepare best for the Phowa through the so-called Short Refuge and meditation on the Buddha of Limitless Light.


If one can additionally do the highly effective purification through the Buddha Diamond Mind and his one hundred- or six-syllable mantra - which removes the roughest of obstacles - one has a very good preparation for the Phowa.'

-- Quoted from 'Fearless Death' by Lama Ole Nydahl.

Blog Author's Comments.

For more information & details about Phowa, Phowa Courses & Preparations, as well as on related subjects - readers should read 'Fearless Death' by Lama Ole Nydahl, or contact qualified Buddhist Teachers.

See also, if You wish: Ngöndro - Beyond the Comfort Zone, Reincarnation, Better Reincarnation.



Namaste, as well.

Monday, 21 November 2016

Buddhism & Esoterics: Mysticism, Mantras, Spells & Rituals.


This blog's author is trying to bring together Buddhism & Esoterics, respecting, understanding, trying to organize meaningful alliances & friendships as well.

Buddhism & Enlightened Love as a way for Enlightenment is this blog's author's greatest goal & ambition, however.

This blog's author is trying to follow the Diamond Way, also called Vajrayana Buddhism or Esoteric Buddhism, among other names.

This blog's author is aware that Esoterics are insanely dangerous, the main risk is detracting too much from a true goal of Buddhism: Enlightenment, however.

In this article, this blog's author will try to explain certain ideas important to his way, and how these interrelate & come together with the Buddhist Way.

At least Milarepa Buddha knew esoterics, anything can be a step towards Enlightenment on the Diamond Way.


'The mystery religions developed and prospered during the time of Alexander the Great, when much of the known world, including Egypt and Persia, was becoming Hellenized.

Mystery religions became popular as people grew tired of the moral decay that resulted from the cold materialism and abstract rationalism of the philosophers.

People wanted and needed to believe in the gods again - not just the passive, state-sanctioned veneration of the traditional gods, but an active religious participation that would deeply touch the emotional lives of worshippers. The mystery religions satisfied this need.

Coinciding with the popular worship of the deities, there were secret initiatory ceremonies that were attended by a privileged few.

The Greek word mysteria or 'mysteries,' implied private or secret rites that were not intended for the general public.


The Greeks held that there were three types of knowledge: mathesis or knowledge that could be learned, gnosis or knowledge that could be gained through meditation or intuitive perception, and pathesis or knowledge that was felt.

The mystery religions tried to instill enlightenment through all three, but especially through pathesis, by supplying the initiate the opportunity for direct personal experience of the higher teachings. They promised a transcendent type of experience or spiritual ecstasy that was lacking in the more popular forms of state-sponsored worship.'

-- Quoted from 'The Essential Golden Dawn' by Chic Cicero and Sandra Tabatha Cicero.

This blog's author thinks that mysticism in his case is mostly insights, thoughts & feelings experiences caused mostly by meditations he participated in.

There are many types of meditation among religions or world views, often very different from Buddhist meditations.

There are many types of enlightenment among religions or world views, different from Buddhist Enlightenment. This blog's author is curious about common points & differencies between enlightenments, for the benefit of all.


This blog's author thinks that an 'Act of Magick', a Spell is a Speech with Universe, using the symbols & magickal meanings as arguments - that result in a change according to will.


'A formalized ceremony including a series of actions, physical as well as mental, that results in the release of magical energy and the fulfillment of a specific objective'.

-- Quoted from 'The Essential Golden Dawn' by Chic Cicero and Sandra Tabatha Cicero.

This blog's author thinks that a Ritual is more advanced & developed Spell - many rituals are spells that are practiced for long time, perfected & developed into a whole ceremonies.

About Mantras & Spells.

This blog's author thinks that all of his mantras are spells, and all of his spells are mantras, both at the same time - unless he makes a mistake.

Mantras on the mind, speech or body levels are acts of will, therefore these are spells as well, that way.

