... it's written that one reincarnates in a new body.
Human body is not granted for sure.
Many fear that new body changes so much, that 'mere' mindstream transference is not enough. Is it comparable to reading books of ancestors?
... a while ago i had experience that made me cease to worry about that.
... i think its worthwhile to go through this, but on a condition that one is prepared & ready.
... after preparation one should add extra effort/time for extra safety/certainty, i think & strongly advise.
... after that one should wait for a holiday, i won't advise what one - this depends on one's spirituality, view, karma, wisdom, etc.
... neglecting proper, serious precautions can result in serious brain damage, or death - i think ... and i suspect that such death results in related, very bad karma for many lifetimes as well.
... about my experience:
... in my sleep, in one of bardo states, i felt strangely lucid, aware - i saw myself in hell, in a demon/devil body, other hell denizens abused and fought me.
... but i think that due preparations of me & buddhist woman i love, whole experience was dimmed, faded, distant, downplayed - just a small nuisance ... but still so real, so 'bright' as during awake mind state, also bardo state ... don't have proper wording to describe it well enough.
... most important observation/experience was that i kept exactly mine mind state, mindset, memory, and thinking patterns, feelings and reactions as well.
... i was myself, different body didn't matter so much.
... i do not fear reincarnating in different body anymore.
... i do not know if i deserve reincarnating on 'sane terms', perhaps reincarnating will be still pain & shock - whether in human world, animal world, hell world, etc.
... but some day i'll earn reincarnation on sane terms in human world - and then it won't matter it's different body. i'll be with her, with buddhist woman i love, will keep mind, merit & experiences ... we'll be together someday.
... i don't care so much about death anymore, even that i am not fully fearless.
... i suspect that there are beings who keep memories and mind state from previous lives - even at young age.
... buddha from our sangha said at youth: 'i am karmapa'. it takes time before kid develops speech organs, and such feats shock society - so i think such great beings play carefully childhood, and use youth as mind practice & observation.
... i call experience i went through: 'consciousness teleportation to hell on sane terms' ... it looked as instant film-frame change, without portals, morphing animations, etc ... a while in hell, then teleportation back.
... this sleep i still remember, still fairly clearly.
... it happened twice during one holiday night, two visits in hell, two returns.
... believe or not, perhaps its only my insanity.
Sunday 4 August 2019
Wednesday 31 July 2019
Calm Mind instead of Commotion.
... i am on mind-calming way since years, i try to calm mind all the time.
... i feel that as others meditate to 'invoke power', a lot of commotion, disturbing thoughts, disturbing feelings and a lot of actions are created.
... i have a proposal: instead of 'Invoking Power' so often, let's practice Calm Mind.
... i've read that Calmness is Bodhisattva Way, and that Causing Commotion is not Bodhisattva Way.
... i feel that as others meditate to 'invoke power', a lot of commotion, disturbing thoughts, disturbing feelings and a lot of actions are created.
... i have a proposal: instead of 'Invoking Power' so often, let's practice Calm Mind.
... i've read that Calmness is Bodhisattva Way, and that Causing Commotion is not Bodhisattva Way.
Sunday 28 July 2019
Who is Traitor, Who is Not? Who and/or what are worst Enemies?
... i think & feel that inner enemies, traitors are more dangerous than any external foe.
... i think & feel that dishonesty, especially self-dishonesty leads to treason.
... there are people who 'produce traitors', saying 'he/she will betray us anyway', then attack him/her, control, steal - until he/she breaks and leaves school/sangha/lineage anyway.
... what's next?
... 'he/she has that karma of traitor', and abusers still keep attacking, new 'arguments' appear and appear ...
... and so on until they 'prove' that they were wise enough to 'protect buddha' by abusing someone, by making him/her leave.
... who is vulnerable to be made 'traitor'?
... i think that truly compassionate people are the most vulnerable - for abusers do not want them to 'rise above', to 'win' against 'truly wise'.
... truly compassionate people are often so weak, look ugly/fat etc - as consequence of being abused by society.
... there are exceptions of course, i think & feel.
... i think that producing treason is worst form of betrayal.
... i think & feel that dishonesty, especially self-dishonesty leads to treason.
... there are people who 'produce traitors', saying 'he/she will betray us anyway', then attack him/her, control, steal - until he/she breaks and leaves school/sangha/lineage anyway.
... what's next?
... 'he/she has that karma of traitor', and abusers still keep attacking, new 'arguments' appear and appear ...
... and so on until they 'prove' that they were wise enough to 'protect buddha' by abusing someone, by making him/her leave.
... who is vulnerable to be made 'traitor'?
... i think that truly compassionate people are the most vulnerable - for abusers do not want them to 'rise above', to 'win' against 'truly wise'.
... truly compassionate people are often so weak, look ugly/fat etc - as consequence of being abused by society.
... there are exceptions of course, i think & feel.
... i think that producing treason is worst form of betrayal.
Monday 22 July 2019
... a few thoughts about Phowa quality.
Phowa is meditation & practice.
Phowa is 'Conscious Dying Meditation', leading to 'better reincarnation'.
Phowa can be performed for oneself, or for someone else.
... is it truly better reincarnation?
... from whose point of view it is better?
... is it better 'containment', 'enslavement'?
... is it a way to prevent one from 'shining', is it a way to 'close someone in a jail'?
... which Phowa group is best to choose from?
... can Ngöndro be a rescue from abusive phowa group(s)?
Phowa is 'Conscious Dying Meditation', leading to 'better reincarnation'.
Phowa can be performed for oneself, or for someone else.
... is it truly better reincarnation?
... from whose point of view it is better?
... is it better 'containment', 'enslavement'?
... is it a way to prevent one from 'shining', is it a way to 'close someone in a jail'?
... which Phowa group is best to choose from?
... can Ngöndro be a rescue from abusive phowa group(s)?
Friday 12 July 2019
Funny Musings about Thrid Eye. ;)
... i had such a mind state when i was train's passenger.
'thrid eye' then speaker in train said 'Okopowa', it was notice of a train stop incoming.
'trzecie oko ... okopowa'. ;)
/ en: 'eye' = pl: 'oko' /.
/ en: 'thrid' = pl: 'trzy', 'trzecie', ... /
... it's related with 'power' and 'phowa'. ;)
... what is thrid eye?
... i have some clues.
- pineal gland,
- thrid eye chakra,
- oneself, mirror, and eye of an observer,
- cyclops,
- skrying, skrying mirror, TAROT, fortunetelling, telling future, mysticism, ...
... is sangha 'mirror' of a guest/friend/fellow meditator?
;)
... i think am not wisest that way, i know my place at least ... or it seems so, at least.
'thrid eye' then speaker in train said 'Okopowa', it was notice of a train stop incoming.
'trzecie oko ... okopowa'. ;)
/ en: 'eye' = pl: 'oko' /.
/ en: 'thrid' = pl: 'trzy', 'trzecie', ... /
... it's related with 'power' and 'phowa'. ;)
... what is thrid eye?
... i have some clues.
- pineal gland,
- thrid eye chakra,
- oneself, mirror, and eye of an observer,
- cyclops,
- skrying, skrying mirror, TAROT, fortunetelling, telling future, mysticism, ...
... is sangha 'mirror' of a guest/friend/fellow meditator?
;)
... i think am not wisest that way, i know my place at least ... or it seems so, at least.
Thursday 11 July 2019
Yoga Tantra, form of Mantra?
... i have a plan, it's just an offer:
... perhaps esoterics, silly computer game, and buddhist yoga tantra can be combined.
... 'leyline of the void', energy line - not only magickal - of the void, which can be source of power,
i think.
... can it be reduced to two mantras?
1. 'Calm Abiding',
2. 'Void'.
...
> in short:
... experiencing suffering in Calm Abiding, karma analysis,
... void 'meditation', eliminating causes of suffering.
... some more of the details - also in comments to this article:
> [ http://fav.me/dd9iy7f ].
... perhaps esoterics, silly computer game, and buddhist yoga tantra can be combined.
... 'leyline of the void', energy line - not only magickal - of the void, which can be source of power,
i think.
... can it be reduced to two mantras?
1. 'Calm Abiding',
2. 'Void'.
...
> in short:
... experiencing suffering in Calm Abiding, karma analysis,
... void 'meditation', eliminating causes of suffering.
... some more of the details - also in comments to this article:
> [ http://fav.me/dd9iy7f ].
Monday 8 July 2019
Whom do i Love? Do i have a chance in this life?
i love a buddhist woman - i don't know her name, but other buddhists know her - if they want, they can arrange meeting.
... so i serve buddhism to earn privilege.
... i serve many ways - also, but not only - with criticism.
... i think it's a great privilege to even meet her, not only in my case - i think this applies to others as well, not only buddhists.
... also on DeviantART.
... see also, if You wish: 'Sudden Tiger Attack'. ;)
... so i serve buddhism to earn privilege.
... i serve many ways - also, but not only - with criticism.
... i think it's a great privilege to even meet her, not only in my case - i think this applies to others as well, not only buddhists.
... also on DeviantART.
... see also, if You wish: 'Sudden Tiger Attack'. ;)
Friday 5 July 2019
Mahakala, Liberation, Enlightenment Questions.
... i heard polish song, in which woman warned man that she's his secret godess, that she's his enemy.
... in a way marriage is war, learning from each other, development, defeating weaknesses of both, and others, as well ... i think.
... nice warning, not only for me ... love, ero and sex addict even more, build ego .. mahakala often is too godly and wrathful, egoistic ... should be bodhisattva, protector, not only of a woman.
Radiant Godess, Palden Lhamo similarly. ;)
... a while ago i read that Lama Ole Nydahl fully realized Mahakala Qualities. Is it a trial ,test? is fully wrathful deity as well?
... i heard that Lama Ole Nydahl speaks of himself that he's Liberated, not Enlightened, does this mean that fully he defeated his ego? how ...
''' 'after liberation enlightenment seduces', but for many liberation is enough ... from what or whom? for how long? (hinayana/theravada).
... does after enlightenment fight for liberation continues?
... in a way marriage is war, learning from each other, development, defeating weaknesses of both, and others, as well ... i think.
... nice warning, not only for me ... love, ero and sex addict even more, build ego .. mahakala often is too godly and wrathful, egoistic ... should be bodhisattva, protector, not only of a woman.
Radiant Godess, Palden Lhamo similarly. ;)
... a while ago i read that Lama Ole Nydahl fully realized Mahakala Qualities. Is it a trial ,test? is fully wrathful deity as well?
... i heard that Lama Ole Nydahl speaks of himself that he's Liberated, not Enlightened, does this mean that fully he defeated his ego? how ...
