Foundation.

... my new desktop image:




- Buddha Karmapa at bottom (bottom is foundation, supports what's above, so it's more important in this case; without a solid foundation a house can't stand),
- Wicca / Witchcraft at top (at top it can shine with a good support).

... but in reality it's not so obvious of who's supporting whom & who was so far, in my case. i think that most of Buddhism, especially less wise & less compassionate people neglect other ways too much.

Black Lotus, a Gift for Love.

What is best gift a man can give for a woman, for Love?

Usually it's a flower, a Jewelry, or a work of Art.

What if a proper flower doesn't exist in nature, if it's a fictional Art work?

Black Lotus does not exist in nature, even if there's a specimen called that way.

It's found in fiction, in Art, in games ... but it's a powerful symbol still.

Thankfully i found a way.

i think a Buddhist woman i Love realized beautifully feminine protecting qualities, along with wisdom, perfection, purity, gentleness & power ... as a mythical black lotus that grows in the harsh swamp conditions.

i think Black Lotus is also a symbol of Magic, a feminine symbol of Buddhism.

Found in the Magic: the Gathering games, it's source of great power & beauty, that can enhance the play when used skilfully, alongside the other, meaningful cards ... it's the great, rare & precious work of Art as well, as well ... it's perhaps the most legendary, most sought of all of the cards.

i bought this Art work for a Buddhist woman i Love, a flower that symbolizes how i perceive her, how i experience her gentle power & emotional work with my feelings.

i feel secure in feelings, when thinking of her.

It's for You & only for You, whom i met in the Buddhist Center, who meditated with me, whom i touched knee-to-knee, when we sat & meditated beside.

i only Guard it for You.

Perhaps i'll skry this card, to learn it's powers, if insights tell me that, if i feel it's coming from someone worthwhile ... then use to build power of Sangha and/or friends, in times of need.

But i wish to keep the card intact, to guard safely, it's a flower & Art for You.




- Cards for Skrying, for Low Magick in my Collection -
- a proof of what i bought ... i bought more, traded as well. -

- Click an image to enlarge, if You wish, as well. -


See also, if You wish: Awakening Shadow Pentacle for Protection, MtGO Vampyre Erotica Deck.

Reducing Needs, Reducing Expectations.

Introduction.

i am inspired by the noble & beautiful people who despite being wealthy have little of needs & expectations.

i think Lama Ole Nydahl is one of them.

i think a Buddhist woman i Love deserves someone as that.

i wish to be worthy of her then to meet her as soon as is possible after that.

i can suffer even the Kalpa in Hells if that's neccessary to experience Enlightened & Magickal Love with her, preferably in our Sangha.


Wishes.

i wish to reduce my needs, to keep reducing, including eating less & spending less money - but paying all bills as soon as they arrive, as soon as i can, nevertheless.

i think eating less also protects animals & living plants, it's gentle & noble, as well.

i wish to reduce my expectations as well, to keep reducing, but at lower priority, as well.

i wish to be handsome, gentle, attractive, sexy & thin as well, not only for her.

i wish to be a gentle protection for her as well, including financial security in a gentle way as well.

i could use support in that, i could use wishes, mantras & meditations that lead to that as well.

i wish to repay karmic debts by protecting our inner values & lives, by increasing dharmic & esoteric power of people who support me that way, as soon as i can, as well - in a way that won't cost us too much of money. i can risk or sacrifice my life for those who are worthy of that privilege, i am not afraid of death - but a Buddhist woman i Love & HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje should have final say if/when i should risk my life.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
MA DAG MA

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Transmission Flow's Forms.

i read it's best at the source, by the True Buddha.

When lessons are passed through intermediaries, transmission becomes malformed,
blessing is less pure.

i heard in a Stupa House Buddhist Center that Sangha can be like Pyramid, the Pyramid where Purest Teachings are at the top - in the True Buddha, and lower levels are less Pure.

There's the difference between Spiritual Pyramids & Financial Pyramids as Amway for example,
i think.

It's written in the 'Great Seal' book that Triangle is the Dangerous Form, and Square is being
Gentle Form.

Mandala is Powerfield, a Circle where many beings or phenomena form around a central one.

i think that from Transmission flow's perspective - beings of Sangha can be Formed many ways,
and forms can re-form. Pyramid's Triangle can become a Circle around the Teacher, or in other Form.

i think Harmful Sects abuse Pyramid's structure, not letting lower ranks rise as well,
with middle ranks fighting internally.

as a final note ... i wish to abolish spiritual pyramids of Harmful Sects, as well.

Securing Enlightenment.

i have many ways, many tools that can be useful in the Fight for Enlightenment.

There are threats & risks to Enlightenment as well, that delay.

i have a mental tool, a strategy for analyzing Multi-Front Warfare.

i made an offer in Mind for Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje to use my tools & this strategy to model, abstract & simplify the multi-front of our world, to assess risks & threats that delay the Enlightenment - then to use my tools (Buddhism, Esoterics, Art & Sciences) to address worst threats & risks.

i had insight that i should use Black Magick to weaken three Sects under Ogyen Trinley Dorje, by seeding dissent - as they use lies & sectarian methods that harm, they will be weakened internally, their relations & power will start & continue to disintegrate. if/when they are true to Universal Enlightenment, that includes other Schools including our School & Lineage - they won't be harmed, they can even recover.

i agreed to put effort into that, but not at all cost.

i think Sects are too often harmful, i try to be Anti-Sectarian.

i don't mind if Ogyen Trinley Dorje counters our School's Sects in response - i believe that inner enemies & traitors are far worse threat than any of external enemies, anyway.

i think it's beneficial & enlightening to help other schools & rivals by countering their inner threats, and letting them help us similar way.

i think it's more wise & skillful to counter sects of other schools & rivals than to directly attack sects under our Buddha.

i think we need the counter & help of our rivals anyway, and that we should pay in one way or other for that help as well.

Worlds of Dharma & Worlds of Magick.

About.

i think Buddhism is Powerful.

i think Esoterics is Powerful as well.

i think Buddhism is more integrally coherent, however - there's a lot of efficient cooperation methods that ensure that.

This has faults as well, we are too proud - sometimes worse than gods, in my opinion.

i feel Buddhism considers other ways as inferior too often, especially smaller spiritual minorities. This is disgusting & foolish.

We are not most numerous of Views, there are more numerous Religions, including Islam.

i think we need Allies & Friends, but our foolish & disgusting pride is the major obstacle, in my opinion.

My next move is to learn a Black Magick, to turn Darkness into Light, to work with Karmic Connection, to gain Powerful Allies.

i'll try to Awaken the Black Magick, to learn & wield it's power, to awaken Mind Qualities of appropriate Evil beings - focusing on Lucifer & Lilith the most, including Awakening their Compassion & Wisdom.

i'll try to help in 'hells', to turn darkness into light.

i don't know how much time i need.

i'll try to help Buddhism still, i'll try to keep in touch, but for a while i'll focus on Esoterics more.

i wish to return, however - please be considerate & patient.

i'll inform as is neccessary, but not too often - this is dangerous to talk openly of such evil, in my opinion - others would abuse, or misunderstand.

If neccessary i'll resign from that way for Enlightened & Magickal Love, even completely. But if this happens, we won't have so many benefits, allies & friends.

i do not wish to fall into the 'Comfort Trap' and be too exclusive with my pride with 'hells'. After more or less of 3 years of service in 'hells' (i do not know how much time i need, exactly - it's just a rough estimate) i wish to complete with the Buddhist Correction-Lessons and after that to serve their enemies as well, striving for the Peace.

Then i wish to proceed with my Way to Enlightenment again. We'll see then how it'll develop.

i do not wish to abuse using the Black Magick & other inner values as well.


Spells.

Black Magick, Awaken!

Blessed be.











Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

OM AMI DEWA HRIH
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste.

Beyond Appearances: The in-depth relations within our Stupa House Sangha.

About.

i think i focused on Buddhism, Esoterics, Arts & other Sciences more than on Computer Sciences because of people in 'my personal Sangha', because of people i took inspiration from.

