... there are causes for why i am working as a physical security specialist, instead of being employed in IT Sector.
1. ... i wish to learn how to be a 'bodyguard' for a buddhist woman i Love, and for other people - mostly friends,
2. ... i am not ready for office work, it's more demanding - especially for mentally ill person that i am. Sooner or later however, i think i'll be ready for office work - as a software scientist & engineer,
3. Working outside IT sector gives me more freedom in pursuing my art/sci/tech projects.
Keeping my current employment is still challenging - i struggle against detrimential mind states, trying to not be late, trying to be proffesional at work.
... i've developed mantra:
'... as is wise, professional & enlightening - but not at all cost.'
... by emphasizing wisdom, i am including non-buddhist wisdoms, both worldly, as well as spiritual wisdoms.
... i've brought dorje phurba to my workplace as well, i hope it will help me remove all obstacles that prevent my work from being enlightening, professional & wise.
... i've offered my dorje phurba as well as my service related with my dorje phurba to Lama Ole Nydahl ... at first in mind, now in written-speech form as well.
... i think dorje phurba is great tool for those who identify with Mahakala, buddhist protector, ...
Word dorje means both 'skillful means' as well as 'indestructibility of diamond', but probably there are also other meanings as well.
Word phurba means 'obstacles severing knife', but perhaps there's more.
Thus dorje phurba means 'indestructible, obstacles severing knife, especially in skilled hands'. i think skills can be learned, including skills for wielding dorje phurba.
... for a more, click, if You wish: 'Vajrakilaya on Rigpa Wiki'.
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