Passing Disturbance.

About.

In Buddhism, Phurba is the symbolic knife that severs disturbing feelings.


Since some time i had a lot of mental illness symptoms that occured as voices in my head, 'coloured' with disturbing feelings.

Since a few days i kept saying mantra 'phurba' when these symptoms occured, to sever them from my consciousness stream.

As an initial result my mind was a mess - i was confused, lot of angry symptoms appeared, beneficial insights weakened.

Mind contact - imagined or real - with a Buddhist woman i Love, as well as with friends - was reduced to almost non-existent.

Then i read that Mercury (planet of communication) went retrograde in my Zodiac Sign recently.

i looked at Lama Ole Nydahl's photo and got insight: 'gentler Sangha for you'.

My mind went quieter, contact with gentler parts of sanga & with a woman i love was re-established.

Got insights that friends will cover my weaker points in Mind, guarding against abuse.

Now i feel better - behave in a calmer, in a more controlled & sane way.

Hope this will last.

i wish to say 'Namaste' & 'Thank You' to friends in Sangha who meditate for us all, as well; i think this helps.


'On path, we need mostly patience, forbearance for our own lacks and optimism
that will help us understand that only true reality is mind's nature.
Everything else is only passing situations, that we should not take seriously,
even if usually we think precisely opposite way.'

-- My attempted translation of Hannah Nydahl's advice.


Comments regarding 'Mind Contact'.

Is 'mind contact' real a telepathy, or just a play of my needs & optimism?

Do i have a mind contact with my subconsciousness or with real people?

Perhaps it's just lingering impression of friends that was seeded in my psyche when i did meditate - that manifests in form of thoughts & feelings after these years.

i don't know, it's either a real telepathy, or a play with my subconscious, or a telepathy that acts through subconsciousness.

i consider either of these options possible at the same time, i keep criticism & distance while keeping possibility of telepathy as an perhaps-option; i think it's sane that way.

Considering that everything external is projection of mind, that only true reality is mind - even 'external meeting' is a form of mind-contact then.

i think i read a lesson that everything is connected - that we are 'whole one', only that our impermanent egos make us think we are separate.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.