i've been interrested in computer sciences since my youth, then went to Warsaw University to study this field, learned & elegantly structured within myself a lot of basics with good & very good grades mostly.
then severe depression episode, fear of leaving home occured - i stopped attending to Uni & was removed from students list after exams.
i didn't give up, found professional work & worked there for over 4 years.
after this time i was spent, without energy, with stress accumulated - i was fired as any burnt-out employee.
i've started therapy, working on my own computer-science-related projects, learning from books when i could.
now i read article that since this September, programming education for kids will start in basic schools - that is, 7-years-young kids will have such lessons.
while this is good news for my nation (Poland), for western world as well - this makes me worried about my own future.
will younger generation replace those who had no such intense opportunities at youth?
i am a professional computer programmer with aspirations for other sciences, but so far my mental illness is major obstacle when it comes to learning mathematics & other sciences.
then i looked at HH Buddha Karmapa's portrait and had insights.
i understood it's impermanence & impermanence of conditions -related fear, that it happens in all ways of life, even in computer programming.
i had insight i should observe & learn, i should take this obstacle as a lesson & opportunity to grow, that my ambitions & plans should reach far in the future.
thankfully i've already started something as that (details: Dragonfly Algorithm), but my mental illness makes progress difficult.
i hope i'll realize my dream of becoming a great multi-disciplinary scientist that uses computing tools excellently.
May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,
May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,
May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,
May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA
OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG
Namaste, blessed be.