''' 'after liberation enlightenment seduces', but for many liberation is enough ... from what or whom? for how long? (hinayana/theravada).
... does after enlightenment fight for liberation continues?
Friday 21 June 2019
How some 'buddhists' abuse identification ... ?
... had insights, thoughts arose in mind.
... is it reality or delusion?
... one should check, i think.
... i think there are people who call themselves 'ole', 'ole-go', ... , 'lama ole', etc.
... not always people say: 'lama ole nydahl says that insane people have no place in buddhist centers'.
... too often people say: 'ole tells that insanity has no place in buddhist centers', i think.
... is 'ole' same as 'lama ole nydahl' ?
... i think not.
... when people 'identify' with lama ole nydahl, they start pretending that they are 'ole', 'lama ole' etc.
... is it worth asking: 'which ole?'.
... what 'lama' word means?
... i heard it's 'highest wisdom'.
... who is truly lama?
... one who completes succesfully three-years retreat, the lama course.
... am i buddha?
... while i have buddha nature - potential to become buddha - as every being has ... i am not enlightened yet, i am not buddha yet ... even in my own eyes ... as i am not ready to help every being in this world ... yet.
... is it reality or delusion?
... one should check, i think.
... i think there are people who call themselves 'ole', 'ole-go', ... , 'lama ole', etc.
... not always people say: 'lama ole nydahl says that insane people have no place in buddhist centers'.
... too often people say: 'ole tells that insanity has no place in buddhist centers', i think.
... is 'ole' same as 'lama ole nydahl' ?
... i think not.
... when people 'identify' with lama ole nydahl, they start pretending that they are 'ole', 'lama ole' etc.
... is it worth asking: 'which ole?'.
... what 'lama' word means?
... i heard it's 'highest wisdom'.
... who is truly lama?
... one who completes succesfully three-years retreat, the lama course.
... am i buddha?
... while i have buddha nature - potential to become buddha - as every being has ... i am not enlightened yet, i am not buddha yet ... even in my own eyes ... as i am not ready to help every being in this world ... yet.
Wednesday 29 May 2019
What is a True Budhism?
Who is a buddhist?
... formally a buddhist is someone who takes refuge, without lying.
... to not lie, one has to complete 'Small Refuge' Practice before taking Refuge properly.
... i also heard that 'buddhist is someone who behaves at least a little reasonably'.
... i think it's reasonable to develop wisdom and compassion.
... without compassion, wisdom is too limited, not true, i think.
Buddhism offers timeless, abstract lessons - and takes different forms in different people at different times.
... in modern times Buddhism is not Religion, but it still has Religious Lessons, and more, i think.
What are timeless lessons?
... lessons that 'pass the test of time', that are true at any time.
What are abstract lessons?
... abstraction is generalizing - but still on topic - while omitting details.
... why omit details?
... because details are not so important - too untrue for many, at different times.
... one has to find one's own truths, at different times and situations.
... this includes finding modern truths.
... what is 'on topic'?
... enlightenment is on topic ... in my case on topic is 'enlightened love as a way for enlightenment'.
Is my way - karmic way for enlightenment - only true way?
... certainly not, it seems to have hope for working in my case, but not everyone has karma similar enough to my karma.
... can others benefit from my lessons?
... i don't disallow - but i advise critical, reasonable approach without too much of stupid faith.
... faith is part of spirituality and religions, i think, but ... is too much of stupid faith a way to success in love?
I certainly do not know the whole Truth, and this makes me misunderstand some of the Lessons.
For more, click if You wish: 'Partial Information, Points of View & Too Quick Jumps to Conclusion'.
Still by following the Lessons according my current understanding makes me experience Lessons & understand them better - I am making progress even when i need to step back, to backtrack sometimes. I learn by trial & error, by experience.
Religious Lessons.
... religion is still a part of modern world, i think.
... Buddhism still has religious lessons, i think it's too stupid to ignore needs of religions and religious people to not allow buddhist religious lessons - even if it's not perfect.
... i need both buddhist, religious, artful, esoteric, and scientific buddhist lessons.
How timeless and abstract are my lessons?
... i think most valuable, timeless, abstract lessons are to develop wisdom and compassion - in this aspect, i think, my lessons are not too unorthodox, the most.
Will i succeed on my way?
... i don't know, but perhaps i still have a chance.
... i do not have better way, better ideas, better lessons still - so i follow the most promising path.
What are risks?
... i do not promise success for those who follow my way.
... i do not know if i will succeed as well.
... formally a buddhist is someone who takes refuge, without lying.
... to not lie, one has to complete 'Small Refuge' Practice before taking Refuge properly.
... i also heard that 'buddhist is someone who behaves at least a little reasonably'.
... i think it's reasonable to develop wisdom and compassion.
... without compassion, wisdom is too limited, not true, i think.
Buddhism offers timeless, abstract lessons - and takes different forms in different people at different times.
... in modern times Buddhism is not Religion, but it still has Religious Lessons, and more, i think.
What are timeless lessons?
... lessons that 'pass the test of time', that are true at any time.
What are abstract lessons?
... abstraction is generalizing - but still on topic - while omitting details.
... why omit details?
... because details are not so important - too untrue for many, at different times.
... one has to find one's own truths, at different times and situations.
... this includes finding modern truths.
... what is 'on topic'?
... enlightenment is on topic ... in my case on topic is 'enlightened love as a way for enlightenment'.
Is my way - karmic way for enlightenment - only true way?
... certainly not, it seems to have hope for working in my case, but not everyone has karma similar enough to my karma.
... can others benefit from my lessons?
... i don't disallow - but i advise critical, reasonable approach without too much of stupid faith.
... faith is part of spirituality and religions, i think, but ... is too much of stupid faith a way to success in love?
I certainly do not know the whole Truth, and this makes me misunderstand some of the Lessons.
For more, click if You wish: 'Partial Information, Points of View & Too Quick Jumps to Conclusion'.
Still by following the Lessons according my current understanding makes me experience Lessons & understand them better - I am making progress even when i need to step back, to backtrack sometimes. I learn by trial & error, by experience.
Religious Lessons.
... religion is still a part of modern world, i think.
... Buddhism still has religious lessons, i think it's too stupid to ignore needs of religions and religious people to not allow buddhist religious lessons - even if it's not perfect.
... i need both buddhist, religious, artful, esoteric, and scientific buddhist lessons.
How timeless and abstract are my lessons?
... i think most valuable, timeless, abstract lessons are to develop wisdom and compassion - in this aspect, i think, my lessons are not too unorthodox, the most.
Will i succeed on my way?
... i don't know, but perhaps i still have a chance.
... i do not have better way, better ideas, better lessons still - so i follow the most promising path.
What are risks?
... i do not promise success for those who follow my way.
... i do not know if i will succeed as well.
Sunday 26 May 2019
How Dedicated can be High Magicians?
... there are people who practice High Magick very seriously.
... i suspect they practice whole lives, often many hours a day.
... it can be compared to Ph.D. in Occultism and more, i think.
... i suspect 6 or more hours a day of serious book-worming, for more than 60 years - as most of Scientists work.
... Occultism is also Science, The Scientific approach to Spirituality.
... there are as well daily Ritual-Performance practices, Meditations, Prayers, and far more.
... i am almost completely sure that Buddhism denies that kind of effort very strongly, but still - perhaps we can do a little of this as well.
... i do not need to be so strongly study/ritual bound, but i think some of serious study and memorization of Occult Symbolism and Correspondences is my way.
... i think it's not too high / spirituality oriented / nor too low magick / practical, pragmatic /, as well.
... not only for Buddhism, but for Enlightenment still the most, anyway.
... why should we explore this way?
... if there are so many so dedicated people, i think it's unwise to ignore.
... i don't insist on volunteering on this way, or any other way, anyway.
... why?
... because i have only one wish - enlightened love - magickal or not - with a buddhist woman, and i know which - as a way for Enlightenment.
... for that wish i can serve Buddha, in any way.
... see also, if You can and/or wish: Rosicrucian Magick, Buddhism & Other Spirituality - a Request for High Magick Ritual Performance.
... i suspect they practice whole lives, often many hours a day.
... it can be compared to Ph.D. in Occultism and more, i think.
... i suspect 6 or more hours a day of serious book-worming, for more than 60 years - as most of Scientists work.
... Occultism is also Science, The Scientific approach to Spirituality.
... there are as well daily Ritual-Performance practices, Meditations, Prayers, and far more.
... i am almost completely sure that Buddhism denies that kind of effort very strongly, but still - perhaps we can do a little of this as well.
... i do not need to be so strongly study/ritual bound, but i think some of serious study and memorization of Occult Symbolism and Correspondences is my way.
... i think it's not too high / spirituality oriented / nor too low magick / practical, pragmatic /, as well.
... not only for Buddhism, but for Enlightenment still the most, anyway.
... why should we explore this way?
... if there are so many so dedicated people, i think it's unwise to ignore.
... i don't insist on volunteering on this way, or any other way, anyway.
... why?
... because i have only one wish - enlightened love - magickal or not - with a buddhist woman, and i know which - as a way for Enlightenment.
... for that wish i can serve Buddha, in any way.
... see also, if You can and/or wish: Rosicrucian Magick, Buddhism & Other Spirituality - a Request for High Magick Ritual Performance.
Rosicrucian Magick, Buddhism & Other Spirituality - a Request for High Magick Ritual Performance.
... i request allowance to perform LBRP High Magick Ritual, of the Rosicrucian Golden Dawn, at least once - i request allowance not only from Buddhism.
LBRP (Lesser Banishing Ritual of Pentagram) banishes energies, but i do not want to banish too much of buddhist energies, as well as other energies from people who will benefit from this.
.. i request to banish harmful buddhist energies as well, not only in this process.
LBRP (Lesser Banishing Ritual of Pentagram) banishes energies, but i do not want to banish too much of buddhist energies, as well as other energies from people who will benefit from this.
.. i request to banish harmful buddhist energies as well, not only in this process.
Spiritual Revolution?
Evolution is better than Revolution, i think.
... turning 180o degrees, going in reverse direction is pointless, i think ... after two of such turns we return to beginning, so it's better to evolve than reverse, i think.
'Greatest Religions were once Heresies' - i think i saw such meme in the Internet a while ago, but now have difficulties finding such.
New generations should correct mistakes of older, and this includes being politically incorrect, finding modern truths, and even incinting spiritual relovutions - if neccessary.
We do not want to be slaves of our grandma's and grandpa's stiff ideas.