But now i let other people, the computer scientists from Stupa House Sangha (mostly Borg, Tomasz Klaudel, Kućka - sorry i don't know Your real name & Marcin Barański) in my Mind to draw inspiration from, when Other Ways decide to give them priority. i feel that without their support & without support of older & Wiser Computer Scientists i won't progress very far in Dragonfly Algorithm efforts.

i try to not take things personally or superficially. i try to see the depth.

Certain people dismissed me from Stupa House, to Protect me from too much of Meditation. Even that a certain tensions appeared as a result - it's not all that counts in forming the relations.

i can accept them as a part my Teachers, even if they are younger - but still more developed in Buddhism. if they accept me as student, of course.

As for myself - i accept anyone as my student, not only on Buddhism Way - unless HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje Protects me that Way. i follow insights in that decision, don't expect Him talking personally to someone as insignificiant as me. i understand Buddhas are very busy, far too important to personally answer everyone on every occasion. i think lessons are not only words or images, either in direct speech or in other form as in the internet, but also a Mind Contact, Energy Flow, Transmission in many forms, perhaps more.

i do not hold grudge toward Tomasz Klaudel, Marcin Barański & Rafał Olech for dismissing me - they all did this as well ... i just follow feelings & thoughts. i think they meditated to support me, not to 'control insane person under to not be a danger', so i see them as friends.

i perceive meditation as a form of speech that involves body language, smiles, frowns, feelings, breath, voice tone when speaking mantras or other words, mind contact - speech that forms strong connection & imprint on mind (we meditate with open minds, we are very sensitive to stimuli during meditation) that develops into thoughts & feelings - either beneficial or harmful. in case of above people, i think they are beneficial for me.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Protection & Responsibility.

As one's life progress, one develops various methods, various powers.

Not only of Dharmic Nature in my case, but also Esoteric & Worldly (Arts & Sciences) powers.

i think it's responsible to not abuse powers over others, to use them only when neccessary.

But when is neccessary?

i think that one should use Powers for Self-Defense only when one reaches his or her limits of suffering, or when one is in enough of danger.

... but it's also responsible to protect weaker, using one's own wisdom or wisdom of the wiser, trusted authorities.

... i think it's also responsible to protect more powerful if they are trusted authorities, using wisdom of wiser, trusted authorities ... or one's own wisdom.

Catholics can say that neglection is also a sin, Buddhists speak of taking over responsibility - sometimes withholding oneself from action is harmful, but often it's better to restrain arms still.

Hatred never defeated Hatred, only Love can defeat Hatred; i prefer Peace to War, anyway.

i think one should follow Buddha's advices, to not take lives of others, to not harm when not neccessary - and when it's neccessary, use least amount of power in the skillful, least harming way that ensures safety.

i think one should first & foremost focus on self-development, on becoming purer, better person, more compassionate & wise. Mahakala Activity is mostly about that - about protecting inner values within ourselves, about staying true to pure teachings, to shine internally. Before changing world for the better, change yourself for the better. As in a Chinese proverb - before you set out to change the world, walk your home three times. That is, check your interiors first, your mind, place where you live - see if there's mess. By mess i understand not only dust or garbage on floor or litter in a corner, but also things that are unneccessary, harmful to the Way.

The more pure internally one is, the more ready one is to protect others & oneself externally, i believe.

i think best of Protection should be Gentle, i think too many focus on Power over Others only, neglecting internal purity, harmlessness, gentleness ... i think one should develop many methods, some weaker, gentler, some more powerful. Then learn responsibility when using these, then use these.

i am not afraid of death, i offer my services as a Gentle Protector on Mahakala Way to Lama Ole Nydahl & to HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje, as well as to others whom i trust, in whom my trust grows - this includes Masters of the Shaolin Buddhist Temple, as well.

Mistrust.

Introduction.

i think too much of trust is a weakness.

i think too much of mistrust is even worse, weakness as well.


About.

As time progress, i trust certain people more, and certain people less.

My trust is growing in:
* a Buddhist woman i Love,
* HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje,
* Lama Ole Nydahl,
* Isabelle Meuriot (Nerialka on DeviantART),
* HH Buddha Dalai Lama 14th Tenzin Gjaco,
* Karol Ślęczek,
* Rafał Olech from Stupa House Buddhist Center,
* Meike Herzog from Europe Center,
* Samahita Thera, Bhikku Samahita from Sri Lanka,
* Marek Dembiński (Paldron) from Stupa House Buddhist Center,
* Karolina Boboli from Stupa House Buddhist Center,
* a few of other people.

My trust is weakening toward:
- Rest of Sangha,
- other people.

i think it's unwise to trust those who nurture their egos too much - even if they are from Sangha.

i had experiences that because of selfish motivations & flawed meditation of Sangha, my ego became too auto-destructive.

My ego is creating weaknessess in my mentality - causes spending money carelessly, dragging me into intoxicants & addictions, attacks my attempts at finding work & more.


See also, if You wish: 'Friendship' on 'My Way to France' blog.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Spells.

Raven's Eyes, Awaken!
Pentacle of Mists & Shadows, Awaken!
Hindrances Severing Knife, Awaken!
Raven's Eyes, Awaken!

Blessed be.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste.

Loving Eyes through Veils.

Introduction.

This time some thoughts & experiences so others might criticize or advise if they wish.


Loving Eyes through Veils.

At a certain level of realization, perhaps we can perceive through our own senses, but at our whim we can look through other being's eyes, or can perceive other beings' Mind, states, thoughts, feelings.

Had insights that this can be smartly combined - abstract, high level of abstraction thoughts can appear in Mind, that tell in short - without details - how a being, or a group of beings experiences world. Had insights that highly realized beings can quickly access the details if needed - perhaps usually it isn't needed.

Had insights that with a focus, perhaps with closed eyes, Abstract Buddha Forms visions, mantras or other perceptions might appear in Mind, telling highly realized beings - how to act to help many beings at once, which mantras to speak, which practices to follow.

This affects many at once, without wasting time. But i also had insights that highly realized beings can look into details of any particular being, or a group - whenever they wish.

Had insights that our Actions, Practices & Mantras do affect the insights & visions of Buddha Forms of the more realized beings, it's a sort of a feedback, a form of communication with betters on a Buddhist Way - a feedback that might affect practices of higher realized beings, that affect us again, showing us the shortest route to Liberation & Enlightenment.


i've experienced thoughts & visions that spoke abstractly about individual people or groups, but these were imprecise - as seen through veils, through veils of Mind, through ignorance, confusion, through other disturbing feelings & thoughts as well.

i think i am learning that way, my insights about others are seen with Loving Eyes - but through Mind's Veils - so these are idealistic, but imperfect often, sometimes misleading still.

i try to see Enlightening Qualities of others, perceive them as closer to Perfection than they are, but through Mind's Veils still. This leads to initial admiration of their Inner Values & to a disenchantment when in real life they turn to be different than Perfection i perceive in them.

...


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Refuge, the Hook & Ring Method.

During the Buddhist Course in which i took Refuge in Lama Ole Nydahl, i heard words from Lama Ole Nydahl:

'Refuge works like Hook & Ring - one Extends Hook, then it is caught by Ring to pull up'.

i think such hooks are our weaknessess that we share with Sangha, including our Teachers.

Such hooks can be used to pull someone up or down, either to secure someone against weaknesses, or to use against them.

When i was told to leave Buddhist Center - as too much of meditation would be harmful to me - someone had to carry that message - tension appeared.

Same was when i was cast out from Sangowe.info forum because of my mental illness - tension appeared again.

With time i got insights that these people who told me to go away felt that if they won't 'control insane person' (me) as i went outside - i'll be a danger to them.

Had many of insights that they observe me, collect hooks & used often in unenlightening ways - to their benefits.

i think it's irresponsible attitude, to take advantage of someone weaker, to one on insight's way, on 'outsider's way'.

i think we should not abuse hooks, knowledge of friends' weaknessess against them.

i think we should support weaker, letting them advance, instead of controlling them 'under us'.

