i am mentally ill, i should not meditate.
i can practice with mantras, however - but i have mental blocks that stop me from speaking many mantras, even OM MANI PEME HUNG Compassion Mantras.
Recently however, i found a way to overcome this limitation - i hope & wish it will help not only me, but also others who suffer from similar obstacles.
A way to overcome mental blocks.
i made a wish:
'i wish to win.
OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA
OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM AH HUNG
This wish should address obstacles in the whole worlds, reaching that far thanks to the
'OM AMI DEWA HRI' Mantra, in all of three times (past, present & future) thanks to the
'OM KALACHAKRA SOHA' Mantra.
This wish calls for Mahakala's Protection & Manjushri's Wisdom - so i can gain Wisdom & learn the way to defeat hindrances, while protected by Mahakala to not stray from the way & to be protected from accidents & other obstacles,
i wish to win - to overcome mental hindrances that stop me from speaking Mantras, especially
the OM MANI PEME HUNG Mantras,
With the OM MANI PEME HUNG Compassion Mantra,
For benefit of all,
On the Mind, Speech & Body levels,
Power of All Buddhas work through us.
Composing Mantras & Explaination of the Intentions.
i've used mantras creatively as a part of my wish. while i am not so skillful with that Way as of yet, i can at least explain my reasoning & intentions.
... on a certain level, all sounds are mantras and thoughts - wisdom.
1. 'OM AMI DEWA HRI'.
It's mantra of Limitless Light Buddha, of Amitabha Buddha, of Buddha with great Radiance, whose influence reaches far.
i've used it to call for this Radiance, to reach all worlds, whole worlds, mostly - but i think it can also help to overcome obstacles after death, as it's also related with Phowa, the Conscious Dying Practice.
2. 'OM KALACHAKRA SOHA'.
Kalachakra is the 'Wheel of Time' in Buddhism, as well as the Tantric Meditational Deity whose practice can lead to Enlightenment. Kalachakra Practice is one of Highest Tantras.
Tantra is the Holy Text, but also the Practice associated with these texts.
i've called Kalachakra mostly to reach into all of the three times (past, present & future), as well as calling it's deity that will lead us to Enlightenment with a proper practice, as soon as we are ready for that.
OM is often placed at the beginning of mantras, i think with it's meaning the totality of sound, existence and consciousness, among other meanings.
SOHA Mantra in this context means: 'Take root in Mind, Be blessed'.
Wishes for development.
i hope this wish will evolve to be more skillful with time, for now it's only a seed-idea.
i wish to develop this wish with more skillful words & mantras, i wish to develop & share a meditation that helps those who suffer from such hindrances as well.
i bought this Mala years ago - to count OM MANI PEME HUNG Mantras mostly.