We have right for fighting for our freedoms, as well.
We should not enslave younger generations as well.
... i've bought a book about polish revolution anatomy - fight of mr. Wałęsa against Communism, in which Catholic Church played major role at least - including allowing a polish priest to become the Pope - Jan Paweł II.
Buddhism offers timeless, abstract lessons - and takes different forms in different people at different times.
... in modern times Buddhism is not Religion, but it still has Religious Lessons, and more, i think.
... turning 180o degrees, going in reverse direction is pointless, i think ... after two of such turns we return to beginning, so it's better to evolve than reverse, i think.
'Greatest Religions were once Heresies' - i think i saw such meme in the Internet a while ago, but now have difficulties finding such.
New generations should correct mistakes of older, and this includes being politically incorrect, finding modern truths, and even incinting spiritual relovutions - if neccessary.
We do not want to be slaves of our grandma's and grandpa's stiff ideas.
We have right for fighting for our freedoms, as well.
We should not enslave younger generations as well.
... i've bought a book about polish revolution anatomy - fight of mr. Wałęsa against Communism, in which Catholic Church played major role at least - including allowing a polish priest to become the Pope - Jan Paweł II.
Buddhism offers timeless, abstract lessons - and takes different forms in different people at different times.
... in modern times Buddhism is not Religion, but it still has Religious Lessons, and more, i think.
Friday 24 May 2019
Stillness, Bodhisattva's Way.
Bodhisattva.
'Bodhisattva (Skt., Tib. changchub sem pa): Somebody who strives for enlightenment for the benefit of all beings without ever losing courage.'
Source: Bodhisattva & Promise.
Stillness.
'Bodhisattva (Skt., Tib. changchub sem pa): Somebody who strives for enlightenment for the benefit of all beings without ever losing courage.'
Source: Bodhisattva & Promise.
Stillness.
Tuesday 21 May 2019
Escape from Reality?
Many people need a little escape from reality, after their hard-working days and/or nights.
... in my case, i need more return to reality.
A form of escapism is playing computer games.
... under church i've been suffering a lot - so i hid myself in my parent's apartment, and started to play computer games - seeking love lessons on mind level.
... i was too fat, smelly, stupid and ugly for this to happen in real life, and i needed badly even a semblance of woman's love.
... it was five worst years in my life.
... i've gone insane, desperate, suffered pain and depression.
... then someone - a young woman from france - helped me, and after in-game romance between our characters ended - i tried to suicide.
... then thought awakened in my mind, to try Buddhism as a last resort.
... i live still, and play computer games too much.
... in a buddhist center had insight that i should play computer games for buddhism, so i did.
... it's insult and disgrace for a computer programmer to play computer games, we prefer to do more meaningful, better things - creating software.
... we, computer programmers, have egoistic thought: 'i do not play computer games, i produce them'.
... too often thoughts arise in my mind, saying that i am insane, that i am worse because i just play instead of producing software.
... i feel raped by these thoughts - even if people do not tell me this in real life directly, they behave that way.
... playing computer games is great pain to me.
... i need real love, in real life - i do not want cyber-love nor cyber-sex - without human touch it's incomplete experience, loneliness in the internet.
... in my case, i need more return to reality.
A form of escapism is playing computer games.
... under church i've been suffering a lot - so i hid myself in my parent's apartment, and started to play computer games - seeking love lessons on mind level.
... i was too fat, smelly, stupid and ugly for this to happen in real life, and i needed badly even a semblance of woman's love.
... it was five worst years in my life.
... i've gone insane, desperate, suffered pain and depression.
... then someone - a young woman from france - helped me, and after in-game romance between our characters ended - i tried to suicide.
... then thought awakened in my mind, to try Buddhism as a last resort.
... i live still, and play computer games too much.
... in a buddhist center had insight that i should play computer games for buddhism, so i did.
... it's insult and disgrace for a computer programmer to play computer games, we prefer to do more meaningful, better things - creating software.
... we, computer programmers, have egoistic thought: 'i do not play computer games, i produce them'.
... too often thoughts arise in my mind, saying that i am insane, that i am worse because i just play instead of producing software.
... i feel raped by these thoughts - even if people do not tell me this in real life directly, they behave that way.
... playing computer games is great pain to me.
... i need real love, in real life - i do not want cyber-love nor cyber-sex - without human touch it's incomplete experience, loneliness in the internet.
Monday 20 May 2019
Refuge, Ngöndro, Mahamudra, ...
One becomes formally a buddhist when one takes Refuge.
To take Refuge, one has to prepare first - go through 'Small Refuge' practice, then attend to a course where Refuge is given.
After Refuge, there's Ngöndro - four preliminary practices.
After Ngöndro there's Mahamudra, i do not know details.
Do i have Mahamudra? Certainly Not - because i don't have Ngöndro.
Do i have Ngöndro? Certainly Not - i didn't do these practices yet, even that i tried to start.
Do i have Refuge? i hope so, i suspect i have.
Why doubts?
... i am not sure that i did Small Refuge practices in enough number, with enough of calm mind and reason.
... i didn't count precisely either, just used mathematical approximation.
... my memory fails me, and i think i did too many of Small Refuge Mantra Repetitions ... i forgot if these mantra repetitions are everything, or if there's something else, as well.
... i am rather sure, that i did too many of 'Small Refuge' mantra repetitions, and did other practices as well.
... then i took Refuge at 'Triangle Project' Buddhist Course.
... i think i have Refuge, but i am not sure.
... if i failed at taking Refuge, i wish to correct my mistakes, anyway - that's one of reasons, of why i am telling this openly.
... i learned to not tell openly my Refuge Name, as well.
... there are other secret names as well, as one progressess on Buddhist Way - but i don't know if i am worthy of these, and if having these will benefit me and others, as well.
To take Refuge, one has to prepare first - go through 'Small Refuge' practice, then attend to a course where Refuge is given.
After Refuge, there's Ngöndro - four preliminary practices.
After Ngöndro there's Mahamudra, i do not know details.
Do i have Mahamudra? Certainly Not - because i don't have Ngöndro.
Do i have Ngöndro? Certainly Not - i didn't do these practices yet, even that i tried to start.
Do i have Refuge? i hope so, i suspect i have.
Why doubts?
... i am not sure that i did Small Refuge practices in enough number, with enough of calm mind and reason.
... i didn't count precisely either, just used mathematical approximation.
... my memory fails me, and i think i did too many of Small Refuge Mantra Repetitions ... i forgot if these mantra repetitions are everything, or if there's something else, as well.
... i am rather sure, that i did too many of 'Small Refuge' mantra repetitions, and did other practices as well.
... then i took Refuge at 'Triangle Project' Buddhist Course.
... i think i have Refuge, but i am not sure.
... if i failed at taking Refuge, i wish to correct my mistakes, anyway - that's one of reasons, of why i am telling this openly.
... i learned to not tell openly my Refuge Name, as well.
... there are other secret names as well, as one progressess on Buddhist Way - but i don't know if i am worthy of these, and if having these will benefit me and others, as well.
Saturday 18 May 2019
Cause of Womens' Intuition. ;)
What is the cause of womens' intuition?
... thousands of years of non-thinking.
;)
... is it a form of disrespect for women?
... it should not be.
Overthinking is not wise, and many men - including me - think too much.
Calming mind is wise and healthy, and it relies on relaxation as well.
Part of buddhist meditations include non-thinking, relaxation and observation of thoughts and feelings, mind state.
Meditation can lead to true wisdom, as well.
Trusting intuition and heart is wise, and can include healthy dose of doubt, self-criticism, and self honesty as well.
... but even without criticism, trusting intuition, one's heart needs is sometimes wise.
Humans have feelings, are not robots and automatons afterall.
... thousands of years of non-thinking.
;)
... is it a form of disrespect for women?
... it should not be.
Overthinking is not wise, and many men - including me - think too much.
Calming mind is wise and healthy, and it relies on relaxation as well.
Part of buddhist meditations include non-thinking, relaxation and observation of thoughts and feelings, mind state.
Meditation can lead to true wisdom, as well.
Trusting intuition and heart is wise, and can include healthy dose of doubt, self-criticism, and self honesty as well.
... but even without criticism, trusting intuition, one's heart needs is sometimes wise.
Humans have feelings, are not robots and automatons afterall.
Friday 17 May 2019
Roleplaying, Improvised Theatre, Vajrayana Meditation, Visualization & Work with Feelings.
... roleplaying games can be understood as 'playing roles' - getting into a character, imagining situations while considering character played, trying to feel as character played, describing reactions to situations, environment, interactions etc ...
... many say that roleplaying - especially Quality LARPs / LARP is short for 'Live Action Role Playing', events with more or less people, with proper clothing, outfit, requisites, played often in rural/forest/hill/castle/lake/stream environment, not only with words - but also by walking, travelling, gesticulating, and far more / - are a form of improvised theatre ... and when real actors hear this, take seriously, and give them more challenging lessons - they start to regret 'thought/feeling beating' they receive.
... imagination can be either passive or active, one can try to understand thoughts of character one plays, or actively visualize - try to 'see' images in his or hers mind's eye.
... getting in character can be trying to feel as character one knows and understands, considering current environment and conditions.
... i think feelings are great source of power, often too great - and result in worsening of one's karma when used unwisely, unskilfully.
... i think imagination - especially visualization - can give focus and direction to power awakened by one's feelings.
... while combining active visualization with feeling-work can be powerful, it can be very dangerous because of the power of these methods. one can even lose contact with reality, be disoriented, defocused and/or go insane, i think.
... Vajrayana Meditation can use these methods, but one should be careful, prepared and cautious when advancing that way. Once one is prepared and ready, there's still caution advised, because often too much of power - and/or too much of 'focus in a certain direction', and/or too much of 'focus on a certain aspect of one's way' - can be unwise, unworthwhile, and dangerous. Not always too much power and/or focus is better - usually 'minimum force approach' and 'withholding from overstretching in a certain direction' is best, i think.
... driving a car or piloting an airplane requires far more caution, wisdom and skill than just accelerating in a single direction to maximum, i think.
... the Way to Enlightenment is not so straight and danger-less as one would like - so one has to drive in 'Mahayana Vessel', or in 'Vajrayana Vessel' by himself or herself - if one wants to reach Liberation and Enlightenment.
... every being has different way as well, i do not trust those who try to 'show the straight way to enlightenment', i think Master can 'show the way', 'point finger at moon', but it's student who has to travel the way by himself or herself ... looking at finger pointing at moon is not the same as 'going to moon', 'experiencing the moon'.
... which master(s) one can trust? everyone should check and decide by himself or herself, i think.