A spell is also an act of will, can be spoken aloud or in mind, or cast using body, every spell is a mantra that way, even if it's a mantra on the mind level only.



Namaste, blessed be.

Monday, 14 November 2016

Spirituality & Ego.


i think i read it before,

i think i read that as one grows in spirituality, ego feeds on it, is proud to be spiritual.

i think it's not truly spiritual way, however, to feed ego - even that way.

i think i read that after ego thinks: 'now, beside my other perfect qualities, i'll be also spiritual', the Buddhist Lama uses a trick to help student to defeat ego.

i could use Lama Ole Nydahl's wisdom in tricking ego into defeat for that.

Ego is an obstacle to Liberation & Enlightenment, should be defeated.

A true hero is someone who defeats own ego, instead of numerous foes.

i understand that my Buddha Dharma Wisdom is shallow still, i am still learning.

My goal is to be truly & deeply spiritual, without ego, without a shallow approach - but i do not know how, as of yet.

My goal is true & full Liberation & Enlightenment, without neglecting other ways too much, without neglecting non-buddhist friends.


i wish that i and all beings be happy altruists instead of suffering egoists - altruism is source of happiness,

i wish that i and all beings be truly spiritual, without shallow spirituality that only feeds ego,

i wish that i and all beings have meaningful lives & deaths, to inspire others with spiritual growth, to reincarnate better with time,

i wish that i and all beings reach Liberation & Enlightenment, as well.



Namaste, blessed be.

Sunday, 13 November 2016

Meditated - once again.


Today i had insight that i can meditate for a while.

i meditated a little, it was months or years since i did meditate.

This was a 'Meditation on Light & Breath' from 'Buddha & Love' book by Lama Ole Nydal.

i took it easy, didn't push too far nor carry meditation for too long for my sanity.

i meditated to calm mind & gain distance to disturbing thoughts & feelings that appear in mind.

i am happy that a woman i Love appeared in mind briefly as i meditated - it felt as we meditated together once again.

Dedication & Thoughts.

i am grateful for this meditation, i wish to share accomplishment & dedicate this experience for benefit of all beings.

i had insights that while meditation endangers my sanity, on my responsibility i can.

Perhaps i'll meditate a little more again soon.



Namaste, as well.

Friday, 11 November 2016

Studying Dragon Magicks of Babylon.


During Buddhist Lectures with Lama Ole Nydahl, had insights.

Insights in Buddhist holy places, or with significiant part of community, or with confirmed Teachers, Lamas i consider as more reliable than insights occuring elsewhere.

Even looking at a photo initiates mind contact with Lamas, Teachers, or Buddhas i think.

During one of Buddhist Lectures with Lama Ole Nydahl, insights told me that i should Study Mathematics at University again, and that i should also Study Dragon Magic of Babylon.

But when i'll be ready? When it'll be safe?

Recent Development.

A few days ago, i had insights with a lesson of a curse cast upon me by Islamic women & men. It seems that this curse will be overcome, will fail and i will learn a little as well. But i'll be also analyzed & countered, the way these lessons won't prepare me for.

I called for Mahakala Protection & for Wisdom of Five Wisdom Buddhas for aid.

Also, just today i had insight that Koran wants me for Arabicks, not sure if i spelled that word properly, however.

My Karmic Way.

i've included Esoteric Ways into my Karmic Way for Enlightenment for three reasons:

1. Because of above-mentioned insights, not only from a Buddhist Lecture,
2. Because of my friends from esoteric circles,
3. Because of my past experiences - i played with Magical games for years as a kid which caused a certain mindset in my mind, i bought TAROT cards & read a little of A.Crowley's books as a kid as well.

Symbolism of a Dragon.

Dragon, according to Jung's psychology & perhaps more - is a symbol of Fear, perhaps it has something to do with Terrorism?

That's my main reason of striving to be anti-terrorist.

