Consequences of Abuses.

... i try to be gentle, to not create desperates.

... desperate people are worst enemies - after a while.

i suffered under Catholic Church, as well as under Sectarian Worshippers in Lama Ole Nydahl's Sangha.

Whole groups are diverse, there are good and bad people in, both shining examples & disgraces.

... mistreatment and abuse caused my insanity, suicidal thoughts & suicide attempts.

... i suffer from manipulative thoughts, as these sectarians appear in my mind, manipulating, putting in troubles - not only financial.

... in my mind they try to 'convey Dalai Lama's lessons' for me - or rather they manipulate these lessons so they benefit more at my cost, and at cost of others.

... i prefer unmodified Truth, not their interpretations.

... i tried to be gentle, but because of my mental illness i have troubles in surviving and finding love.

... i am forced to hate, despite my goodwill and reason.

... i will criticize mercilessly, perhaps they will change, perhaps they won't harm others the same way.

... that are consequences of abuse, of creating desperates.

... i wish to improve later, to develop compassion & love when i can - but for now, i am not ready.

Abusive Conversion Attempts (in Mind).

i was born in a Catholic family.

i was baptised despite my will, at young age when i had no opportunity to protest.

when i was young, i felt abused, slandered and beaten by other kids - mostly of Catholic families.

i started to train Martial Arts, my self-esteem, calmness & self-confidence improved - to the point that i could find & stay at work for about 4-5 years.

This Martial Arts School (BKKK) is led by a Catholic Teacher Mariusz Mazur, yes Catholic Church has the very good examples too - but too many demand from others better behaviour than they are.

Since a while i have voices in mind, telling me to convert, to return to Church so i can serve under them and go to Heaven, despite my will.

There are many excuses and arguments, but conclusions are that i should earn money for Church and Convert, look worse than them, be treated as worse, suffer and after my death serve under them in Heaven as a reward. i'd be considered worse, because they go to Church since long, and i do it much less.

i think causes are egoism, pride, ignorance, laziness, envy and greed.

i think compareable offer would be for Catholics to serve under Buddhas as slaves, suffer and go to Heaven for that.

i do not support, i feel Religions need that Critic, not only Catholic Religion.

Just because someone attends to Church regularly does not mean he or she is better than others.

i think Atheists have it worst, as too many conspire and use Sectarian Abuse Methods against weak or separated.

i think Buddhism also is abusive too often, not only Religions that serve gods have faults.