Emptiness.

i think i experienced Samvega, appreciated by Buddhist Monk Bhikku Samahita, Samahita Thera from Sri Lanka.

i think i experienced impermanence & suffering to a certain degree in my life as well.

i think this leads to understanding Emptiness, to understanding ideas of Mind,
of Consciousness & of No-Self.

i think - but probably it's imperfect still to think that way - i think we are Consciousness ... the feelings, mind states & reality we cognize are nonpermanent, are changing, are causes of suffering.

i think non-permanent nature of Ego, as well as non-permanent nature of Self is key to understanding idea of No-Self, is key to Liberation.

i think concept of Ego emerges from early childhood & from previous lives - we perceive something 'external', then this duality makes us separate between 'perceiver', 'perceived object' & 'act of observation'. i read it's false concept, in truth there's only consciousness as a whole, instead - where 'perceiver', 'perceived object' & 'act of observation' are together, a unity, a whole.

it's mostly conceptual thinking for now, my experience is limited still.

i've learned from the Internet Video Lessons of Bhikku Samahita, Samahita Thera a little about Emptiness & related Ideas.

i wish to learn similar lessons from Lama Ole Nydahl or from HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje as well, if possible, as soon as possible - but not at all cost.

What is, and how 'Self' develops ?

'Self' in Buddhism.

Quoting from 'Buddha & Love' book by Lama Ole Nydahl, 'Self' is 'the physical-emotional mixture one believes themselves to be'.


'Self' in Jungian Psychology.

'Self' is alternative concept to 'Ego' in Jungian Psychology; ... in a polish language 'Self' is translated to 'Jaźń'; ... in a german language it's 'das Selbst'.

'Self' is archetype, holding personal unity & wholeness of a human, in both 'individual dimension', as well as in the 'group dimension', in both conscious & unconscious life aspects.

'Self' is archetype of fullness, compleness, of psychological whole.

'Whole' is true source of the meaning of word 'Holy', in Buddhism, probably in other Religions as well.

In this sense, 'Self' is the destination instance of the 'Ego Development', inborn possibility of everyone. But perhaps Buddhism goes beyond that, even more.

'Self' development is related with important ideas, with religious values, with needs, with authorities.

In Jungian Psychology, a human is born with 'Self' - primal, central, soul center. Then ego is created by human & shaped by surroundings - secondary soul center. Self-development & Self-discovery in psychotherapy, return to self, ... - is crowning of the process for building one's personality, of self-fulfillment, of finding the treasure, of discovering the philosopher's stone.

-- Paraphrased from 'Jungian Psychology's Basics' book by Zenon Waldemar Dudek.


See also, if You wish: Jungian Archetypes.


'Individuation' in Jungian Psychology.

Dynamic relation between 'ego' & 'Self', is in Jungian Psychology explained as ego-Self axis.

There's mention of 'individuation', development where:
- 'inflation' occurs when 'ego' closes to 'Self'.
- 'alienation' occurs when there's loss of bond with this archetype or with other archetype(s).

When one tries to develop Self, unavoidable are illusions, fascinations & disenchantments.

-- Paraphrased from 'Jungian Psychology's Basics' book by Zenon Waldemar Dudek.


See also, if You wish: Individuation Archetypes (Jungian).

Buddhism, Psychology & Reincarnation.

Introduction.

i read in Lama Ole Nydahl's book, that Buddhism differs from Psychology in that it has timeless values that reach beyond one life, including the wisdom about reincarnation.

in Poland, psychology & psychotherapy focuses too much on nurturing ego, while Buddhism encourages altruism, tries to understand impermanence, suffering, emptiness as a way.

i am also interrested in ideas of Mind's Mirror & of Karmic Mirror - but i am clueless on how these are related.

i am interrested in other Mirror-related ideas as well, including Psychological Mirrors & Mind transformations, including Magickal Mirrors - skrying or other, material or not, including Quantum Physics Mirrors as well.

i read that Sangha, Buddhist Community, acts as Mirror for one's development.

i think Lovers on the Enlightened Love Way are Mirrors for each other, helping or supporting each other's development.

i wish our Mirrors to improve, i wish that a Buddhist woman i Love to be as great as possible, and i wish to be worthy of her as well, at least.

Goal of Buddhism is Liberation & Enlightenment.

i don't wish to neglect Esoteric & Magickal Development on my Buddhist Way, however - but not at all cost.

i wish to develop Wisdom & Compassion, that will allow us to reach Enlightenment, Buddhist & Magickal - without neglecting ideas in this article too far.


Reincarnation Revisited.

Feliks Dzierżyński & Goebbels.

i am losing hope of keeping my apartment, i am getting more & more broke as i am being consumed by needs to serve ideas instead of caring for my own needs.

Perhaps i'll lose apartment & land on the streets.

But there's something that gives me hope anyway.

Feliks Dzierżyński used misunderstood people, who were neglected by society & friends, recruited them to his powerful secret police, security & intelligence network.

i am talented & skilled programmer, smart as well - i think i can learn hacking, martial arts, perhaps even shooting & other of the intelligence skills in short enough time to be useful, at least a little. i learn Art & Psychology quickly as well, this can be used in the Manipulation & Propaganda. My father was Video Camera Operator in Polish TV, but he had fault - he admired Adolf Hitler & Goebbels too much. i am not Nazi nor Fascist.

i am disciplined to my ideas, and these do not exclude countering enemies of Poland, of Europe, of States, of Israel, ... - i am determined to fight against Terrorist & Inquisition threats, as well.

i am mentally ill, but i can efficiently & quickly be prepared by a psychologist for a task, anyway. i know how to talk & cooperate with them.

Perhaps history will repeat itself and i'll rise myself from trash & streets, as an Intelligence recruit.

i hope i won't need, but if neccessity forces me to do so, and if opportunity arises - i will do so.

Eating Meat.

While Buddha advises against killing, Buddhists can eat meat.

In Mahakala Invocation, nectar & meat are offered, more or less.

It makes sense for me, in a way at least, that someone who wishes to self-awaken as Mahakala Buddha should offer meat to himself or herself.

i did hear on a Buddhist Lecture that Buddhists, perhaps Tibetans - i forgot who exactly - did eat meat, they had to for survival.

i read a lesson that Buddha ate everything offered, but i am not sure if and how true is this lesson,
as well.

Had insights that someday i'll cease to eat meat, but for now it's too early for that.

Ego War.

Meditation reduces ego, makes us more think of others, less of ourselves.

Goal is to defeat ego, to reach Liberation, then Enlightenment.

When we think of others more, we become altruists, we forget about ourselves, our egos become altruistic.

It gradually progressess, we just follow our insights, try to help others - fulfilling needs appearing in mind.

It's addicting & tricky feeling, it can reach stage where ego's needs to help others to become better make us become our own enemies - we forget of ourselves too much & destroy our lives by unreasonable behaviour.

Ego's reductionist tendencies accelerate, it becomes anti-ego - self destruction mechanism in ourselves.

When it goes too far, we might 'wake up' - start to wonder what is ego, what is not.

Then thought in mind appears telling us: 'Be that way. Use Your own Mind'.

We start caring for ourselves more, after reducing harmful & self-destructive habits, becoming stronger in the process - with less of self-harm tendencies in mind.

But our lives need to be rebuilt, we caused damage by unreasonable behaviour already.

Too much of meditation might be harmful, might cause self-destruction - one should follow Lama's Advices to survive & prosper.

Alone it's much harder, but insights help with that anyway.

Just went through that stage, not sure how long it lasted - it was like a trance, a 'war trance' against my own ego.

See also, if You wish: ... i hate to complain, meditation ruins life.

Dispersion Dharma - Technomagick.

i won't provide details, but it's what i did in short.

Almost 7 years ago i started to develop Dharma - Technomagick called 'dispersion'.

i meditated, and did far more.

It gives user many advantages, including dispersing mind disturbances, dispersing dispersions & dispersing magick.

It's fairly solid already, but still uncomfortable to use.

