Calm Mind instead of Commotion.

... i am on mind-calming way since years, i try to calm mind all the time.

... i feel that as others meditate to 'invoke power', a lot of commotion, disturbing thoughts, disturbing feelings and a lot of actions are created.

... i have a proposal: instead of 'Invoking Power' so often, let's practice Calm Mind.

... i've read that Calmness is Bodhisattva Way, and that Causing Commotion is not Bodhisattva Way.

Who is Traitor, Who is Not? Who and/or what are worst Enemies?

... i think & feel that inner enemies, traitors are more dangerous than any external foe.

... i think & feel that dishonesty, especially self-dishonesty leads to treason.

... there are people who 'produce traitors', saying 'he/she will betray us anyway', then attack him/her, control, steal - until he/she breaks and leaves school/sangha/lineage anyway.

... what's next?

... 'he/she has that karma of traitor', and abusers still keep attacking, new 'arguments' appear and appear ...

... and so on until they 'prove' that they were wise enough to 'protect buddha' by abusing someone, by making him/her leave.

... who is vulnerable to be made 'traitor'?

... i think that truly compassionate people are the most vulnerable - for abusers do not want them to 'rise above', to 'win' against 'truly wise'.

... truly compassionate people are often so weak, look ugly/fat etc - as consequence of being abused by society.

... there are exceptions of course, i think & feel.

... i think that producing treason is worst form of betrayal.

... a few thoughts about Phowa quality.

Phowa is meditation & practice.

Phowa is 'Conscious Dying Meditation', leading to 'better reincarnation'.

Phowa can be performed for oneself, or for someone else.

... is it truly better reincarnation?

... from whose point of view it is better?

... is it better 'containment', 'enslavement'?

... is it a way to prevent one from 'shining', is it a way to 'close someone in a jail'?

... which Phowa group is best to choose from?

... can Ngöndro be a rescue from abusive phowa group(s)?

Funny Musings about Thrid Eye. ;)

... i had such a mind state when i was train's passenger.

'thrid eye' then speaker in train said 'Okopowa', it was notice of a train stop incoming.

'trzecie oko ... okopowa'. ;)

/ en: 'eye' = pl: 'oko' /.
/ en: 'thrid' = pl: 'trzy', 'trzecie', ... /

... it's related with 'power' and 'phowa'. ;)

... what is thrid eye?

... i have some clues.
- pineal gland,
- thrid eye chakra,
- oneself, mirror, and eye of an observer,
- cyclops,
- skrying, skrying mirror, TAROT, fortunetelling, telling future, mysticism, ...

... is sangha 'mirror' of a guest/friend/fellow meditator?

;)

... i think am not wisest that way, i know my place at least ... or it seems so, at least.

Yoga Tantra, form of Mantra?

... i have a plan, it's just an offer:

... perhaps esoterics, silly computer game, and buddhist yoga tantra can be combined.

... 'leyline of the void', energy line - not only magickal - of the void, which can be source of power,
i think.

... can it be reduced to two mantras?

1. 'Calm Abiding',
2. 'Void'.
...


> in short:
... experiencing suffering in Calm Abiding, karma analysis,
... void 'meditation', eliminating causes of suffering.

... some more of the details - also in comments to this article:
> [ http://fav.me/dd9iy7f ].

Whom do i Love? Do i have a chance in this life?

i love a buddhist woman - i don't know her name, but other buddhists know her - if they want, they can arrange meeting.

... so i serve buddhism to earn privilege.

... i serve many ways - also, but not only - with criticism.

... i think it's a great privilege to even meet her, not only in my case - i think this applies to others as well, not only buddhists.

... also on DeviantART.


... see also, if You wish: 'Sudden Tiger Attack'. ;)

Mahakala, Liberation, Enlightenment Questions.

... i heard polish song, in which woman warned man that she's his secret godess, that she's his enemy.

... in a way marriage is war, learning from each other, development, defeating weaknesses of both, and others, as well ... i think.

... nice warning, not only for me ... love, ero and sex addict even more, build ego .. mahakala often is too godly and wrathful, egoistic ... should be bodhisattva, protector, not only of a woman.

Radiant Godess, Palden Lhamo similarly. ;)

... a while ago i read that Lama Ole Nydahl fully realized Mahakala Qualities. Is it a trial ,test? is fully wrathful deity as well?

... i heard that Lama Ole Nydahl speaks of himself that he's Liberated, not Enlightened, does this mean that fully he defeated his ego? how ...

''' 'after liberation enlightenment seduces', but for many liberation is enough ... from what or whom? for how long? (hinayana/theravada).

... does after enlightenment fight for liberation continues?