... i think it's wise to trust wiser, on condition that they do not abuse too much.
See also, if You wish:
- Tools for Inner Development - Imagination and Visualization,
- Kalachakra, Deity Yoga, Imagination & Visualization,
- Creative Visualization, Reality Changing Tool,
- Roleplaying Theory.
... many say that roleplaying - especially Quality LARPs / LARP is short for 'Live Action Role Playing', events with more or less people, with proper clothing, outfit, requisites, played often in rural/forest/hill/castle/lake/stream environment, not only with words - but also by walking, travelling, gesticulating, and far more / - are a form of improvised theatre ... and when real actors hear this, take seriously, and give them more challenging lessons - they start to regret 'thought/feeling beating' they receive.
... imagination can be either passive or active, one can try to understand thoughts of character one plays, or actively visualize - try to 'see' images in his or hers mind's eye.
... getting in character can be trying to feel as character one knows and understands, considering current environment and conditions.
... i think feelings are great source of power, often too great - and result in worsening of one's karma when used unwisely, unskilfully.
... i think imagination - especially visualization - can give focus and direction to power awakened by one's feelings.
... while combining active visualization with feeling-work can be powerful, it can be very dangerous because of the power of these methods. one can even lose contact with reality, be disoriented, defocused and/or go insane, i think.
... Vajrayana Meditation can use these methods, but one should be careful, prepared and cautious when advancing that way. Once one is prepared and ready, there's still caution advised, because often too much of power - and/or too much of 'focus in a certain direction', and/or too much of 'focus on a certain aspect of one's way' - can be unwise, unworthwhile, and dangerous. Not always too much power and/or focus is better - usually 'minimum force approach' and 'withholding from overstretching in a certain direction' is best, i think.
... driving a car or piloting an airplane requires far more caution, wisdom and skill than just accelerating in a single direction to maximum, i think.
... the Way to Enlightenment is not so straight and danger-less as one would like - so one has to drive in 'Mahayana Vessel', or in 'Vajrayana Vessel' by himself or herself - if one wants to reach Liberation and Enlightenment.
... every being has different way as well, i do not trust those who try to 'show the straight way to enlightenment', i think Master can 'show the way', 'point finger at moon', but it's student who has to travel the way by himself or herself ... looking at finger pointing at moon is not the same as 'going to moon', 'experiencing the moon'.
... which master(s) one can trust? everyone should check and decide by himself or herself, i think.
... i think it's wise to trust wiser, on condition that they do not abuse too much.
See also, if You wish:
- Tools for Inner Development - Imagination and Visualization,
- Kalachakra, Deity Yoga, Imagination & Visualization,
- Creative Visualization, Reality Changing Tool,
- Roleplaying Theory.
Thursday 9 May 2019
Dorje & Bell.
... i've ordered Dorje & Bell at amazon.com.
... i'll try to use it to awaken Wisdom, Power, Compassion & Skillful Means in myself and others - but not in everyone - for now.
... i am aware that these tools are Powerful, and misusing these results in bad karma.
... i wish to learn how to use Dorje & Bell, with wisdom and patience.
Vajra (Skt.; Tib. རྡོ་རྗེ་, dorje; Wyl. rdo rje) — a ritual sceptre symbolizing compassion and skilful means, and also a symbol of indestructibility. In tantric rituals the vajra is the necessary counterpart of the bell, which symbolizes the wisdom of emptiness.
The bell (Skt. ghaṇṭa; Tib. དྲིལ་བུ་, drilbu; Wyl. dril bu) is, with its necessary counterpart the vajra, an important ritual implement in Vajrayana practices. It symbolizes the feminine principle, the wisdom of emptiness, while the vajra symbolizes the masculine principle, that of compassion and skilful means. And the union of wisdomand skilful means is the enlightened mind.
... i'll try to use it to awaken Wisdom, Power, Compassion & Skillful Means in myself and others - but not in everyone - for now.
... i am aware that these tools are Powerful, and misusing these results in bad karma.
... i wish to learn how to use Dorje & Bell, with wisdom and patience.
Vajra (Skt.; Tib. རྡོ་རྗེ་, dorje; Wyl. rdo rje) — a ritual sceptre symbolizing compassion and skilful means, and also a symbol of indestructibility. In tantric rituals the vajra is the necessary counterpart of the bell, which symbolizes the wisdom of emptiness.
The bell (Skt. ghaṇṭa; Tib. དྲིལ་བུ་, drilbu; Wyl. dril bu) is, with its necessary counterpart the vajra, an important ritual implement in Vajrayana practices. It symbolizes the feminine principle, the wisdom of emptiness, while the vajra symbolizes the masculine principle, that of compassion and skilful means. And the union of wisdomand skilful means is the enlightened mind.
Monday 6 May 2019
Buddhism at Work.
... i do not wish to lose my job too early.
... there are causes for why i am working as a physical security specialist, instead of being employed in IT Sector.
1. ... i wish to learn how to be a 'bodyguard' for a buddhist woman i Love, and for other people - mostly friends,
2. ... i am not ready for office work, it's more demanding - especially for mentally ill person that i am. Sooner or later however, i think i'll be ready for office work - as a software scientist & engineer,
3. Working outside IT sector gives me more freedom in pursuing my art/sci/tech projects.
Keeping my current employment is still challenging - i struggle against detrimential mind states, trying to not be late, trying to be proffesional at work.
... i've developed mantra:
'... as is wise, professional & enlightening - but not at all cost.'
... by emphasizing wisdom, i am including non-buddhist wisdoms, both worldly, as well as spiritual wisdoms.
... i've brought dorje phurba to my workplace as well, i hope it will help me remove all obstacles that prevent my work from being enlightening, professional & wise.
... i've offered my dorje phurba as well as my service related with my dorje phurba to Lama Ole Nydahl ... at first in mind, now in written-speech form as well.
... i think dorje phurba is great tool for those who identify with Mahakala, buddhist protector, ...
Word dorje means both 'skillful means' as well as 'indestructibility of diamond', but probably there are also other meanings as well.
Word phurba means 'obstacles severing knife', but perhaps there's more.
Thus dorje phurba means 'indestructible, obstacles severing knife, especially in skilled hands'. i think skills can be learned, including skills for wielding dorje phurba.
... for a more, click, if You wish: 'Vajrakilaya on Rigpa Wiki'.
... there are causes for why i am working as a physical security specialist, instead of being employed in IT Sector.
1. ... i wish to learn how to be a 'bodyguard' for a buddhist woman i Love, and for other people - mostly friends,
2. ... i am not ready for office work, it's more demanding - especially for mentally ill person that i am. Sooner or later however, i think i'll be ready for office work - as a software scientist & engineer,
3. Working outside IT sector gives me more freedom in pursuing my art/sci/tech projects.
Keeping my current employment is still challenging - i struggle against detrimential mind states, trying to not be late, trying to be proffesional at work.
... i've developed mantra:
'... as is wise, professional & enlightening - but not at all cost.'
... by emphasizing wisdom, i am including non-buddhist wisdoms, both worldly, as well as spiritual wisdoms.
... i've brought dorje phurba to my workplace as well, i hope it will help me remove all obstacles that prevent my work from being enlightening, professional & wise.
... i've offered my dorje phurba as well as my service related with my dorje phurba to Lama Ole Nydahl ... at first in mind, now in written-speech form as well.
... i think dorje phurba is great tool for those who identify with Mahakala, buddhist protector, ...
Word dorje means both 'skillful means' as well as 'indestructibility of diamond', but probably there are also other meanings as well.
Word phurba means 'obstacles severing knife', but perhaps there's more.
Thus dorje phurba means 'indestructible, obstacles severing knife, especially in skilled hands'. i think skills can be learned, including skills for wielding dorje phurba.
... for a more, click, if You wish: 'Vajrakilaya on Rigpa Wiki'.
Sunday 28 April 2019
Questions, Understanding, Partnership.
... was Lama Ole Nydahl: Hannah in a Male Form?
Was Hannah Nydahl: Ole in Female Form?
... is it a form of Union, learning from each other?
How about this Lama Ole Nydahl's current wife?
... no disrespect meant at all, as much as we can.
... is identification too powerful method ?
... is wisdom more important than power ?
... can wisdom alone survive against stupidity armed in 'weaponry', either inner or external?
Was Hannah Nydahl: Ole in Female Form?
... is it a form of Union, learning from each other?
How about this Lama Ole Nydahl's current wife?
... no disrespect meant at all, as much as we can.
... is identification too powerful method ?
... is wisdom more important than power ?
... can wisdom alone survive against stupidity armed in 'weaponry', either inner or external?
Friday 26 April 2019
Misunderstandings are Rather Sad ... but, let's Live Without Tears.
Buddhism and Church, as well as other Religions and Views, etc ... do not understand each other.
... We do not understand our 'mental shortcuts for those who are initiated into deeper mysteries', but i think the talks can be reduced to simple prose of a common language.
... We do not understand our 'mental shortcuts for those who are initiated into deeper mysteries', but i think the talks can be reduced to simple prose of a common language.
Saturday 20 April 2019
Artificial Intelligence & Buddhism.
... Bhikkhu Samahita is well-educated in the Sciences, Buddhist Monk at Sangha.
... i was interrested in Google Deep Mind AI, and in Adobe Sensei AI - but i trust Bhikkhu Samahita far more.
... initial success, i think - in Buddhism & Sciences.
... i hope that Sciences can Serve Arts - not only Buddhist.
... i feel that Warsaw Buddhist Center is too far from Europe Center, in germany. i hope my work can benefit both Europe Center & Warsaw Center.
Europe Center -wise, i bet on Meike Herzog, the Light Artist, if i can.
Warsaw Center -wise, i bet on Rafał Olech, Buddhist Teacher & Artist, if i can.
... of course, others are important as well, not only in these centers, i think.
... Meike Herzog wrote book: 'Copenhagen Buddhas', i think,
... and Bhikkhu Samahita studied in Copenhagen, i think.
... see also, if You wish: AI Controlled NEMS Nanite Swarm on Project Wraithstar, 'Smart AI' on Project Wraithstar.
... i was interrested in Google Deep Mind AI, and in Adobe Sensei AI - but i trust Bhikkhu Samahita far more.
... initial success, i think - in Buddhism & Sciences.
... i hope that Sciences can Serve Arts - not only Buddhist.
... i feel that Warsaw Buddhist Center is too far from Europe Center, in germany. i hope my work can benefit both Europe Center & Warsaw Center.
Europe Center -wise, i bet on Meike Herzog, the Light Artist, if i can.