Still not at full power, skill & comfort.

It's scheduled to be completed on 7.06.2018, by then it should be far better in many aspects including in lesser karmic & esoteric backslash consequences.

Feel free to learn (by wishing after reading this article), but there's karmic debt to repay associated - it's a lot of work.

i do not force to learn or use.

It's activated by speaking in mind or aloud word: 'dispersion' or 'rozproszenie', it can be used many times, each use is escalates in cost slightly for a while, shorter or longer depending on karma & rank in esoteric circles mostly, but art / science involvement also is for advantage.

See also: Dispersion Dharma - Technomagick on Paco, Knife & Tarot Cards.

Knowing Weaknessess, Your Power.

About.

i admire China.

i do not wish to be enemy of China, mostly because of the Shaolin Buddhism.

i think Chinese are most underestimated Republic in the World, Buddhas even more. it's their Strength, not weakness - i am sure of that.

There's thought leading to Victory: 'Know Yourself, Know Enemy'.

While it's important to know oneself & enemy, it's far more important to know oneself, it's far more important to know weaknessess than strenghts - then work to improve.

i am on a psychotherapy, but i think that Polish Catholic Psychotherapy strengthens egos far too much.

Today i got insights, thoughts & feelings appeared in Mind.

Got insights that Great Buddhist Chinese Psychologist woman associated with Shaolin initiated mind-contact with me, that i'll have telepathic psychotherapy with her.

it's the Great Privilege, i think ... i decided to see her as Buddha to receive blessing as from Buddha. insights told me she will see herself as Buddha as well for that.

We'll focus on Discipline, Weaknesses, on Protecting Women in the Gentle, Loyal & Powerful Way - including their Feelings, Energy, Security & Style. i need that.

i do not wish to be enemy of China, even that Chinese Conquered Tibet. i wish to serve China against Terror Threats for the price of Tibet's Freedom, True Freedom.

It's beneficial & brilliant move for China, as they turn Potential Enemy against other Enemy - one of Greatest Wins.

It's beneficial & brilliant move for me as well, as i Love Buddhist Shaolin & Martial Arts, i wish to be More like Chinese - hard working people with great discipline, philosophy & style among other Qualities.

China is very Buddhist Nation.

i think Chinese Martial Arts Wisdom is Great & Internally Beautiful, it shines with the Patience & Compassion on Many Levels.

i wish to learn that Wisdom very Well, especially Martial Arts Wisdom of Buddhist Chinese Shaolin Monastery.

i wish to remain Loyal to HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje & Lama Ole Nydahl, using idea of 'Doctrine Loyalty' can be better than it seems.

But my only wish is Enlightened & Magickal Love with a Buddhist woman & i know which.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Three Expressions.

Introduction.

Buddha Shakyamuni was born as a Prince, but he sought greater Attainments - he preferred to not be a King, he wishes all beings Enlightenment - even if not fully understanding it at first.

i had insights that Buddha's Way is the Way of Kings & Slaves, where one starts with Power, then Serves, then Becomes Enlightened.


A Quote.

'Three precious expressions of compassion motivate three practical expressions of kindness: that of the king, the ferryman, the herdsman. Any one may be chosen, but it is advisable to start with what is closest to one's nature. First and well known throughout history, but tragic if the ego has not transcendent, is the role of the king. In the best case king thinks, "When i am strong, I will benefit everyone." Then, there is the compassion of the ferryman. He takes everyone along thinking, "Now we all leave confusion and together go to the shore of human growth." Finally, in religions that flatter their adherents by comparing them to sheep, there is the role of a herdsman. He habitually thinks of others before himself. He lives by the idea: Whoever thinks of himself has difficulties, but whoever thinks of others has interresting tasks to do.'

-- Quoted from 'The Way Things Are' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.


Blog author's Way.

i think i started with king's attitude for developing professionally as Computer Programmer, even if not with bestly infailible compassion.

i did achieve much on that way, then was dissilusioned - it was too lonely way, i understood that King is alone in his castle afterall.

i sought Buddhism as a Way of finding Love & Company, and embarked on the Ferryman Way, with goal of being the King of Ferrymen oneday.

i wished to follow Buddha's Way, including begging & ascethics if neccessary. it happened in my life as well.

... as a funny side note i ate 'Prince Polo' Chocolate Waffers a lot, to be more like the Prince Shakyamuni.

... today i connected dots and understood that one is what one eats afterall. ;)

i've considered if i am worthy to be Prince, perhaps i am not.

... but i think i can accept responsibilities of the Prince of Ferrymen, working harder, even without that title.

Years ago Lama Ole Nydahl called me 'noble' in his email letter to me, this ennobled me & inspired to act in the Noble (Spiritually) Way.

My hair was cut during the Refuge Course by Hannah Nydahl, ennobling act as well, i think.

Recently the Prince Arthur Luis Pagan invited me to be his facebook friend.

i do not know if i am a Prince, i do not need to know that. i do not need prestige nor proofs, i fight for Enlightened & Magickal Love with a Buddhist woman, and i know which, instead.

i try to Protect those i care for anyway. i consider it noble, especially if done without harm. Purity of Dharma Teachings is most Important as well, this includes revealing dishonestly, untruth, traitors & falseness. Protecting anyway.

That's all about the Three Enlightening Ways, if all are Enlightening, then they are Equal. King or Prince is just a role in Society, as anyone's Role.

i think i am not ready to accept the Role & Responsibilities of the King of Ferrymen just yet, however.

i care for Love & Enlightenment the most anyway.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Timeless Values & Love.

Love as the Way for Enlightenment.

'Though everyone harbors the hope that something or someone will one day bring them lasting happiness, this, unfortunately, does not work in the long run.

No matter how much time and energy, backed by strong and personal expectations, that one might invest, one's "self" (the physical-emotional mixture one believes themselves to be) and "outside" objects and beings change all the time and will ultimately vanish. And so, understandably, none of them can provide lasting happiness.

The only possibility to definitively escape this cycle and experience timeless, highest joy is to go beyond one's existing attachments and instead use means like meditation and a beyond-personal view to gradually recognize the timeless experiencer behind all experiences.

-- Quoted from 'Buddha & Love' by Lama Ole Nydahl.


Refuge.

i think as one fights for love, both before, during, and after living with partner, one should not deny the Refuge - it's how Love can be Enlightening, it's how it can last, it's how it can bring happiness & meaning to lovers', their family's & friends' lives.


'Taking refuge means orienting oneself toward lasting values.

The objects in all Buddhist schools are:
* the Buddha - one's goal,
* the Dharma - his teachings as one's way,
* the Sangha - the realized friends and helpers anlong the way,

and above all in the Diamond Way:

* the Lama - the realized teacher who transmits and is part of a transmission lineage.

A bond with such a teacher marks the beginning of an exceptionally rapid development. This is because the lama connects the student with the timeless methods and wisdom of all Buddhas. He unites blessing, inspiring methods, and protection.'

-- Quoted & edited part of the 'Buddha & Love' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.

Understanding Saudi Arabia.

About.

i am not an expert, but i have something important to say.

i think many of our Karma Kagyu Sangha Oppose Saudi Arabia & Islam too much.

It's not as obvious as it seems, for our talks are a form of relations, a protocol - i think, to transform Karma for benefit of all.

Yet, it's still too much in my opinion.

Islam is not the Cause of Terrorism in my opinion, i think the Main Cause of World's Terrorism is Israeli-Palestinian Conflict.

Poverty & Desperation are also Causes of Terrorism.

Saudi Arabians are mostly poor, their most precious resource is Oil - but it will deplete eventually.

i think Arabians & Muslims invest in Education, so they have something to offer when other Resources are depleted eventually.

i think this is mostly for the better to support them in this type of fight.

But i think there are other Resources they have, for example - Sand used in Silicon Production, Silicon is used in Computer Parts production - among other things, as well.

i am not Enemy of Islam & Muslim Nations, only of the Terror & Inquisition.

Terrorism is not only Islamic, however.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Beings & Phenomena.