Tamed Dragon however is a symbol of conquered fear, of fearlessness, of magic, of Protector, of a friend.



Namaste, blessed be.

Wednesday, 9 November 2016

Wisdom & Compassion.


Development of Wisdom & Compassion leads to Enlightenment on the Great Way of Buddhism.

Five Disturbing emotions: Sources of Wisdom.

'Disturbing emotions (Skt. Klesha / Tib. Nyön mong): also called: 'mental states that bring about suffering.'

These states are: ignorance, attachment, anger, pride and envy.

Together with negative actions, they form the causes for all suffering in the cycle of existence (Skt. Samsara).'

-- Quoted from 'Buddha & Love' by Lama Ole Nydahl.

Five Wisdoms.

'Wisdoms, Five: the five wisdoms are the true essence of the five disturbing emotions.

Through the conversion of ordinary experience, anger is recognized as a mirror-like state, showing the way things are without adding or subtracting anything (Mirror-like Wisdom).

Pride becomes the ability to see all things as richness (Equalizing Wisdom).

Atachment converts into the capacity to distinguish things in their details and how they work together (Discriminating Wisdom).

Envy converts itself into the ability to connect experiences as steps in a historical process (Wisdom of Experience),

and ignorance becomes all-pervading insight (All Pervading Wisdom).'

-- Quoted from 'Buddha & Love' by Lama Ole Nydahl.


'Compassion (Skt. Karuna / Tib. Nyingje): the second of the Four Immeasurables, the wish that all living beings may be free from suffering and the causes of suffering'.

-- Quoted from 'Buddha & Love' by Lama Ole Nydahl.

Great Way.

'Great Way (Tibetan: Thegchen, Sanskrit: Mahayana): The way of the bodhisattvas where one strives for enlightenment for the benefit of all beings.

Compassion and wisdom are deepened through study, analysis, and meditation over a long time, and then open out into insight.'

-- Quoted from 'The Way Things Are' by Lama Ole Nydahl.

Loving Eyes Mantra.

Disturbing emotions can be purified using Loving Eyes Mantra, using other ways as well.

After being purfied, disturbing emotions emerge as wisdoms.

The Loving Eyes Mantra: OM MANI PEME HUNG.

The underlying meaning of the mantra is as follows:

OM - purifies all harmful impressions that have been caused by pride and protects against rebirths as worldly gods

MA - purifies all harmful impressions that have been caused by envy and jealousy and protects against rebirths as jealous half-gods

NI - purifies all harmful impressions that have been caused by attachment and desire and protects against human rebirth (except as a Bodhisattva)

PE - purifies all harmful impressions that have been caused by ignorance and protects against rebirth as animals

ME - purifies all harmful impressions that have been caused by greed and stinginess and protects against rebirths as hungry ghosts

HUNG - purifies all harmful impressions that have been caused by anger and hatred and protects against paranoia-hell states

The literal translation is:

OM: Space awaken!

MANI PEME: Diamond in the Lotus Flower (which is the name of Buddha and invokes his power)

HUNG: Be Strong!

-- Quoted from 'Buddha & Love' by Lama Ole Nydahl & paraphrased from Buddhist sources.

Blog's author's comments.

i heard during a buddhist lecture, read as well, that development of Wisdom & Compassion is the Way to Enlightenment.

It's the Great Way (Mahayana) method, but i think that Diamond Way (Vayrajana) uses this as well.

After developing enough of Compassion one should develop Wisdom.

After developing enough of Wisdom one should develop Compassion.

i think that with Wisdom developed, one can help more beings more in a shorter time as well.

One should keep developing Wisdom & Compassion in turns, until Enlightenment is achieved.

Tuesday, 8 November 2016


High Holiness Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje.

Leader of the Karma Kagyu Lineage, one of main four Tibetan Buddhism Schools.

Who is Buddha?

'Buddha (Tib. Sangye): denotes the enlightened state of mind.