Warsaw Center -wise, i bet on Rafał Olech, Buddhist Teacher & Artist, if i can.
... of course, others are important as well, not only in these centers, i think.
... Meike Herzog wrote book: 'Copenhagen Buddhas', i think,
... and Bhikkhu Samahita studied in Copenhagen, i think.
... see also, if You wish: AI Controlled NEMS Nanite Swarm on Project Wraithstar, 'Smart AI' on Project Wraithstar.
... Cleaning Mind, Cleaning Apartment ...
'When one is mentally ill, should develop distance and criticism to one's own mind.'
--
A talk i share for myself, and for others:
me: '... my worst problem is trash, mess and disorder at home - even worse than money problems ... i told psychologists about this ... makes me remember 'prince in new york' film, main character was also that way. whole of my apartment is trash. :( at least my computer, partitions and folders, ... are well ordered, but i still need to improve.'
buddhist friend: 'Be brave - make a decision to clean and ask a friend to help you'
me: 'i will, when i am ready. probably buddhist center cleaning team, i wish to pay them for that.'
buddhist friend: 'Andrzej Neo-Mahakala Wysocki No, without paying. Ask for help.'
me: 'we'll see. i don't want to abuse either way.'
me: 'i'll ask for help, and ask if i should pay.'
buddhist friend: 'Friends are for this - to help when you need. And then when you have an opportunity - you will pay or give a donation for the center for example. May be you are too proud.'
me: 'yes, i need to be more modest.'
buddhist friend: 'And trust more friends and yourself'
me: 'i don't trust my mind enough, i am mentally ill. but there's semblance of sanity anyway, so it's not so bad.'
buddhist friend: 'Try to trust your Buddha nature - it is free from any diseases, including mental desease'
buddhist friend: 'All the best for you ❤️'
me: 'i wish to try to trust my Buddha Nature.'
--
A talk i share for myself, and for others:
me: '... my worst problem is trash, mess and disorder at home - even worse than money problems ... i told psychologists about this ... makes me remember 'prince in new york' film, main character was also that way. whole of my apartment is trash. :( at least my computer, partitions and folders, ... are well ordered, but i still need to improve.'
buddhist friend: 'Be brave - make a decision to clean and ask a friend to help you'
me: 'i will, when i am ready. probably buddhist center cleaning team, i wish to pay them for that.'
buddhist friend: 'Andrzej Neo-Mahakala Wysocki No, without paying. Ask for help.'
me: 'we'll see. i don't want to abuse either way.'
me: 'i'll ask for help, and ask if i should pay.'
buddhist friend: 'Friends are for this - to help when you need. And then when you have an opportunity - you will pay or give a donation for the center for example. May be you are too proud.'
me: 'yes, i need to be more modest.'
buddhist friend: 'And trust more friends and yourself'
me: 'i don't trust my mind enough, i am mentally ill. but there's semblance of sanity anyway, so it's not so bad.'
buddhist friend: 'Try to trust your Buddha nature - it is free from any diseases, including mental desease'
buddhist friend: 'All the best for you ❤️'
me: 'i wish to try to trust my Buddha Nature.'
Friday 19 April 2019
... What is Karma? ... & Other Buddhist Ideas.
... had insights, thoughts arising in Mind.
Karma can be understood many ways.
One of definitions is that our thoughts, speech and actions from past cause our present and future. There's also how we experience ripening karma, we can try to calm mind, or follow happy energy, for example. Our decision seeds karma to ripen in future.
Karma ripens when conditions allow. Without seeds in store consciousness there's nothing to ripen, as well.
Many parts can be included in Karma definition, for now i keep 3-parts model, for simplicity.
Karma is:
1. What You eat,
2. What You have / both internal and external resources - from wisdom & intelligence, knowledge, skills, happiness ... to good style & looks, to money, 'household', and rare goods. /,
3. With whom You keep with, / friends and enemies, with better and worse resources and eating habits. /
Does a Tea Leaf have mind?
... i think it does have mind ... it's complex organism consisting of many bacteria and other microorganisms, perhaps. Each of smallest living units has mind, i think. Bacteria are alive beings, viruses are not - these are phenomena without Mind.
Similar with humans, animals, etc - these have mind, and are complex entities. Complex entities consits of smaller complex entity(-es) and/or smaller simple entity(-es).
Let's consider 'lifecycle' of living beings.
... animal is alive, then hunted, dead, meat prepared.
... no longer animal, but smaller units - bacteria, etc ... still live.
... humans eat meat, digest - there's still living units, probably even smaller.
... we expell 'crap' / pl: 'kupa' /, there's still life contained.
... 'crap' can be used as fertilizer / pl: 'nawóz'. / for plants, or a part of the fertilizer production process.
... then perhaps some of plants are eaten by animals and/or human beings again.
... i think that both plant-and-meat-eaters, vegetarians & vegans are needed ... and i think that conscious-and-flexible-consumers are needed the most, as well.
... let's try to not hate each other too much, but let's eat wisely - using ecosystem research efforts.
/ my father was animal hunter and studied parts of animal ecosystem. there are laws on which animals can be shot, where and when, fees to pay after shooting, etc.
... too much or too little of certain animal population in given area can result in great ecological disaster, that's why my father had to study animal ecosystem regularly. without studies he would lose hunting license, and face other problems probably, as well.
... i've studied Environmental Engineering, which included Ecology a little, on mother's sugestion - she worked in that 'college'. she died of cancer, among other ills. ... but i've completed biology lesson with 'good' or 'very good' grade - forgot details. now i work at hospital that treats cancer, as physical security specialist in Juwentus Security Company. fitting work for my background, and for someone who tries to identify with Mahakala, Buddhist Guardian and Protector, among other. ... but someday, preferably in less than 3 years, i wish to return to computer sciences - probably in Adobe Co. ... perhap's i'll write software for RNA/DNA visualization and modelling, among other functionalities.
... Warsaw University - Mathematics, Informatics and Mechanics faculty, MIMUW, has Interdisciplinary Center for Modelling, ICM - perhaps still.
... i'd love to be a part of MIMUW Alumni's Science Circle, when i'll return to MIMUW to study Mathematics. i do not need to be the best, being a part of greater whole is a bliss in my eyes. i do not need too political students' organizations, as for example BEST is - i prefer true science, with practical technology than politics.
... don't get me wrong - politcs can be useful and needed, but it's not 'my piece of a cake', as far as sciences are considered.
... i do politics in esoteric circles, but i stay away from other, more mundane and scientific politics - that's 'my piece of cake'.
... advanced science & technology can be magical, esoteric, spiritual - but i prefer to stay low - unless i must. /
There are many languages of animals, of humans, etc ...
... i think human, animal, god, ... beings are states of mind, but not only - there are steps in realization, as well.
Criticism requested & welcome.
... perhaps these ideas can be used with: Statistics for Enlightenment, ... How i understand Mind, Body, Energies & related.
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM MANI PADME HUM
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
KARMAPA CHENNO
Namaste, blessed be.
Karma can be understood many ways.
One of definitions is that our thoughts, speech and actions from past cause our present and future. There's also how we experience ripening karma, we can try to calm mind, or follow happy energy, for example. Our decision seeds karma to ripen in future.
Karma ripens when conditions allow. Without seeds in store consciousness there's nothing to ripen, as well.
Many parts can be included in Karma definition, for now i keep 3-parts model, for simplicity.
Karma is:
1. What You eat,
2. What You have / both internal and external resources - from wisdom & intelligence, knowledge, skills, happiness ... to good style & looks, to money, 'household', and rare goods. /,
3. With whom You keep with, / friends and enemies, with better and worse resources and eating habits. /
Does a Tea Leaf have mind?
... i think it does have mind ... it's complex organism consisting of many bacteria and other microorganisms, perhaps. Each of smallest living units has mind, i think. Bacteria are alive beings, viruses are not - these are phenomena without Mind.
Similar with humans, animals, etc - these have mind, and are complex entities. Complex entities consits of smaller complex entity(-es) and/or smaller simple entity(-es).
Let's consider 'lifecycle' of living beings.
... animal is alive, then hunted, dead, meat prepared.
... no longer animal, but smaller units - bacteria, etc ... still live.
... humans eat meat, digest - there's still living units, probably even smaller.
... we expell 'crap' / pl: 'kupa' /, there's still life contained.
... 'crap' can be used as fertilizer / pl: 'nawóz'. / for plants, or a part of the fertilizer production process.
... then perhaps some of plants are eaten by animals and/or human beings again.
... i think that both plant-and-meat-eaters, vegetarians & vegans are needed ... and i think that conscious-and-flexible-consumers are needed the most, as well.
... let's try to not hate each other too much, but let's eat wisely - using ecosystem research efforts.
/ my father was animal hunter and studied parts of animal ecosystem. there are laws on which animals can be shot, where and when, fees to pay after shooting, etc.
... too much or too little of certain animal population in given area can result in great ecological disaster, that's why my father had to study animal ecosystem regularly. without studies he would lose hunting license, and face other problems probably, as well.
... i've studied Environmental Engineering, which included Ecology a little, on mother's sugestion - she worked in that 'college'. she died of cancer, among other ills. ... but i've completed biology lesson with 'good' or 'very good' grade - forgot details. now i work at hospital that treats cancer, as physical security specialist in Juwentus Security Company. fitting work for my background, and for someone who tries to identify with Mahakala, Buddhist Guardian and Protector, among other. ... but someday, preferably in less than 3 years, i wish to return to computer sciences - probably in Adobe Co. ... perhap's i'll write software for RNA/DNA visualization and modelling, among other functionalities.
... Warsaw University - Mathematics, Informatics and Mechanics faculty, MIMUW, has Interdisciplinary Center for Modelling, ICM - perhaps still.
... i'd love to be a part of MIMUW Alumni's Science Circle, when i'll return to MIMUW to study Mathematics. i do not need to be the best, being a part of greater whole is a bliss in my eyes. i do not need too political students' organizations, as for example BEST is - i prefer true science, with practical technology than politics.
... don't get me wrong - politcs can be useful and needed, but it's not 'my piece of a cake', as far as sciences are considered.
... i do politics in esoteric circles, but i stay away from other, more mundane and scientific politics - that's 'my piece of cake'.
... advanced science & technology can be magical, esoteric, spiritual - but i prefer to stay low - unless i must. /
There are many languages of animals, of humans, etc ...
... i think human, animal, god, ... beings are states of mind, but not only - there are steps in realization, as well.
Criticism requested & welcome.
... perhaps these ideas can be used with: Statistics for Enlightenment, ... How i understand Mind, Body, Energies & related.