About.

During a Buddhist Lecture, i learned from the Buddhist Teacher - from Tomek Lenhert - that Beings differ from Phenomena in that Beings have Mind and Phenomena do not have Mind.

That's the Buddhist definition of Beings & Phenomena.

i think Phenomenas can be inner or realized in External Form.

Beings - for example Humans or Animals - can be communicated with, can react & affect other Beings or Phenomena.

Phenomena still can be 'talked' to, as for example in the case of Computers.

Computers can react to messages sent to them - for example via the Internet or via User Interface - possibly affecting other Beings and/or Phenomena as well.


See also, if You wish: Transmission of the Art.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Love Mind.

Introduction.

When one gives one should take as well, when one takes one should give as well.

There's meditation called Tonglen for that.

i think Love should be learned on Mind Level first, then realized with Speech & Body.

It's the long, dangerous & emotionally draining fight, but perhaps i'll succeed in this life.


Fascination.

Fascination is one of the Four Buddha Activities.

i think it's great responsibility, when abused it causes great harm to others - resulting for terribly bad karmic consequences for everyone involved.


Love, Care & Friendship.

i have such an experience:

When i studied at the Warsaw University Computer Sciences, i had great grades but this wasn't enough.

i craved Love, felt Very Lonely.

Problem was - i wasn't attractive at all, yet i needed such experience badly.

i found a solution - Love Lessons on Mind level in the Online Computer Game.

It was mess, as i didn't know how to start well.

i abused, and was abused even more - this resulted in over 5 years of severe depression, mental illness, terribly intense & bad emotional pain, somatic symptoms as vomiting from pain, thinking problems & suicide attempts.

Yet, i found a friend who helped me recover - i learned these Love Lessons on Mind Level in this very game - from a beautiful witch from France, Nerialka.

These Lessons of Love lasted for about a Year of her precious Youth, she gave it for me.

i learned Beautiful & Intense French Love with the Great Style, from Young & Beautiful Woman - i think she's Young & Sexy Witch with Great Power & Style.

She is married with someone else, but we are friends still.

i Love her as a whole, with her husband, son, family & cat(s). i do not wish to break her family, only support her on her Way.

i owe her that and i feel & think that she cares still.

Occasionally we talk via the Internet, sharing news - she accepts that, on condition it's not in excess.

i fight for Enlightened & Magickal Love with a Buddhist Woman, and i know which - also by supporting Nerialka, but others as well.


Abuses.

i warn against emotional abuses:
- when someone cares, do care as well,
- let others fight for love, but not at all cost,
- do not fascinate to abuse, do not insult fascinated people - this results in aversion at least, often to far worse reactions as hatred & revenge.

but also:
- do NOT abuse sexually.




-=- Art Project for Love. -=-
(Click to enlarge image).


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Reductions.

About.

i think Reductions are important part of Buddhism & of other Ways.

When one is Realized too much, one has to Reduce itself.

For example, when someone is purer internally but less realized, and starts to leave - those who abused him or her with more Realized ways have to Reduce themselves, then develop internally & Realize old & new Ways again - but this time more skillfully.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Integral Ways.

-=- 'Wind near Pond', one of my photo - arts. -=-


About.

i think focusing is important, but being versatile even more - especially when one is outnumbered.

i think one should have a way in which he or she is strongest, as well as many other ways.

i think Buddhism is the most important Way, at least for me - even if i am not strongest in it as of yet.

i think development on many ways is key to versatility, but all of the ways should support each other, should be integral.


Wishes.

i wish all of my ways - Buddhism, Esoterics, Arts & Sciences should support each other, but not at all cost.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Inner Perfection.

Introduction.

In Buddhism, Inner Values are far more important than External Values as money or good looks.


Inner Values.

What's inside, manifests externally with time - thoughts become words & actions, physical looks change, style improves or detoriates, money can be earned or wasted, perhaps more.


Loyality.

i think when lessons are valuable, internally perfect - beings are attracted to a teacher who gives them.

i think when teacher is impure, students leave - seeking those who helped such a 'teacher' to recruit them - probably doing most or all of the hard work.

How to unaddict oneself from a teacher? By paying karmic debts - favours for favours, or other way(s).

Impure teachers addict their Students to themselves or drugs, or forbid them Freedoms using other ways. i think it's harmful sectarian way to forbid Freedoms.


Wishes.

i wish all beings Freedoms, Compassion, Wisdom, Love, Protection, Inner & External Perfections - both an ability to give & to experience these qualities within themselves & from others.

i wish to improve myself Internally, to cultivate Inner Values, to become more Perfect Internally as time progress, for benefit of all - including myself.


Commentary.

i think that from a Good Will & Sincere Truth, when Realized with Patience, Hard Work & Endurance - Inner Perfection emerges.

i think when Inner Perfection improves, then one is on right track to reach Greatness - one's Karma becomes better.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Wisdom & Skillful Means.

Wisdom comes from experience, it's knowledge about life's aspects.

There's Enlightening Wisdom that is neccessary step for Enlightenment, as well as Worldly Wisdoms useful in many other ways.

i think Worldly Ways can support the Enlightenment's Cause, can support others in reaching Enlightenment, can be transformed into Enlightening Qualities.

i had insights - not sure if true - that Skillful Means are Realized Wisdoms.

i had insights - that Realization is a word that explains how real something is in our lives. There are Realization Levels, including Skillful Means' Realization Levels.

i had insights - that Skillful Means can support or counter other Skillfull Means or Worldly Ways.

Samvega.

Introduction.

i got this lesson pointed to me by Buddhist Monk, Samahita Thera, Bhikku Samahita who also thanked me & called friend.

i feel honored and appreciated.

i read description of Samvega on Wikipedia, and noticed it's present in my life, but perhaps not completely.


Samvega.

Saṃvega is a Pali Buddhist term which indicates a sense of shock, anxiety and spiritual urgency to reach liberation and escape the suffering of samsara.

According to Thanissaro Bhikku, saṃvega is the 'first emotion you're supposed to bring to the training' and can be defined as:

'The oppressive sense of shock, dismay, and alienation that come with realizing the futility and meaninglessness of life as it's normally lived; a chastening sense of our own complacency and foolishness in having let ourselves live so blindly; and an anxious sense of urgency in trying to find a way out of the meaningless cycle.'

Saṃvega is also associated with the development of energy (viriya) and right effort, according to Buddhagosa's Atthasālinī:

Energy has exerting as its characteristic, strengthening the co-existent states as function, and opposition to giving way as manifestation.

It has been said: 'He in whom saṃvega is present exerts himself properly,' hence energy has saṃvega, or the basic condition of making energy as proximate cause.

Right exertion should be regarded as the root of all attainments. - DhsA. 121

There are eight bases of saṃvega (saṃvega vatthu). They are 'birth, old age, sickness, death, suffering in the woeful worlds, the round of suffering as rooted in the past, the round of suffering as rooted in the future, and the round of suffering in the search for food in the present.'

Saṃvega can therefore be developed by practicing meditation on death (maranasati) and the charnel ground meditations as outlined in the Satipatthana sutta. In the Upajjhatthana Sutta the Buddha taught that everyone (monks and householders) should practice the five daily recollections as a way to arouse energy and saṃvega.

For saṃvega to be an effective drive to practice, it must be accompanied by another emotion called pasada, a 'clarity and serene confidence.' Pasada is what keeps saṃvega from turning into nihilistic despair by providing a sense of confidence that there is a way out, namely nibbana'.

Source: Wikipedia.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Teaching Students as Rivals.

Introduction.

This is probably the most controversial Non-Sectarian Thought & Lesson i have, i badly need Protection, Wisdom & Guidance of the Best from HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje's School, Lineage & Sangha to not fail, to not betray as well.

i do not wish to be a traitor, but not at all cost.

i do not wish others to follow my example & fail, as well - but again, not at all cost.


My background experiences.

When i was a kid, i played mage Attentus in Roleplaying Games.