The Sanskrit word buddha translates as 'The Awakened One.'

The Tibetan word sangye means 'completely purified of all veils that obscure the clarity of mind (sang) and complete development of all inherent qualities of mind (gye)'. These qualities include fearlessness, spontaneous joy, active compassion, wisdom, and activity for benefit of all beings.

The buddha of our age is the historical Buddha Shakyamuni, the fourth of 1,000 historical buddhas who will manifest in this eon. Every historical buddha introduces a new period of dharma.'

-- Quoted from 'Buddha & Love' by Lama Ole Nydahl.

Blog author's comments.

The Goal of every Buddhist is to achieve Enlightenment, to become buddha.

After achieving Enlightenment, one does not cease to work for others - one just gains 'momentum', i read.

Enlightenment is the Base, Way & Goal.



Namaste, as well.

Monday, 7 November 2016

Respecting Other Ways.


This blog's author thinks that self-respect, respect for others, and gentle, inspiring, and meanigful speech & manners are important part of Buddhism.

This blog's author's way overlaps with other ways, not only with Buddhism.

Many Ways, important parts of my Way.

i try to be open for other ways, as far as it does not endanger my true goal - Enlightened Love as a Way for Enlightenment.

i try to be Antisectarian, i try to learn from other Buddhism's Schools, from other beneficial Religions & from other beneficial World Views as well.

Most important, esoteric & spiritual parts of my way are:
- Other Buddhism's Schools, even rivalring for Karmapa's title - in that way i accept their leaders as Advanced Teachers, but not as Buddhas as of yet,
- Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn, including Catholic parts,
- Witchcraft/Wicca - mostly Gardnerian,
- ...

Arts & Science communities, including Martial Arts communities are important parts of my way as well.

i think we should respect each other, should try our best to protect ourselves & each other, should try to understand ourselves & each other, should try to befriend each other as well.

Truth is what brings together instead of separating, but Honesty is important as well. i try to be honest, even if i'm not perfect that way as of yet.

i try to protect other Ways from a false buddhist practices, from ignorance & from harm, from bad manners & from closed minds of beginners on the Buddhism's way.

i strive for Alliances or even better Friendships, i strive to represent our Sangha's side - while understanding other Ways, their conducts & their needs, as well.



Namaste, blessed be.


About Refuge.

'Refuge (Tibetan: Khyab dro, Sanskrit: Sharanam gam): Translates literally as go to protection.

Encountering one's own buddha nature, one turns to the values on which one can rely.

One takes Refuge in Buddha as the goal, in the Dharma as the way, and in the Sangha, the Bodhisattvas, as one's friends and helpers on the way.

These are the so-called Three Jewels.

In the Diamond Way one also takes refuge in the Three Roots.

Receiving refuge from a lama is the ritual beginning of one's way. It creates a connection between the buddha nature of the student and the timeless wisdom of all buddhas.

As a good sign, one gets a Buddhist name and a tiny bit of hair is cut. This reminds one that the Buddha, after he left his homeland and caste and decided to dedicate all his time and energy to enlightenment, cut his hair.'

-- Quoted from 'The Way Things Are' by Lama Ole Nydahl.

About Three Jewels.

'Three Jewels (Tiberan: Kon dhog sum, Sanskrit: Triratna): Buddha, Dharma, and Sangha. All Buddhists worldwide take refuge in them.'

-- Quoted from 'The Way Things Are' by Lama Ole Nydahl.

Buddha is an Enlightened being, every Buddhist's goal is to reach Enlightenment.

Dharma is a word for Buddha's Unsurpassable Teachings, there are other Dharmic Religions as well.

Sangha is Buddhists' community of practicioneers, or a Buddhist groups. There are many Sanghas helping in different world's parts, all a part of whole Sangha - i think.

About Three Roots.

'Three Roots (Tibetan: Tsawa sum, Sanskrit: Trimula): Lama, Yidam and Protector.

