Self Initiation.

The Lessons.

In the Stupa House Buddhist Center i've received the lessons.

One of most important lessons was about Identification.

We try to act as Buddha until we become Buddha.

Another of the most important lesson was about perceiving others as Buddha.

If we perceive other as Buddha we'll receive lesson as from Buddha.


Extensions.

i've called myself neo-mahakala-108 not to insult Buddha Mahakala, but to Identify ... to invoke his power, to realize his Buddha Qualities.

Names have Power, the Old Truth.

Today i had inner lessons, thoughts appeared in mind.

i've bowed before HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje's image, but also before my Holstered Knife's image.

Thoughts appeared in mind telling me that most true of Initiations is the Self-Initiation, and Identification is also Self-Initiation.

Thoughts appeared in mind that formal external initiation courses are still worthwhile to participate in, to help others mostly - especially if these initiations are parts of one's way.


Causes.

i think i am lonely for too long, i need enlightened & magickal love.

As a kid i thought about needs of girls to seduce them.

i understood they need sense of security & protection, sense of security even more.

i understood they do not need rude protectors, they need gentle ones.

Later i understood that sense of security comes from real fight, from real protection - others can sense who is friendly & compassionate and who is against. i think it's the base of empathy.

i made a wish to be gentle protector of women.

Later i've trained martial arts.

Later i meditated & sang Mahakala Invocation with Sangha.

Later i performed the Mahakala Invocation Practice in the Stupa House Buddhist Center in Warsaw, for about a Month - along with Tonglen & other Practices - as my own practice beside other standard practices with Sangha.

i think this was the chain of causes for my Identification with neo-mahakala-108 & Self-Initiation that Way.

i think that for those who wish to win the True Love, this is one of the entrances - but prepare for very difficult & thrilling fight, and serious purifications. Even worst sissies can succeed that way if they are patient & dedicated enough, i think. I was considered worst and fattest boy in my school class, yet i see my fast inner & external progress for True Love now. it works in my case so far, so perhaps will work in other cases as well. i am not sure, however - i didn't succeed in creating family as of yet.

Now i understand that real protection also comes from sense of security as well - it works both ways.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.