He had Philosophy that Master succeeds when his or her student defeats him or her in the nonlethal duel - while both fight to the end.

i think this has uses in Buddhism, but it's extremely difficult to perform & not fail.

i think word 'Master' does not have to have negative meaning, it can be no less to the 'Teacher', even according to Buddhism. i think not all of Masters abuse or constrain students' good will.


Examples.

i think Buddhas Compete, by Supporting other Buddhas & Criticizing, so all can still develop.

i think this has examples in our School, Sangha & Lineage, with Black Hat Karmapa & Red Hat Karmapa as most important.


Challenges.

Student should learn Wisdom, Compassion & Responsibility - so after defeating Master, won't abuse his or her 'superiority'.

i think everyone has potential for benefitting from this Lesson, we have uses for Rivals & people with Really Bad Karma.

Rivals include Ogyen Trinley Dorje & his Sangha, as well as others both in our & other Schools.

i think we have uses for people with Really Bad Karma, even for Adolf Hitler Reincarnated & for even Worse cases - these people know how to Protect once they have Compassion & Wisdom.

Yes, i wish to learn how to Teach them as well, how to defeat me Safely, Wisely, Compassionately & Responsibly, after nonlethal the fight to the end.


Wishes.

i wish for Protection, Wisdom & Guidance of the Best from HH Buddha Karmapa Trinley Thaye Dorje's School, Lineage & Sangha for those who need it, including me.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Arhat.

Introduction.

'Theravada Buddhism defines arhat (Sanskrit) or arahant (Pali) as 'one who is worthy' or as a 'perfected person' having attained nirvana.

Other Buddhist traditions have used the term for people far advanced along the path of Enlightenment, but who may not have reached full Buddhahood.'

Source: Wikipedia.


Commentary.

Theravada Buddhism's goal is to attain Liberation, Lesser Nirvana.

Mahayana & Vajrayana Buddhism's goal is to attain Enlightenment, Great Nirvana.

Enlightenment occurs after Liberation, after one wishes for it.

Grevious misconduct of Killing Arhat denies one access to Buddha's Teachings for very long time,
i think for many incarnations - it's terribly bad karma.

Sources: Buddhist Lecture(s), Buddhist Text(s).


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

OM KALACHAKRA SOHA
OM AMI DEWA HRI

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Sangha.

About.

'Sangha (Tib. Gendun): the community of practitioners, often used to designate a Buddhist group.

As part of Buddhist refuge, it indicates the realized friends on the way.'

-- Quoted from 'Buddha & Love' book by Lama Ole Nydahl.

Being Useful.

Introduction.

i think it's common problem in modern society to think that being useful can be reduced to working & paying taxes.

While taxes help to fund welfare & social benefits for more unfortunate than succesful, it's too narrow thinking - i think.


Being useful.

i think world needs compassion & kindness, education & empathy - not only materialistic gains.

Different people have different needs, and not everything money can provide.

But even then, money helps in fight for fulfilling needs as Love, Family, Peaceful Life or other Nonmaterial Values or Rare Goods.

From a Buddhist perspective, Lama Ole Nydahl authored a book 'Being Useful', or 'Być Pożytecznym' in Polish Language.

i do not have this book yet, but i try to be useful for others anyway.

i wish to buy & read this book nevertheless - i wish to do this when it's Enlightening.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Mathematics as a Way.

About.

During the Buddhist Lecture with Lama Ole Nydahl, i had insights.

Thoughts appeared in Mind, thoughts that told me that Lama Ole Nydahl wishes me to go to Warsaw University again, to study & complete Mathematics.

i've already studied Mathemathis in past, but wasn't prepared enough to graduate.

This time i understand need to prepare not only to be admitted to University, but also to prepare to complete studies as well.

i think studying Mathematics will help me in Computer Sciences & with other Sciences as well, more than finishing Computer Sciences studies, anyway.

i wish to write Master's Degree on Cryptography - mostly in the Modern Quantum Cryptography, but not only - related with Computer Security - but also prepare in other fields as well - for Art, with Fractals - and with other Mathematics useful for other Sciences.

i think Sangha does not appreciate Sciences enough, that Arts & Speech are very important but still overvalued when compared to Sciences.

i think the Cause is that in Buddhism we develop Mind, Speech & Body and that from a Buddhist perspective Enlightening Wisdom is worth far more than Worldly Sciences & other Delusions.

i think that Sangha does not trust Scientists, because of understanding lacks, envy & pride.

i think many more talented & developed Scientists suffer under more trusted but less Scientific Buddhists that way, unfortunately. i think their talents are supressed for wishes of Sangha are to be worse than more Buddhism-oriented are, to not endanger them - it's foolish thought as well, i think.

Had thoughts that suggest that it's considered by many that it's not worthwhile to be a scientist without great karma, without Sangha's inner politics merit, that it's better to develop speech than sciences - even if it brings benefit in following lives.

i think this has something to do with lack of scientists in Tibet & other Buddhist nations, that we suffer because of such attitudes. i think that Buddhist Teachers are Wiser than that, but rest of Sangha - not enough.

i think Mathematics is an expression form as well, the Language of the Universe.

But other forms of speech allow to insult easier, so Scientist suffer from abuse from less ambitious people.

i plan to develop in Mathematics as well, following Lama Ole Nydahl's wish & motivation - but won't go to extreme, to not suffer so much. i wish to develop in other Arts & Speech as well.

i Love Arts more than sciences, for i am beginner & i lack. But i am far more knowledgeable & disillusioned with Sciences - mostly in Computer Sciences & Programming - than in Arts. i'll serve Buddhist Art with my Sciences anyway, but other Arts & Ways will benefit as well. Buddhism is most important to me, and it will remain so. But in Sciences i am Wiser, more Experienced & Knowledgeable than in Buddhism & Arts. Esoterics is also a very important for me, as well.

i'll also Protect other Scientists from insults & slander, with my Arts, Sciences & articles such as this as well - it's part of my Way. Mostly young Scientists, for they need it most. Then old Scientists for they help best. Then middle-aged scientists for they also need.


Mantras.

OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
MA DAG MA
OM MANI PEME HUNG
MA DAG MA

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

'Stupid Wisdom'.

... i am a fool, but i try to develop at least Stupid Wisdom.


Introduction.

When one meets another, one can act or react with compassion or wisdom, with stupidity or aggression.

Stupidity often implies aggression - it's stupid to attack people, i think it's insidious opening for an attack by pretending to be more stupid than one is.

Because of my experiences - i am wary of words: 'i don't understand', 'i don't know', 'why?', ...; These words can act as Mantras spoken in presence of others, setting a tone & a stance to someone for future relations.

In Buddhism, Woman is Considered Wisdom as well - i heard from friend in Buddhist Center, from friend who involved me in Buddhism.


Reaction Stances.

Because of my thoughts arising in mind, i think when one meets another, possible openings/reactions are:
- Compassion (best & gentlest of reactions, one wishes no harm to others),
- Attack with Compassion (stronger reaction, especially in the long run - one is compassionate to others to gain advantage; it's still good reaction and wise when approaching enemies/opponents with compassion),
- Wisdom (it's even a stronger-stance reaction, but many consider it quite cruel. it's not bad at all when one tries to understand someone first to use compassion wisely later, but when one develops only wisdom without compassion it's cruel indeed),
- Stupidity (strongest reaction at first, fast opening - but is doomed to yield to wisdom later. it's quite aggresive & hostile, as one does not even try to understand another person, insidiously pretends to be stupid or is stupid in an attempt to gain something from another).


Stupid Wisdom.

What then is a Stupid Wisdom?

i think it's Stupidity & Wisdom mixed.

Before true Wisdom is attained, one starts from basics - from Lesser Wisdoms, from foundations of Greater Wisdom.

There's strong opening there as well - as one fights for Wisdom one needs to be Strong, so often does Stupid things until he or she matures enough to reach for the Greater Wisdom as well.

Does Lesser Wisdom equal to Stupid Wisdom?

i think not, there's the difference. One does not need to be stupid to learn wisdom, but not everyone is strong enough to dare for that Greater Way.

i still start with Manjushri Mantras as i wish to develop Stupid Wisdom, as i start from basics & want it to develop into True Wisdoms eventually.