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM MANI PADME HUM
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
KARMAPA CHENNO
Namaste, blessed be.
Thursday 18 April 2019
... How i understand Mind, Body, Energies & related.
... i believe that we're mind and have bodies.
... i believe that souls are mind's parts. Soul is god's breath.
Breath joins consciousness with subcounsciousness.
Breath is bridge between mind and body.
Psyche is mind-soul.
Mind is limitless, aware - but most of beings have 'ego barrier' that blocks awareness/perception.
... i have perception problems because of ego & ego barrier - i don't see a buddhist woman i love. i need to reduce ego, then i'll be more ready to meet & see her again. ... a semi serious join joke. :(
Brain is consciousness filter, consciousness carries karma from past into soul and brain. i think that consciousness flows from above into crown & thrid eye chakras mostly, then into brain. Perhaps it's related with god speaking from heavens above.
... i think heavens, hells & paradises are mind states, can be found on earth as well, before death, during death and after death as well.
...
... i think that mind & bodies radiate energies, not only voice.
. ... i think ego is part of soul. i think that soul & ego are not permanent - can change, grow, reduce and be utterly defeated as well - but this requires time & effort.
... probably it's too simlplistic but that's what i have for now. i don't want nor need stupid criticism. Wise criticism is requested & welcome.
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See also, if You wish: ... What is Karma? ... & Other Buddhist Ideas, Statistics for Enlightenment.
Wednesday 17 April 2019
... Karma Coins & Tarot.com.
... i use tarot.com website.
... had 15 karma coins, then someone gave me 5 karma coins.
... then i've bought 100 karma coins.
... i tried to offer 120 karma coins for HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje, but now i have 15 karma coins again.
... perhaps someone needed it more and it was automatically transferred.
... i think karma & karma coins will return to me when i need the most, probably more than 100.
... because of 'Rule of 3', i suspect it will return three-fold ... but time-delay also counts.
... i don't mind stealing from me that way - i think karma eventually will find it's way back.
... or perhaps i paid karmic debt from past that way.
... we'll see. ;)
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And yes, of course, writing this post is a form of 'crime' report, as well.
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... that's example of how 'Loving Eyes' work: Loving Eyes see things in most positive way possible, but are critical and logical as well, even if won't admit whole truth at first.
... Loving Eyes are a form of Compassion & Beyond-Personal Good, i think.
Loving Eyes Mantra is:
* in Tibetan: OM MANI PEME HUNG.
* in Sanskrit: OM MANI PADME HUM.
* in English: Loving Eyes.
* in Polish: Kochające Oczy.
This mantra can be spelled in any language, but Tibetan & Sanskrit hold most blessing, because of the past.
... had 15 karma coins, then someone gave me 5 karma coins.
... then i've bought 100 karma coins.
... i tried to offer 120 karma coins for HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje, but now i have 15 karma coins again.
... perhaps someone needed it more and it was automatically transferred.
... i think karma & karma coins will return to me when i need the most, probably more than 100.
... because of 'Rule of 3', i suspect it will return three-fold ... but time-delay also counts.
... i don't mind stealing from me that way - i think karma eventually will find it's way back.
... or perhaps i paid karmic debt from past that way.
... we'll see. ;)
--
And yes, of course, writing this post is a form of 'crime' report, as well.
--
... that's example of how 'Loving Eyes' work: Loving Eyes see things in most positive way possible, but are critical and logical as well, even if won't admit whole truth at first.
... Loving Eyes are a form of Compassion & Beyond-Personal Good, i think.
Loving Eyes Mantra is:
* in Tibetan: OM MANI PEME HUNG.
* in Sanskrit: OM MANI PADME HUM.
* in English: Loving Eyes.
* in Polish: Kochające Oczy.
This mantra can be spelled in any language, but Tibetan & Sanskrit hold most blessing, because of the past.
Tuesday 16 April 2019
Concerns.
... these concerns are difficult,
... i know too little, so i am forming questions.
... are there 'buddhists' that abuse their 'thrones', and 'false merit' accumulations to make younger pairs sex-slaves? are older buddhists of both genders too sex-abusive? are younger buddhists of both genders too sex-abusive? do we blackmail too much? do we bribe and/or take bribes too much? ... do we lie, release anger, ... , betray?
... how one can respect true monks? how one can respuct true nuns? ... i am unworthy to be monk because i do not wish to lose love, erotics & sex ... is saying that i am unworthy a form of sassy, vulgar, ugly & disrespectful slander?
... i would gladly accept monk's life if i could keep love, erotics and sex. i can accept periods of 'hastity', not only in retreat centers ... but not only my decision, of course. i try to be yogin, not monk - i think it's honest, to be that way. i prefer love & erotics than sex ... but i love sex as well. if a buddhist woman i love wishes kid(s), i'll gladly yield to her.
... are we a human being cult? / pl: kult jednostki. / ... is it bad?
... i wish to serve all of buddhism by learning truths, and sharing when it's enlightening. i wish to enter that way enlightening way, if/when i am allowed.
--
i do not know how to form words, i do not mean disrespect.
... i think:
Lama Ole Nydahl succeeded and succeeds in Love, many others who follow him as well - even if this seems hopeless at first, even if it's long and difficult fight.
Perhaps many think that Lama Ole Nydahl deserves 'better wife', but well ... his choice. i suspect that he doesn't want to rape too beautiful young women - he's old, and that's why.
... i think this is perfect example of self-honesty, spiritual self-honesty, and probably more.
The Causal Love Science.
... are there 'buddhists' that abuse their 'thrones', and 'false merit' accumulations to make younger pairs sex-slaves? are older buddhists of both genders too sex-abusive? are younger buddhists of both genders too sex-abusive? do we blackmail too much? do we bribe and/or take bribes too much? ... do we lie, release anger, ... , betray?
... how one can respect true monks? how one can respuct true nuns? ... i am unworthy to be monk because i do not wish to lose love, erotics & sex ... is saying that i am unworthy a form of sassy, vulgar, ugly & disrespectful slander?
... i would gladly accept monk's life if i could keep love, erotics and sex. i can accept periods of 'hastity', not only in retreat centers ... but not only my decision, of course. i try to be yogin, not monk - i think it's honest, to be that way. i prefer love & erotics than sex ... but i love sex as well. if a buddhist woman i love wishes kid(s), i'll gladly yield to her.
... are we a human being cult? / pl: kult jednostki. / ... is it bad?
... i wish to serve all of buddhism by learning truths, and sharing when it's enlightening. i wish to enter that way enlightening way, if/when i am allowed.
--
i do not know how to form words, i do not mean disrespect.
... i think:
Lama Ole Nydahl succeeded and succeeds in Love, many others who follow him as well - even if this seems hopeless at first, even if it's long and difficult fight.
Perhaps many think that Lama Ole Nydahl deserves 'better wife', but well ... his choice. i suspect that he doesn't want to rape too beautiful young women - he's old, and that's why.
... i think this is perfect example of self-honesty, spiritual self-honesty, and probably more.
The Causal Love Science.
Monday 15 April 2019
Sects? ... So what?!!!
... i think that i am dangerous sectarian.
There are many truths, but i like to say 'truth is what brings together instead of separating, but honesty - especially self-honesty - is also important'.
... i hate hypocrisy, i suffered so much for so long, so i tell honest words as much as i can.
Spiritual honesty makes me to 'enlighten' most raped that way - mostly atheists.
... if/when i abuse too much, i'll die or end as pathetic misery.
... truth is challenging me, i can't handle it, so i tell non-truths. That's proof of sectarianism in my eyes.
... such failure can be perceived as a personal success. ... i think personal success is ... 'beyond-personal failure', egoism.
Human beings want to be dangerous to foes, so they won't dare to hurt them too much. Better Love, Erotics & Sex.
... i think that after sects are heresies, religions, then spirituality. i think that spirituality is Apex.
'Apex' / pl: zwieńczenie /, means 'top of pyramid', shining above requires support from below ... as fighter planes won't win wars alone, without spies/intelligence, infantry soldiers, protected airstrip, mechanics, air-traffic tower, management, strategists & far more, i think.
... i do not want to 'advance' to heresy or higher too early, i prefer de facto power, instead.
;)
There are many truths, but i like to say 'truth is what brings together instead of separating, but honesty - especially self-honesty - is also important'.
... i hate hypocrisy, i suffered so much for so long, so i tell honest words as much as i can.
Spiritual honesty makes me to 'enlighten' most raped that way - mostly atheists.
... if/when i abuse too much, i'll die or end as pathetic misery.
... truth is challenging me, i can't handle it, so i tell non-truths. That's proof of sectarianism in my eyes.
... such failure can be perceived as a personal success. ... i think personal success is ... 'beyond-personal failure', egoism.
Human beings want to be dangerous to foes, so they won't dare to hurt them too much. Better Love, Erotics & Sex.
... i think that after sects are heresies, religions, then spirituality. i think that spirituality is Apex.
'Apex' / pl: zwieńczenie /, means 'top of pyramid', shining above requires support from below ... as fighter planes won't win wars alone, without spies/intelligence, infantry soldiers, protected airstrip, mechanics, air-traffic tower, management, strategists & far more, i think.
... i do not want to 'advance' to heresy or higher too early, i prefer de facto power, instead.
;)
Monday 1 April 2019
Statistics for Enlightenment.
There are truths, small lies, greater lies & statistics.
There are many interpretations of truth, but i think that truth is what brings together instead of separating.
... we can try to count good deeds and bad deeds, positive and negative karma points, nice and wicked in false way destiny points / not only wicca /, and develop methods.
... we can try to include probabilistics, as well.
... is 'i am not sure if it's reversely positive karma point' - 30% of 1 negative karma point?.
... we can collect reports and write software for analysis, then pass to karma law effort.
... i suspect reports & analysis are important for forming laws, even if 'only' spiritual.
... i think karma law is part of karma, important tool for protecting truths, but it lies too much - so i think constant work, improvement & corrections are needed.
... we needs self-reports as well - this is the most important.
... too much of automation enslaves too much - not only in this case.
... are these ideas worthy to be holy? too much holiness is unhealthy, i think.
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Strictly not for sale, just sharing ideas. Corruption kills truth.
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... perhaps this can be used in forming karma laws, and in writing software: ... What is Karma? ... & Other Buddhist Ideas, ... How i understand Mind, Body, Energies & related.
There are many interpretations of truth, but i think that truth is what brings together instead of separating.
... we can try to count good deeds and bad deeds, positive and negative karma points, nice and wicked in false way destiny points / not only wicca /, and develop methods.
