This blog's author is speaking of personal experiences, therefore before assuming that this is a timeless, and universal truth one should think, check, perhaps ask the qualified Buddhist Teachers as well.
Challenges & Conclusions.
Recently i did meditate, for a while i felt bliss, space & joy in mind.
Then after a few days, i felt attacked - thoughts & feelings appeared, thoughts & feelings attacked me, i acted with anger against catholic church.
Now when anger passed i am able to think coherently again.
When i looked at Hannah Nydahl's & Lama Ole Nydahl's photo i had insight that it was mostly subconsciousness surfacing, that people who seemed to attack me are in fact far better than i thought.
i wish to meditate again, to purify subconscious - it's my way. But i should not let my errors reappear, i should keep in mind that it's mostly subconsciousness & ego that attacks in these moments. i should let go of resentment & other disturbing feelings & thoughts, i should practice four immeasurables, i should practice patience to win against anger as well.
May all beings have happines and causes of happiness (Love & Loving Kindness),
May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering (Compassion),
May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering (Sympathetic joy),
May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion (Equanimity).
OM MANI PEME HUNG
Namaste, blessed be.