Above and beyond the Three Jewels, they are the Refuge in the Diamond Way and make possible a fast track to Enlightenment.

They are the source or roots of blessing, realization and protection.'

-- Quoted from 'The Way Things Are' by Lama Ole Nydahl.

See also, if You need or wish, ... : Important Buddhist Teachers & my experiences from the Refuge & from the other Buddhist Courses.



Namaste, as well.

Egoism & Altruism.


Concepts of Egoism & Altruism are important Buddhism's part.

i had insights, i think, i'll write in this article of what makes sense for me, about my opinions.

if/when neccessary, however - i'll correct this article later.


Egoists are people who think mostly of their own benefit, who do not care about others.

On a Buddhist Way, it's important to defeat one's own ego, to see oneself as connected with other beings, as a part of larger whole - to become an Altruist.


Altruists are beings who think of others, not only of themselves.

Being an Altruist is not the same thing as being a good person, there are those who think of others to cause harm - as well as those who combine Altruism with the Beyond-Personal Good.

A Buddhism's Way.

While there's separation between ideas of the Altruism & Good, both are important on Buddhism's Way.

Buddha teaches Compassion - both for oneself & for others, teaches Altruism & Beyond-Personal Good.

It's best to help as many beings as possible, not only oneself, or just one's family.

Beyond-Personal Good is the Good that reaches other beings, both helping, supporting, and inspiring as well, i think.

Loving Eyes Mantra.

My silver signet ring with Loving Eyes Mantra engraved,

... helps to develop Compassion, Altruism & Beyond-Personal Good.

When i look at Loving Eyes Mantra, it reminds me of how i should be.


1. May all beings have happines and causes of happiness (Love),
2. May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering (Compassion),
3. May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering (Sympathetic joy),
4. May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion (Equanimity).



Namaste, blessed be.

Sunday, 6 November 2016

A Gift.

A 'Nitescence' paint by Nerialka.

With a Ritual TAROT Tools & a Raven Familiar Statue, also a Ritual Magick Tool.

A Gift.

i bought this a paint on deviantART, it's my friend Nerialka's Art.

Nerialka saved my life, along with Buddhist friends by dragging me out from a severe depression mental illness, so i stood a chance to carry on. i treasured it very much.

It was what a lady-friend has most precious to offer anyway, her time at youth. i think she kept preparing for talks with me as well, perhaps she involved her friends. She gave me about a year, then left. i know she prefers quiet people - so we do not talk much - but i feel that we still are friends.

My experiences with Nerialka show that she at least behaves as a true lady - a far from the haughty & stiff cliche aristocrat - she's gentle & eloquent - prefers to use both small & wise words - she's quiet, modest, humane, polite, a little cold but still friendly & caring, her manneres have no faults, she's wise, philosophical, spiritual, open-minded & compassionate altruist - even if many consider her evil, as she fights for those she cares for. Never heard a rude word from her as well, she's quite educated (Physics & Chemistry, a little of Computer Programming & perhaps more), can work very hard & fast. i know she does not want to brag or attract too much of attention, but she's very elegant & beautiful as well - i saw this on her photo that is not available on deviantART.

i hope that she forgives me revealing that much about her in this article.

A value of her 'Nitescence' paint is even more, because i tried to offer it for a Buddhist center - it's that important & valuable for me - i didn't want to offer something not worthy.

i brought 'Nitescence' within the Buddhist Center, it was unpacked & examined - a Buddhist Artist & Teacher Rafał Olech examined, told he likes when i did ask, also explained that in Buddhist Centers there's only Thangka Art. Still i feel it was blessed that way, it reminds me of Liberation, of how Nerialka liberated me from suffering significiantly.

There's also a symbol - a toxic tear, that leaves the eye - liberating it from that suffering.

After that i met a Buddhist woman i Love, we meditated together, then decided that 'Nitescence' is for her instead.