... we can try to include probabilistics, as well.
... is 'i am not sure if it's reversely positive karma point' - 30% of 1 negative karma point?.
... we can collect reports and write software for analysis, then pass to karma law effort.
... i suspect reports & analysis are important for forming laws, even if 'only' spiritual.
... i think karma law is part of karma, important tool for protecting truths, but it lies too much - so i think constant work, improvement & corrections are needed.
... we needs self-reports as well - this is the most important.
... too much of automation enslaves too much - not only in this case.
... are these ideas worthy to be holy? too much holiness is unhealthy, i think.
--
Strictly not for sale, just sharing ideas. Corruption kills truth.
--
... perhaps this can be used in forming karma laws, and in writing software: ... What is Karma? ... & Other Buddhist Ideas, ... How i understand Mind, Body, Energies & related.
Thursday 21 March 2019
Buddhist Centers are NOT Clubs for Mad People.
... i was in both, so i know.
... i think both are needed, but are not the same.
What are clubs for mad people?
These are places where mad people get food and simple activities in an attempt to 'activate' them professionally.
... i think, however, that too many of mad people find excuses to not work, to not even try to be beneficial - i've heard some say: 'i am not fit for work', or 'i do not want to work for smartassess'.
Being for a while in such club allowed me to survive harsher moments in life ... but eventually it wasn't enough for me, i sought and found work.
Attendance to such a club is often addition to therapy and medicines.
What about Buddhist Centers?
When i was depressed, hopeless, helpless ... and about to suicide - i found support in Buddhist Center Stupa House, in Warsaw, Poland.
... i found nice company, wisdom, compassion ... and learned Meditation, as well as Karmapa Chenno Mantra.
... i took Refuge in Buddha, Dharma and Realized Sangha, as well as in Lama Ole Nydahl.
Then experienced purification that expressed itself as 'Madness explosion'.
... i went to Psychiatric Hospital, then recovered somewhat and returned to Buddhist Center.
Meditated there for some time, learned wisdom from teachers then was told to go elsewhere.
Is it cruel?
Perhaps, but i feel grateful for what i learned, and for support i've received - as one should, in my opinion. One should be grateful for good times, instead of demanding more of it when opportunity ends.
Why was i expelled?
Well, i think that there are multiple of reasons:
1. Place in meditation center is resource. If others weren't expelled before me, i would not have opportunity to meditate, get support & learn.
2. i think that i've received complete lesson anyway - and once i realize it fully, once it becomes part of my life - i'll be granted more lessons, either in the same or other Buddhist Centers. One goes to Buddhist Center to support & help others - so there are responsibilities attached. i think that too much of lessons and resulting work to do would be too dangerous, would make my life too much of a slave-work.
3. Rich & nice people should be majority in Buddhist Centers - these inspire others and pass lessons of success to others, so they can succeed in life as well. Rich people also donate much more to Buddhism than Poor - and even that materialism is not Buddhism, these resources allow Buddhism to expand, to help more people in difficult situations.
4. Meditation and Preliminary Purifying Practices are dangerous for mad people, as these make bad karma from this and previous lives ripen fast and can overwhelm mad people - even if its only 1% of effect - there's so much in this and previous lives to manifest in short time.
Is Madness end of one's Life & Career?
For me it's not.
My Priority for many lives is Enlightened Love, sanity is not so important.
Work & Financial Independence are just means for this. Important means, but there's more to Love than 'family business'.
There are work-places for mad people as well. Both 'protected' workplaces, supported by laws & social welfare, as well as Free Market jobs, where one is treated as equal - or almost as equal as other, sane workers.
There are also Companies run by Mad people, even if it's rare.
Madness has it's benefits as well - One can say controversial truths without being afraid of being called insane, and this can be very beneficial. One can take inspiration of Mad Yogin Drukpa Kunley, on that Way, as well.
... and also, contrary to beliefs of many - there are women that want someone mad because of love.
... i think both are needed, but are not the same.
What are clubs for mad people?
These are places where mad people get food and simple activities in an attempt to 'activate' them professionally.
... i think, however, that too many of mad people find excuses to not work, to not even try to be beneficial - i've heard some say: 'i am not fit for work', or 'i do not want to work for smartassess'.
Being for a while in such club allowed me to survive harsher moments in life ... but eventually it wasn't enough for me, i sought and found work.
Attendance to such a club is often addition to therapy and medicines.
What about Buddhist Centers?
When i was depressed, hopeless, helpless ... and about to suicide - i found support in Buddhist Center Stupa House, in Warsaw, Poland.
... i found nice company, wisdom, compassion ... and learned Meditation, as well as Karmapa Chenno Mantra.
... i took Refuge in Buddha, Dharma and Realized Sangha, as well as in Lama Ole Nydahl.
Then experienced purification that expressed itself as 'Madness explosion'.
... i went to Psychiatric Hospital, then recovered somewhat and returned to Buddhist Center.
Meditated there for some time, learned wisdom from teachers then was told to go elsewhere.
Is it cruel?
Perhaps, but i feel grateful for what i learned, and for support i've received - as one should, in my opinion. One should be grateful for good times, instead of demanding more of it when opportunity ends.
Why was i expelled?
Well, i think that there are multiple of reasons:
1. Place in meditation center is resource. If others weren't expelled before me, i would not have opportunity to meditate, get support & learn.
2. i think that i've received complete lesson anyway - and once i realize it fully, once it becomes part of my life - i'll be granted more lessons, either in the same or other Buddhist Centers. One goes to Buddhist Center to support & help others - so there are responsibilities attached. i think that too much of lessons and resulting work to do would be too dangerous, would make my life too much of a slave-work.
3. Rich & nice people should be majority in Buddhist Centers - these inspire others and pass lessons of success to others, so they can succeed in life as well. Rich people also donate much more to Buddhism than Poor - and even that materialism is not Buddhism, these resources allow Buddhism to expand, to help more people in difficult situations.
4. Meditation and Preliminary Purifying Practices are dangerous for mad people, as these make bad karma from this and previous lives ripen fast and can overwhelm mad people - even if its only 1% of effect - there's so much in this and previous lives to manifest in short time.
Is Madness end of one's Life & Career?
For me it's not.
My Priority for many lives is Enlightened Love, sanity is not so important.
Work & Financial Independence are just means for this. Important means, but there's more to Love than 'family business'.
There are work-places for mad people as well. Both 'protected' workplaces, supported by laws & social welfare, as well as Free Market jobs, where one is treated as equal - or almost as equal as other, sane workers.
There are also Companies run by Mad people, even if it's rare.
Madness has it's benefits as well - One can say controversial truths without being afraid of being called insane, and this can be very beneficial. One can take inspiration of Mad Yogin Drukpa Kunley, on that Way, as well.
... and also, contrary to beliefs of many - there are women that want someone mad because of love.
Saturday 2 March 2019
Keeping Strong for now ... & Meditation on Red Buddha.
Since a while i suffer from mental illness symptoms, symptoms that hinder my preparations for Enlightened Love.
About 2 weeks ago i got finally a job - but it took me about 7 years of life to get a job. That's quite long.
... i have much to do - going to dentist, ditching addictions, cleaning apartment, developing proper habits - and far more.
For now a success with job makes me regain hope - for a while at least.
... but i feel old.
... i do not know if/when another life's crisis will happen, so in my mind had thoughts to prepare for death.
... got insights - thoughts arose in mind - that i'll have Simplified Phowa Course transmitted to my mind & brain, and that i should perform Red Buddha meditation - meditation that prepares one for Phowa Course.
... i think i need that.
This meditation is one from 'Fearless Death' book by Lama Ole Nydahl, i'll fight to be able to meditate, and will meditate as much as i can ... but without too much of stressful effort.
Plan is to do it everyday - except when i work - starting 19:00, lasting as much as i can without getting into too much of stress.
... i'll also speak the Diamond Mind purifying mantras - starting with six- syllable ones, then later - continuing with one hundred- syllable ones.
... when i'll die, please do Phowa for me, if You can ... i do not know when it might happen, for now i feel relatively strong.
Friday 22 February 2019
Mental Illness, Work & Life's Priorities.
-=- Physical Security Specialist at Juwentus Company. -=-
Mental Illness is example of how bad karma from this and previous lives can ripen and hinder someone in attempts of being useful.
I think too many of mentally ill people treat their illness as an excuse from work, relying on social welfare to sustain themselves.
I've heard: 'i am not fit for work', when i asked.
But it doesn't have to be that way - i think that people without hope for normal life should be gently encouraged at first until they relax, then introduced to self-discipline and daily routines required for work and life as independent people.
One also should set-up priorities for one's life, i think - and fight for what's important for him or her.
In my case the top priority is enlightened love with a buddhist woman / i know which /, and i think that work, responsibility & self-independence are important when one wishes to create family.
After working for about five years as a computer programmer, my mind state worsened and i've lost my job.
... i've attended to therapy, prepared myself for work and independent life.
... i've started a few of projects, also related with computer sciences.
... but sciences - while can be fascinating - are nothing compared to Love, i think.
After living so many years on social welfare, trying to find work and be self-independent - finally found a job as a physical security specialist.
It's less demanding job than working as a computer programmer in a corporate office.
Still it's a step forward, a way of self-improvement, a way of self-introduction to work discipline and self-independence.
After being unemployed for so long - one's mind fears changes, fears work. There are mental illness symptoms associated that hinder work attempts. So, even easy job is better than nothing - at least at first - as a step onward.
Once i am ready - perhaps in 3 years - i'll try to return to professional programming and sciences.
Wednesday 20 February 2019
Work Choice & Buddhism.
Quote.
'The Buddha stressed that the work we choose, how we sustain ourselves, is central to living ethical life.
Within the eightfold path is right livehood, the teaching that one's work should be compatible with sound moral principles and should cause no harm.
In a less complicated world 2,600 years ago, the Buddha listed five livehoods he considered unethical: trading in weapons, human beings, meat, intoxicants, and poison.'
-- Quoted from 'Buddhadharma' magazine, article by Konda Mason, Fall 2018.
Blog author's comments.
i've started scientific project for a buddhist woman i love, and for Lama Ole Nydahl.
Parts of this project are fairly innocent tools, and other parts are too much weaponry.
i am considering to cease production of the more dangerous parts, because i fear that resulting bad karma will stand in the way of love.
See also if You wish: Spiritual Approach to one's Work.
'The Buddha stressed that the work we choose, how we sustain ourselves, is central to living ethical life.
Within the eightfold path is right livehood, the teaching that one's work should be compatible with sound moral principles and should cause no harm.