Wisdom Bodhisattvas & Buddhas.

Buddha is Enlightened Being, one who Fully Realized Wisdom & Compassion.

Boddhisattva is one who strives for Enlightenment, for Buddha State, for good of all beings.


There are Wisdom Buddhas & Wisdom Bodhisattvas, with their Mantras.


Five Wisdom Buddhas' Mantras are:

OM VAIROCHANA OM
OM AKSHOBHYA HUM
OM RATNASAMBHAVA TRAM
OM AMITABHA HRIH
OM AMOGHASIDDHI AH


Bodhisattva of Wisdom's, Manjushri's Mantra is:

OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH


Wishes.

i wish to learn Stupid Wisdom as a Way of Reaching Greater Wisdoms - Worldly, Spiritual & Enlightening, for benefit of all.

i wish to learn Stupid Wisdoms that at a first glance appear as a stupid jokes at best, but in depth are Extremely Wiser than it seems, that are Deep & Meaningful as well.

i wish to use Compassion with my Stupid Wisdom, so every being benefits eventually, even if sometimes set at inconvenience at first because of initial Stupidity.

i wish to share my Wisdoms, both Stupid Wisdoms, Lesser Wisdoms & Greater Wisdoms with other beings, for benefit of all.

i wish to share my Wisdoms with a good style & art, for benefit of all.


Mantras.

MA DAG MA
OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
MA DAG MA

OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

MA DAG MA

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Reality is Illusion, Worldly Knowledge is Delusions.

A poem.

'Reality is Illusion,
Worldly Knowledge is Delusions.

Wise men do separate,
What's a light from what's a raft.

It is written in old lore,
Wisdom gone other shore.

Bits of knowledge carry there,
Where light is everywhere.

Worldly wisdom is Delusions,
Dharma lore - other shore.

Wise men do use rafts,
To help people, earn Dharma.

Using rafts we do can reach,
Place where light abundant.

Even if Delusions only,
For a while rafts do last.'


Commentary.

Above poem is a commentary to the 'Heart Sutra', that mentions 'wisdom going to the other shore', on one's Way to Enlightenment.

In above poem reality is illusion as it's play of light & shadow, that it's not set in stone - changes constantly, what is firm & real at first becomes obsolete in next moment.

Conditions change constantly, start to hold, hold, cease to hold, or don't hold - as the time flows.

Worldly Knowledge is full of delusions, can last for a while then be replaced with another wisdoms or sciences later. Scientific theorems are proven or disproven as time progress, what seems next big thing might turn to be nothing, just a delusion by a single scientific proof. Even if wisdom or science (also worldly wisdom) turns obsolete, it might reappear and prove useful in another times when conditions change.

Worldly Knowledge might be useful still in it's time frame, however. More importantly, it can serve to protect the causes of Enlightenment for All.

Worldly Knowledge can be a tool using which one can 'pay' for Dharma Lessons that lead to Liberation & Enlightenment.

In other words, this blog's author thinks that worldly knownledge can be a 'raft', that can be used to reach 'other shore' on the Way to Liberation & Enlightenment. After reaching 'other shore' rafts are no longer needed, there are other wisdoms & other useful methods there.

And finally, quoting a Buddhist Teacher (I won't tell his name here) from Warsaw Buddhist Meditation Center (In Warsaw, Poland, in Europe): 'One can use Form to go beyond the Form', which means that samsaric methods can be used to go beyond samsara, to reach Liberation & Enlightenment.


See also, if You wish: Perfecting Wisdom.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.


Links:
- Delusion & Illusion in Zen Buddhism.

Time.

Introduction.

In past i've read in Lama Ole Nydahl's book that the most precious thing we have is our Time.

i think the time of others should be respected & appreciated, especially if it's time of girl's youth if You are a boy in need.


Advantage.

How to fight for the Time Advantage?

i am still developing methods, but ideas are:
- Time Awareness,
- Respecting the Time of oneself & of others,
- Kalachakra Vows & Initiations,
- Wisdom & Responsibility,
- Noble Attitude & Compassion.
- Respect for Older,
- Respect for Wiser - even if they are Young,
- Discipline,
- Ambitions & Aspirations - Especially for Kalachakra Way,
- Respect for Clocks of the Universe.


Wishes.

i wish to fight for the Time Advantage, for Enlightenment & Wisdom.

Wisdom is mentioned here to honor & address the needs of the Spiritual Ways - not only Buddhism's.

i wish to fight for meaningful victories, not settling for trifle ones if it's waste of time - working & fighting tirelessly when needed or neccessary, as well.


Mantras.

OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

History's Lessons.

About.

'Forget not the days of old, and recall the stories told'.

Many of the beings honor their Ancestors, trying to follow their paths in their days.

History likes to repeat itself, by criticizing errors of the past, we prevent them from reappearing in present & in future.

'It's winners who write history'.

But historians also rewrite it - and very efficiently - they warn against historical events reappearing, both on small and larger scales.

Often events of the past are recreated in another times, to counter or reinforce other events' reoccurance.

This blog's author's way includes such 'rewriting of history' - of mostly of Buddhist & Esoteric events.

i wish to study such history, starting from Buddha's life, to the Golden Dawn & Thelema's origins & background, to the Wicca/Witchcraft's historical lore; other ways & events should be included as well - as needed or neccessary.

i am interrested in artifacts & relics, in Tormas, in holy & magickal items, in archaeology as well - but i read in Lama Ole Nydahl's book that truth, precision & accuracy are more important than old dates of such treasures.

i think Torma (holy hidden treasure) can be found in mind or outside - it can be idea, inspiration or physical item.

i do not wish to be greatest historian ever, just to be great in my selected fields.

Why?

i think that even articles & comments on blogs can have meaning - when they criticize, reinforce or warn - affecting present & future, drawing from past.

i think Buddhism, Esoterics, Art (including historical Art) & Philosophies will greatly enhance that Way.

i think it's also a way of fighting for Enlightenment, mostly Buddhist & Magickal.

Critics requested & welcome, as i progress on the Way.

'Buddha's Life. Way to Mind's Freedom.' History Book.	'Modern Wicca. A History from Gerald Gardner to the Present.' Gerald Gardner was Wicca's founder, but many see that there are predecessors in earlier times.	'The Essential Golden Dawn.' Overview of the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn. It's a background & history book mostly about this Magickal Tradition.

Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Inner Knife.

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More seriously it's a critic of my own thoughts.

i had insights that church wishes me to write that i carry my inner knife, the most holy symbol of Buddha Mahakala in my Heart.

i think that consequences would be that someone would pray for killing me by putting a knife in the heart so i would go to the heaven ... a knife is a cross, afterall?

i think this would be just too much of envy & pride, of 'stealing the show'.

Who would be blamed if i died? Buddhas - as not able to protect the protector from the holy symbol.

So the Church would shine as the better.

Self Initiation.

The Lessons.

In the Stupa House Buddhist Center i've received the lessons.

One of most important lessons was about Identification.

We try to act as Buddha until we become Buddha.

Another of the most important lesson was about perceiving others as Buddha.

If we perceive other as Buddha we'll receive lesson as from Buddha.


Extensions.

i've called myself neo-mahakala-108 not to insult Buddha Mahakala, but to Identify ... to invoke his power, to realize his Buddha Qualities.

Names have Power, the Old Truth.

Today i had inner lessons, thoughts appeared in mind.

i've bowed before HH Buddha Karmapa 17th Trinley Thaye Dorje's image, but also before my Holstered Knife's image.

Thoughts appeared in mind telling me that most true of Initiations is the Self-Initiation, and Identification is also Self-Initiation.

Thoughts appeared in mind that formal external initiation courses are still worthwhile to participate in, to help others mostly - especially if these initiations are parts of one's way.


Causes.

i think i am lonely for too long, i need enlightened & magickal love.