But this not so simple as that, for i also offered HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje everything i have, my death & my life as well - until now only in mind.

If our Sangha's Buddha decides, a 'Nitescence' paint is for him instead, i hope a Buddhist woman i Love will forgive if this occurs.



Namaste, blessed be.

Saturday, 5 November 2016



'Reincarnation/Rebirth: Embodiment in a subsequent life.

The same person is not reborn but the mind follows its unenlightened habit to think that things are real. It consolidates itself in a new life according to the karma which has been built up through actions, words and thoughts and this mind experiences a new world accordingly.

Normally a reincarnation happens involuntarily but can also happen consciously on the basis of good wishes for the benefit of beings, if the nature of mind has been recognized and to a great extent.'

-- Quoted from 'The Way Things Are' by Lama Ole Nydahl.

See also, if You wish: Better Reincarnation, Phowa.

Friday, 4 November 2016



This blog's author tries to be Antisectarian.

Truth is what brings together instead of separating, therefore separation & anything that separates is Lies. Honesty is also important, however.

What is a Sect?

This depends on how we define word 'Sect'.

i think a sect is a group of religious protest, a group that separates.

i think that in most pure form, a word 'Sect' means 'Division', it's a closed group that separated themselves from other groups, to practice in solitude, while protecting their members - this is not so bad then.

i think that a far worse case of a sect 'Sect' is a person or a group that uses Harmful Sectarian Practices with regard to themselves or others. In this case word 'Sect' means basicly 'Separation' & 'Lies'.

Word 'Religion' means 'Reunion'.

In my opinion, a most common case of a Sect is a semi-religious person or group who is/are attached to a Religion or World view & exerts control over others. Even if it's only ignorance, laziness & greed this is still dangerous - for the overworked & disgraced people under him/her/them after a while lose meaning of life, try to suicide seeing no point in living anymore on these terms. This occured to me as well when i was atheist invovled with certain ignorant people from the Catholic Church.

In my opinion, a far more dangerous case of a Sect is someone or a group aware of what is a Sect, still using that knowledge & their means to gain advantage from others' work & resources. These people enslave, lie & steal, often are motivated by fanaticism, intentional malice, hatred, anger, jealousy, envy, greed & pride.

Harmful Sectarian Practices.

Sects sometimes close their members to other Ways, denying their members lessons & practices with other Teachers, with other Schools. It's separation from Absolute Truth, it's a harmful way in my opinion.

Sects have their agendas to fulfill, they Protect their ways - sometimes even illegally.

Certain sects are abusing their members: spiritually, with verbal or physical violence, materially, sometimes sexually as well.

Certain sects are addicting them to their teachers, to narcotics, or other things to keep them loyal.

Certain sects are forcing their members to work for others without or with too little of rewards.

There were cases when sects used weapons or other illegal means for their self-defense & protection.

Do Sects occur only in Buddhism?

i think the answer is: 'No', this is a common misunderstanding.

i think that many Religions or World Views have both sectarian practicioneers, as well as other, more spiritually developed & altruistic People.

Why Sects occur?

i think Sects can be formed for many reasons.

This can be a part of their way, to fulfill a certain wish or agenda, or out of greed - spiritual, erotic or material.

i think that Sects might be less spiritually ambitious people, who just want to take advantage of others or to focus on semi-spiritual goal as well.

i think that sometimes being a Sect is only part of the someone's or group's way, with goal of advancing to higher, nobler, more advanced Spiritual Ways as soon as they can.


Antisect is a Sect that Counters rival Sects.

Antisects can have higher Spiritual Ambitions, can wish other people Freedoms just lacking proper Wisdom or Methods to be called 'Religions' or 'Buddhism' yet, etc. This is how i understand my Antisectarian motive as well.

Antisects can be Sects who just wage a Spiritual/Worldly War on other rival Sects. These Antisects are dangerous Sects as well. This is what i do not wish to be.

