There are Buddhist tools one should not touch or even look at for as long as one is not ready.
But, i think - one can acquire these to be ready to use later.
One won't learn without having and using such tools, i know.
i've bought Dorje Phurba on an internet auction.
i offer this tool to HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje, both it's uses - as well as the tool itself.
Perhaps Buddha will accept, otherwise i'll keep it and prepare to use skillfully as soon as i can.
i wish to not use it, except when insights and / or visions explain me that i should train with it, or when insight and / or visions tell me that i should use to achieve Enlightening goal.
... i need to be wary, however - as insights & visions often lie to me. i should keep distance & criticism to voices in my mind, it's only healthy.
'The Awesome Three Wrathful Deities of the Phurba.
Phurba or Kila is the wrathful implement associated with three of the most awesome and ferocious of the wrathful meditational deities: Hayagriva, Vajrakilaya, Black Mahakala. There are specialized Phurbas dedicated to Padmasambhava and other deities, but Vajrakilaya / in Tibetan, Dorje Phurba / is the best known in the west, awareness spread by many public Vajrakilaya blessings by His Holiness the Sakya Trizin. Equally, Most Secret Hayagriva is very popular and precious.
The deity cannot be separated from the Kila or Phurba. They are not separate. The presence of the deity is invoked into the Phurba, and it is considered a living Nirmanakaya deity — one of the reasons Phurba’s are typically covered in blue cloth when out in public. Phurbas are also often placed on altars where offerings can be made to them. Hayagriva, Vajrakilaya and Mahakala are all wrathful and secret Higher Tantric Deities. Hayagriva is a wrathful manifestation of Amitabha, Vajrakilaya is the wrathful emanation of Vajrasattva, and Mahakala is wrathful Avalokiteshvara.
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The Handle: Vajra or Knots.
Some Phurbas have extraordinary detail, such as this one with six arms and three faces.
The “main grip” of the Phurba is typically a / eight sided / shaft with two symmetrical knots, or a complete vajra. Beer describes the knots this way: “Its form may derive from its use as a tethering stake, or from its uses in kilana rituals where the protective circle is petted out on the ground and bound with colour thread. In a Nyingma text from the “Norther Treasure Tradition, it is stated that “samsara and nirvana are enclosed within the vast knots /Skt. mahakanda / at either end of the handle.” The eight-sided shaft can have multiple meanings:
The eight directions, with the knots / top and bottom . representing above/below or zenith / nadir,
The Eight-fold path,
The eight consciousnesses,
The eight great charnal grounds of the mandala,
Esoterically, the eight main psychic channels that radiate from the heart chakra'.
Source: Buddha Weekly.
'Diamond Dagger / Skt. Vajrakilaya, Tib. Dorje Phurba /: Powerfully protective emanation of Diamond Mind; overcomes all hindrances, especially to meditation'.
-- Quoted from 'Fearless Death' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.
Phurba is used ritually to symbolically sever attachment to the ego. Varja symbolically means 'thunderbolt', 'diamond', 'skillful methods' among other meanings. Therefore, i can imagine that
Dorje-Phurba is the tool for severing one's attachment to ego, with use of 'skillful methods'.
Thunder symbolizes that Enlightenment might be as quick as a lightning bolt carrying light, and once one is Enlightened - Diamond symbolizes that Enlightenment is indestructible, 'hard as diamond'.