In a less complicated world 2,600 years ago, the Buddha listed five livehoods he considered unethical: trading in weapons, human beings, meat, intoxicants, and poison.'
-- Quoted from 'Buddhadharma' magazine, article by Konda Mason, Fall 2018.
Blog author's comments.
i've started scientific project for a buddhist woman i love, and for Lama Ole Nydahl.
Parts of this project are fairly innocent tools, and other parts are too much weaponry.
i am considering to cease production of the more dangerous parts, because i fear that resulting bad karma will stand in the way of love.
See also if You wish: Spiritual Approach to one's Work.
Friday 15 February 2019
Spiritual Approach to one's Work.
About.
It is Lama Ole Nydahl's message to practice Buddhism in all of one's life's activities.
Professional work is not exception.
... after months and years chasing job offers, i've just started work as a security guard on hospital construction site.
... i try to identify with Mahakala, to guard Purity of Lessons and to guard people's safety.
... helping to build hospital adds meaning to that - as hospitals are places where lives are protected, i think.
... then - just after i started working - i've noticed HH Buddha Karmapa's 17th message.
This lesson of Vigilance also makes me see this job even more in a meaningful, spiritual way.
Guards have to be vigilant, alert - during days and nights - anyway. That's what we are paid for.
My advanced Buddhist friend - Hanna Łubek - said once to me: 'Must be vigilant as the dragonfly', she said it to me - in Buddhist Center.
... i wish to practice Vigilance with my work, with my whole life as well.
... i do not know how to start, so i'll speak wisdom mantras - so in my mind arises Wisdom.
See also, if You wish: Work Choice & Buddhism.
Mantras.
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
KARMAPA CHENNO
It is Lama Ole Nydahl's message to practice Buddhism in all of one's life's activities.
Professional work is not exception.
... after months and years chasing job offers, i've just started work as a security guard on hospital construction site.
... i try to identify with Mahakala, to guard Purity of Lessons and to guard people's safety.
... helping to build hospital adds meaning to that - as hospitals are places where lives are protected, i think.
... then - just after i started working - i've noticed HH Buddha Karmapa's 17th message.
This lesson of Vigilance also makes me see this job even more in a meaningful, spiritual way.
Guards have to be vigilant, alert - during days and nights - anyway. That's what we are paid for.
My advanced Buddhist friend - Hanna Łubek - said once to me: 'Must be vigilant as the dragonfly', she said it to me - in Buddhist Center.
... i wish to practice Vigilance with my work, with my whole life as well.
... i do not know how to start, so i'll speak wisdom mantras - so in my mind arises Wisdom.
See also, if You wish: Work Choice & Buddhism.
Mantras.
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
KARMAPA CHENNO
Wednesday 13 February 2019
Donating Buddhism on Karmic Multiplier Days.
About.
... i have insights, thoughts arising in mind from subconscious, self-arising wisdom.
... i have voices of insanity as well.
... i differentiate between these two fairly well.
There are Karmic Multiplier Days, Holidays in Buddhism.
... is donating on these days abuse?
... i think one has to earn privilege first to be allowed such multiplied donation - otherwise consequences are unworthwhile, to say at least.
Insights tell me when i can donate and how much, and i obey - do not want abuse.
Until 19th February 2109 there are karmic multiplier days, and on 19th February 2019 is one of the four most important Buddhist Holidays.
... insights let me pay amount i could afford today, so i did.
... i hope it's not abuse.
Mantras.
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
KARMAPA CHENNO
... i have insights, thoughts arising in mind from subconscious, self-arising wisdom.
... i have voices of insanity as well.
... i differentiate between these two fairly well.
There are Karmic Multiplier Days, Holidays in Buddhism.
... is donating on these days abuse?
... i think one has to earn privilege first to be allowed such multiplied donation - otherwise consequences are unworthwhile, to say at least.
Insights tell me when i can donate and how much, and i obey - do not want abuse.
Until 19th February 2109 there are karmic multiplier days, and on 19th February 2019 is one of the four most important Buddhist Holidays.
... insights let me pay amount i could afford today, so i did.
... i hope it's not abuse.
Mantras.
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
KARMAPA CHENNO
Tuesday 12 February 2019
Getting Up from Workless Existence.
After months and years of chasing jobs, finally signed up a contract.
i feel like i started to get up from joblessness.
But the work does not end here, it's just a start.
Being useful is message from Lama Ole Nydahl, he even wrote a book about this.
... i'll be working for polish Security Company named Juwentus.
My experience tells me that i have to fight disturbing mind states, so they won't be causes of getting fired.
That's what i am doing, fighting subconscious habits using wishes, mantras and medicines, fighting karma that endangers professional approach to this job.
Once i am paid - about 25 march - i wish to support Warsaw Buddhist Center, formerly Stupa House with 108 PLN/month.
... i wish to donate to Wicca and Temple of Witchcraft as well, 30 PLN/month each of them.
... perhaps in future i'll support Catholic Church as well, and/or the Golden Dawn - who seek union with YHVH with their unorthodox methods.
... those who support these causes, please support me with wishes, mantras, meditations, spells and/or prayers.
Thank You in advance.
See also, if You wish: Get up, Bad Karma is Empty.
i feel like i started to get up from joblessness.
But the work does not end here, it's just a start.
Being useful is message from Lama Ole Nydahl, he even wrote a book about this.
... i'll be working for polish Security Company named Juwentus.
My experience tells me that i have to fight disturbing mind states, so they won't be causes of getting fired.
That's what i am doing, fighting subconscious habits using wishes, mantras and medicines, fighting karma that endangers professional approach to this job.
Once i am paid - about 25 march - i wish to support Warsaw Buddhist Center, formerly Stupa House with 108 PLN/month.
... i wish to donate to Wicca and Temple of Witchcraft as well, 30 PLN/month each of them.
... perhaps in future i'll support Catholic Church as well, and/or the Golden Dawn - who seek union with YHVH with their unorthodox methods.
... those who support these causes, please support me with wishes, mantras, meditations, spells and/or prayers.
Thank You in advance.
See also, if You wish: Get up, Bad Karma is Empty.
Sunday 10 February 2019
Get up, Bad Karma is Empty.
... it is said that a true warrior is measured not by how many times he or she falls, but by how many times he or she stands up.
In Buddhism we believe that what occurs in mind, develops later in speech and actions.
... i have a lot of self-destructive thoughts in mind, and i try to oppose worst with mantras and wishes.
When unopposed, these thoughts ruin one's life.
... i think it's how karma works.
... it is also true that people fear changes, of unknown that these changes bring ... - so when one tries to change himself or herself for better - parts of one's self oppose - in my case this takes form of in-mind self-slander and self-destructive auto-aggression.
... i hope that i'll find causes and conditions of my ego's destructive self-behavior and stop them, before i am too old to experience love in my middle age.
Term 'empty' i understand as 'dependent on conditions', 'non-permanent'.
... as years pass, i lose hope for living fairly normal life, i lose hope for experiencing enlightened love.
... i am trying to 'get up', to make my life better - for benefit of me and others - but feel beaten and slandered by my own mind instead.
... i think i need to understand my ego, my self - and counter worst parts of it with mantras and wishes.
Then hopefully my life will change for better.
Thankfully one's reality is not fixed still, thankfully we can change ourselves and the world in result as well.
What we fear - the Changing Nature of Reality - mean that we can change for better and improve our and our friends' lives - even if we are never prepared for unknown dangers that changes bring.
... i hope this brings us hope.
In Buddhism we believe that what occurs in mind, develops later in speech and actions.
... i have a lot of self-destructive thoughts in mind, and i try to oppose worst with mantras and wishes.
When unopposed, these thoughts ruin one's life.
... i think it's how karma works.
... it is also true that people fear changes, of unknown that these changes bring ... - so when one tries to change himself or herself for better - parts of one's self oppose - in my case this takes form of in-mind self-slander and self-destructive auto-aggression.
... i hope that i'll find causes and conditions of my ego's destructive self-behavior and stop them, before i am too old to experience love in my middle age.
Term 'empty' i understand as 'dependent on conditions', 'non-permanent'.
... as years pass, i lose hope for living fairly normal life, i lose hope for experiencing enlightened love.
... i am trying to 'get up', to make my life better - for benefit of me and others - but feel beaten and slandered by my own mind instead.
... i think i need to understand my ego, my self - and counter worst parts of it with mantras and wishes.
Then hopefully my life will change for better.
Thankfully one's reality is not fixed still, thankfully we can change ourselves and the world in result as well.
What we fear - the Changing Nature of Reality - mean that we can change for better and improve our and our friends' lives - even if we are never prepared for unknown dangers that changes bring.
... i hope this brings us hope.
Saturday 19 January 2019
How to transform one's karma for better rebirths?
A Quote.
'People meet one another again if there was already a relationship in earlier lives and, as one notices in the press every day, connections can be many-faceted. In order that current troublemakers do not appear again in future lives, one can habitually do something good for them today, with the wish that they become very happy, as far away as possible.
Another useful action is to constantly forgive all unpleasant people. Then one doesn't have to carry them along as excess baggage through a life that is otherwise hopefully exciting. The precious freedom of being able to forgive dissolves the shared bad karma, and difficult beings will come back as friends or not appear again in a future life. On the other hand, if we keep the grudge, we do not get rid of them and the annoying sandbox games do not end. Even on our deathbed we can still excuse ourselves for our own stupid behavior and express our gratitude toward others. This not only redeems us but also the friends who are involved.'
-- Quoted from 'Fearless Death. Buddhist Wisdom on the Art of Dying' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.
Mantras.
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM AMI DEWA HRIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
SHAMARPA CHENNO
KARMAPA CHENNO
'People meet one another again if there was already a relationship in earlier lives and, as one notices in the press every day, connections can be many-faceted. In order that current troublemakers do not appear again in future lives, one can habitually do something good for them today, with the wish that they become very happy, as far away as possible.
Another useful action is to constantly forgive all unpleasant people. Then one doesn't have to carry them along as excess baggage through a life that is otherwise hopefully exciting. The precious freedom of being able to forgive dissolves the shared bad karma, and difficult beings will come back as friends or not appear again in a future life. On the other hand, if we keep the grudge, we do not get rid of them and the annoying sandbox games do not end. Even on our deathbed we can still excuse ourselves for our own stupid behavior and express our gratitude toward others. This not only redeems us but also the friends who are involved.'
-- Quoted from 'Fearless Death. Buddhist Wisdom on the Art of Dying' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.
Mantras.
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM AMI DEWA HRIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
SHAMARPA CHENNO
KARMAPA CHENNO
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