As a kid i thought about needs of girls to seduce them.

i understood they need sense of security & protection, sense of security even more.

i understood they do not need rude protectors, they need gentle ones.

Later i understood that sense of security comes from real fight, from real protection - others can sense who is friendly & compassionate and who is against. i think it's the base of empathy.

i made a wish to be gentle protector of women.

Later i've trained martial arts.

Later i meditated & sang Mahakala Invocation with Sangha.

Later i performed the Mahakala Invocation Practice in the Stupa House Buddhist Center in Warsaw, for about a Month - along with Tonglen & other Practices - as my own practice beside other standard practices with Sangha.

i think this was the chain of causes for my Identification with neo-mahakala-108 & Self-Initiation that Way.

i think that for those who wish to win the True Love, this is one of the entrances - but prepare for very difficult & thrilling fight, and serious purifications. Even worst sissies can succeed that way if they are patient & dedicated enough, i think. I was considered worst and fattest boy in my school class, yet i see my fast inner & external progress for True Love now. it works in my case so far, so perhaps will work in other cases as well. i am not sure, however - i didn't succeed in creating family as of yet.

Now i understand that real protection also comes from sense of security as well - it works both ways.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Love - Knife.

My Knife in the Holster for the Protection.

Master Cutlery Survivor Black bought on militaria.pl internet shop,
Available without permission - even for mentally ill.


Introduction.

i think most important source of power & strength for me is Love, Enlightened & Magickal.

Without Love i do not wish to live.

i am the very much more lover than fighter, protection is far more important than fight - but love even more.

i prefer to be a very gentle protector as well.

The Protection Buddha is Mahakala, i'll probably realize his Qualities as first of all Buddha Qualities.

Mahakala is also Protecting Energy in Buddhism, Buddhist Protector & Wrathful deity - in lesser, less realized forms.

The most important tool of Mahakala is the Knife, the holy symbol, used to cut all that hinders - i think ego hinders the most.

Mahakala has other tools as well.

Knife is my second source of power & strength - it's holy spiritual symbol, even if lesser to love in my case by far.


The Truth.

Truth is what brings together instead of separating, but honesty is still very important - especially in Spiritual matters.

i trained Martial Arts under Church's Masters, who Respected Buddhism as well.

Japanese Martial Arts mostly, Japan is a very Buddhist Country - but it also has Churches & Religions other than Buddhism.

i decided to make my Martial Arts Enlightening, Efficient, beneficial, Wise, fairly strong & Gentle ... but also a common point between Buddhism, Christianity, Other Religions & Spiritual Ways as well.

i think the Knife has shape alike cross, at least under microscope. i think it's inner cross & pain as well to carry it.

i think it's great source of power & strength in Mahakala's hands, so i ask others to protect it - by countering & securing for Enlightenment & Truth.

If i turn to be traitor to Spiritual Ways, i need Buddhas, Faiths & Spiritual People to make it turn against me, so i won't worsen my karma too much by committing too many of Spiritual Errors. i do not plan nor wish for committing these Errors anyway.

i wish for the Knife to make me more Powerful & Strong in all aspects of life as long as i am loyal to the Enlightened Love, Enlightenment & Truth.

i think countering my Knife & securing can work in both ways & very fast, as in the Armies who secure & cooperate each other - no less.

Armies are merciless to traitors as well.

True Love is merciless to traitors even more, i think & believe as well.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

My Ways - Center is the Most Important.

Priorities.

My Spiritual Ways are mostly as in this Cross.

i think it will evolve into Svastika - aligned to right, then to the Buddhist/Taoist Symbols.

Yet those who care for that - i think it's mostly young Wicca/Witchcraft - should fight still for that, otherwise it will fail.

Svastika is an Ancient Buddhist Symbol, Hitler Stole it from Buddhas.

Importance Order, as is of today (usually Wicca/Witchcraft is on a firm 3rd place, and the Golden Dawn on firm 2nd place):

1. Buddhism,
2. Wicca/Witchcraft,
3. Christianity & the Golden Dawn - but Certainly not Inquisition,
4. Thelema,
5. Islam, but Certainly not Terror.


Prediction.

We shall see yet how it will evolve - it's not set in stone yet.

However, i predict Svastika That Way:
1. Buddhism in the Center,
2. The Golden Dawn on top, then behind it Christianity - but Certainly not Inquisition,
3. Wicca/Witchcraft on left, then behind it Voodoo/Hoodoo,
4. Thelema on right, then behind it Nihilism,
5. Sufism on bottom, then behind it Islam - but Certainly not Terror.


Mantras.

OM MANI PEME HUNG
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
MA DAG MA
OM MANI PEME HUNG

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, Blessed be.

Inspiring Love.

About.

Buddha Karmapa gave up Buddhist Monk's life for Love.

Is it a fault?

i think not.

At least there's much more of love in our sangha.

For many it's benefit not fault, especially for those who fight for love - before or after meeting partner.

For me it's most important, it's great news for me.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

Namaste,
Karmapa Khyenno.

Overconfidence is a Weakness.

About.

Overconfidence is a Weakness - it's always true, even if many consider low ego associated as a weakness instead.

i wish to be underestimated by far, to challenge even the Chinese Intelligence Service with it.

i can serve China against Terrorism, for the price of Tibet's Freedom - and i love Shaolin, so it's not against them.

i wish to buy at least a good quality (or evil depending on a perspective) Chinese LED Flashlight, for martial arts at night & terrorists interrogation.

i think this flashlight has to be of high quality, in durable waterproof case so it can survive striking opponen't body hard, useful for disarming knife, resillent against other hazards, with a powerful if narrow stream of light. it has to weight about 0,25 kg - martial artists have to be fast with their strikes & other methods.

For this to work others must underestimate one not by 1, not by 2, not by 3 ... but by at least by a million of times, probably far more.

i wish to develop being better than it seems, to develop subterfuge in the HH Buddha Karmapa Trinley Thaye Dorje' service far longer than life lasts, for as long as space plays.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

My development plans for next 4-5 years.

About.

My way includes Buddhism, Esoterics, Arts & Sciences.

i need Art, Esoterics & Buddhism to overcome inner obstacles needed to develop in Sciences, to create my Technology.

i need Art, Esoterics & Buddhism to find Love, i think.

My plans for next 4-5 years therefore include focusing on Buddhism, Esoterics, Martial Arts (as needed by Esoterics) & a little of work (as a psychotherapist), and a little of other ways as well.

Creating Technology will occur later probably, even if parts of it will happen sooner.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.

Countering Ego.

Introduction.

Ego is relentless opponent, but can be defeated utterly - that's one of the goals of Buddhism.

Arguably it's one's own ego, but i think that no one exists in separation, that thoughts & feelings can be shared.


Experiences & Insights.

i've experienced 'ego rides' in form of mental ilness symptoms.

Voices in my head insulted me, tried to detract from the Buddhist Way to Liberation & Enlightenment, tried to stall progress, tried to goad to worse deeds.

It felt that i shared thoughts & feelings with other people's egos - who often used it with conscious intent to release anger on me, or to stall my progress so they won't have to worry about me surpassing them too early.

Recent insights offered me to teach me how to counter ego, using Yogin's as well as Monk's methods.

i've accepted offer - to defeat my own ego, as well as other people's egos.

i don't want to involve myself into other people's egos too far, but accepted studying & suffering under them for up to one week as a way of developing counters & lessons for them.

For the worst, exceptional cases - i've accepted studying & suffering for up to one month.

i made a wish that these counters & lessons are Enlightening, beneficial - i don't intend these as a means of revenge.


Wishes.

May all beings have happines and causes of happiness,

May they be free from suffering and the cause of suffering,

May they always experience true happiness, which is totally free from suffering,

May they remain in the great equanimity, which is beyond attachment and aversion.


Mantras.

OM MAHAKALAYE SOHA
OM A RA PA CA NA DHIH
OM MANI PEME HUNG

OM AMI DEWA HRI
OM KALACHAKRA SOHA

OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG

SHAMARPA CHENNO

KARMAPA CHENNO

Namaste, blessed be.