Ways of countering Sects.

One should first & foremost counter sectarian tendences in himself or herself, to be true & honest with himself or herself.

Using violence against oneself or against others is not preferable means, this brings harm.

Using Wisdom & Compassion (working, sharing lessons) so sects do not have to use harmful sectarian methods & can evolve into something better, a Religion for example - is preferable.

Accepting lessons from other schools or teachers is a way of being non-sectarian, one can & should take a Refuge in a Lesson not the Teacher in this case, i read.

Related Articles.

* Introduction,
* Understanding Fear of Sects,
* Sects, Antisects, Mystical Weapons,
* Antisectarian Buddhism, Religions & Atheism,
* Regarding Religions,
* Why Antisect?
* About Sects,
* Spiritual Materialism,
* Is Lama Ole's Diamond Way a Sectarian Way?,
* Broken Papers.



Namaste, as well.

Thursday, 3 November 2016

Why Antisect?


This blog's author tries to be Antisectarian.

It's a common misunderstanding that only Buddhism has Sects, other Religions do not.

Antisectarian movement seems rare in Buddhism, but why it occurs at all, then?

Personal Reasons.

i cannot meditate because of my mental illness, formerly also because of my parents' catholic background.

My parents feared sects, church warned about these - so they tried to keep me away from meditation.

i think that if i pave a way for others to meditate freely, that karma will return to me & i will be able to meditate again, sooner or later.

That's why i help others to meditate, by helping Buddhism to win against accusations for Sectarian Practices, especially on the Spiritual Level & in the Law Courts.

Current Situation.

Karma Kagyu School of Buddhism under High Holiness Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje steps away from Religious approach to Buddhism, it's more a Science in recent times.

i think we do not wish to be countered by saints, either of the Church or the other Spiritual Factions.

Sects & Meditation.

i try to be a Living Proof that Buddhism does not have to be Sectarian, to Protect others against Church's accusations - so others can meditate without that obstacle.

i think that Sects are separation & lies ... i think that anyone individually can act as Sect, either because of personal stupidity & laziness or because of more dangerous intentional malice, hatred, anger, envy, jealousy, greed & pride. i think that larger, more organized & dangerous sects do happen as well, no matter the Religion or a World View.


i wish that everyone - including me - can meditate freely, without obstacles.

i wish that everyone can practice the powerful transcedental methods of the Spiritual growth.

i wish that everyone can develop fully on any Beneficial & Spiritual Way, even if its Esoterics, with or without Buddhism involved as well.

i wish that everyone who follows Spiritual Ways does not detract from Absolute Truth.

i wish that everyone does not suffer from separation, from desperation or from lies.

i wish that everyone benefits from Wisdom & Compassion, Enlightening Qualities in itself.

i wish that everyone benefits from common points between Religions & World Views.

i wish that everyone benefits from Peace, Calm Mind & Joy.

i wish that everyone benefits from lack of stiff ideas, from lack of constraining dogmas, from freedoms of all kind.



Namaste, blessed be.

Wednesday, 2 November 2016

Love & Hate, Light & Darkness.


i think it is a Buddhist lesson to not release anger on weaker, on people with worse karma; practicing Four Immeasurables & Patience is the way instead.

People with worse karma are often in difficult situations, are often ignorant & weak.

People with worse karma cause troubles because of their own problems with themselves mostly.

Only Love, Loving Kindness & Compassion can help these people recover from their bad karma & turn them into true friends, into heroes.

Goal of Buddhism is Enlightenment afterall, for every being - it's not the exclusive Tyranny where one being rules weaker beings for his or hers only benefit.

i gave Bodhisattva promise during my Refuge Ceremony, to follow the Way for Enlightenment, for good of all beings; others did this as well - let's keep Enlightened View of Bodhicitta - let's keep helping others instead of draining their resources & time, instead of testing their patience too much.



Namaste, as well.